I know many of you were confused about my reaction last night and some of you even called me stupid for it. I just want you to know that you were being insensitive, and this is why.
I am a naturally violent person. My tendency towards violence has gotten me in trouble since Kindergarten, Primary for you Brits. As I grew older things got progressively worse and worse. I missed out on the last third of fifth grade because my teacher refused to teach me after I threw a desk at her. Sixth grade wasn't much better. Seventh grade was when things went really down hill. On the first day of school I hit my principal in the face, causing him to call the cops and press charges.
My next stop was a school for the socially disturbed. These are the kids that normal schools kick out consistently. Before Thanksgiving of my first semester there I had a 5150 called on me. I was taken to a mental hospital for threatening my principal with a knife after a Parent-School meeting that went sour. One more trip to the hospital a few weeks later (during christmas) and I was officially not in the home anymore. I went through a group home where I was constantly threatened and I was helpless to respond. I was extorted for the Allowance that I was given, and every day I had to submit to the people that were bigger than me. From there I went to the court dates that I had to go to for hitting my principal, and it was at one of these court dates that I tried to run away, prompting the judge to send me to Juvy for a week to try and scare me. There I was threatened with Rape, and again I could do nothing about it.
After my sentence at Juvy was complete I went to a residential treatment center, which was filled with the kind of people even specialty schools didn't want to touch. Again, threats were said almost daily, and again I could do nothing about them. After I left that place I was home for about two months, went to the mental hospital again, and then was deported to Utah for treatment. My family was hundreds of miles away, and again I had to deal with threats to my safety.
I've had to deal with helplessness in instances of threats all my life, and it is a touchy subject. Did I overreact? Yes, I did, but for valid reasons. This theme of helplessness is the context that whoever it was posting didn't include when he quoted a post I made weeks ago. I just can't understand not fighting back, which is why I asked the question I did about rape. I just can't understand it. Don't let a single post change your opinion of someone or else you are no better than the people I defended you from.