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[RiptideX1090]

Azint wrote...

RiptideX1090 wrote...

This is who I am. This is how I think. It's simply what I am. I don't try to fight it. I take responsibility for it. I own it. I do not condone torture. I do not condone murder. I do not condone violence. That does not mean I won't use them if I absolutely have to. If me becoming a monster stops an even bigger monster, I can do that. I am at peace with that.

I just hope in the end you realize that you will be the bigger monster. And you will be the last monster.

And when I die, there will be one fewer in the world. I am at peace with that.

[CptSkull]

Azint wrote...

RiptideX1090 wrote...

This is who I am. This is how I think. It's simply what I am. I don't try to fight it. I take responsibility for it. I own it. I do not condone torture. I do not condone murder. I do not condone violence. That does not mean I won't use them if I absolutely have to. If me becoming a monster stops an even bigger monster, I can do that. I am at peace with that.

I just hope in the end you realize that you will be the bigger monster. And you will be the last monster.

"The Last Monster".... that's a good movie title.

[cannedcream]

Rip, Azint; I leave you to discuss the finer definitions of morality and humanity.



Such subjects are above me. I know only what I know and little else.



Keelah se'lai. Keep it respectful now.

[Azint]

RiptideX1090 wrote...

Azint wrote...

RiptideX1090 wrote...

In a philosophical sense, no.

In a real sense, yes. If someone decides to murder you, you're fair game, period. It's them making a choice and following through. It's not right. It's not fair. But it is what happens. I never claimed to be above petty murder or cruelty. All I'm saying is that I'm willing to take responsibility for it, to own those decisions, and to live with them, on my own.

That is a very self-destructive outlook.

It is.

Rip, I speak to you with the utmost sincerity: I have been down this road. There was nothing to be found but misery and regrets that will never escape. I don't know how much has happend to you, but there is nothing of worth to have by continuing it.

[Someone With Mass]

[CptSkull]

RiptideX1090 wrote...

Azint wrote...

RiptideX1090 wrote...

This is who I am. This is how I think. It's simply what I am. I don't try to fight it. I take responsibility for it. I own it. I do not condone torture. I do not condone murder. I do not condone violence. That does not mean I won't use them if I absolutely have to. If me becoming a monster stops an even bigger monster, I can do that. I am at peace with that.

I just hope in the end you realize that you will be the bigger monster. And you will be the last monster.

And when I die, there will be one fewer in the world. I am at peace with that.

By  being a monster you may have in fact made more monsters.

Modifié par CptSkull, 02 juillet 2010 - 08:18 .

[Mozer121]

To think that the value of life is a perspective is exactly how psychopaths that commit murder think. That kind of thinking only gives them the excuse to continue in their evil ways. If everything was just a perspective then we might as well all go out and murder our next-door neighbor and rape a child just because the mood struck us. If everything were perspective then why do have the law? The law is there for a reason. Murder isn't wrong because someone said it was. It's wrong because IT IS.

[RiptideX1090]

Azint wrote...

RiptideX1090 wrote...

Azint wrote...

RiptideX1090 wrote...

In a philosophical sense, no.

In a real sense, yes. If someone decides to murder you, you're fair game, period. It's them making a choice and following through. It's not right. It's not fair. But it is what happens. I never claimed to be above petty murder or cruelty. All I'm saying is that I'm willing to take responsibility for it, to own those decisions, and to live with them, on my own.

That is a very self-destructive outlook.

It is.

Rip, I speak to you with the utmost sincerity: I have been down this road. There was nothing to be found but misery and regrets that will never escape. I don't know how much has happend to you, but there is nothing of worth to have by continuing it.

I know. I don't have a light at the end of the tunnel. No pot at the end of the rainbow. No god waiting to great me when I fall. It took me years to accept it, but I have.

When I die, it will be a cold thing, it will be empty, as was what preceded it. Until then, I am content to draw pictures and write stories about people that don't exist, for people without faces, and to fight in a war and in a country that will not remember me. I'll fade away, and it won't matter. I'm a ghost. It's who I am. I'm fine with that.

[Thelacan]

A cold day on Noveria, chapter four is now up! Wheeeeee.

Please read and review, thanks!

***

He had been gingerly sucking on the tube with an empty gaze. Suddenly he heard a soft giggle emitting from behind him. He glanced back, the tube still between his lips and he arched his brown questioningly at Tali. She leaned closer to him, her eyes almost sparkling with joy.
“You look so silly” she giggled at him.
“I do that a lot, or so I hear” he smirked. He kept the tube between his lips and every now and then sucked it a little bit, making the tube wobble and causing Tali to giggle a bit more. He liked the sound of her giggling so he started to exaggerate his sucking, suddenly making a loud slurp which caused her to laugh.
“Shepard, stop it” she gasped for air. “Please, I can't breath” she laughed and coughed. Shepard had finished with the paste anyway so he just spat it out from his mouth, making Tali chuckle.
“What was so funny” Shepard asked, smiling at her, trying to ignore the sticky paste in his mouth, his tongue getting stuck in it.
“You” she said quietly and Shepard tilted his head, grinning. “I mean, not in that way!”
“Uh-huh”
“No, I.. I meant that, it's just, that you eat nutrient paste, from a tube, like quarians do” she started to babble. Shepard let a small laughter out. “Relax Tali, I was just teasing”
“I, um.. I knew that”
“But?”
“I just got nervous”
“About what?”

***

[Raid1000]

Someone With Mass wrote...

+infinite to everything

Modifié par Raid1000, 02 juillet 2010 - 08:22 .

[RiptideX1090]

CptSkull wrote...

RiptideX1090 wrote...

Azint wrote...

RiptideX1090 wrote...

This is who I am. This is how I think. It's simply what I am. I don't try to fight it. I take responsibility for it. I own it. I do not condone torture. I do not condone murder. I do not condone violence. That does not mean I won't use them if I absolutely have to. If me becoming a monster stops an even bigger monster, I can do that. I am at peace with that.

I just hope in the end you realize that you will be the bigger monster. And you will be the last monster.

And when I die, there will be one fewer in the world. I am at peace with that.

By  being a monster you may have in fact made more monsters.

There will always be more monsters.

It never ends.

[RiptideX1090]

Raid1000 wrote...

Someone With Mass wrote...

+ininite to everything

Indeed.

[CptSkull]

RiptideX1090 wrote...

Azint wrote...

RiptideX1090 wrote...

Azint wrote...

RiptideX1090 wrote...

In a philosophical sense, no.

In a real sense, yes. If someone decides to murder you, you're fair game, period. It's them making a choice and following through. It's not right. It's not fair. But it is what happens. I never claimed to be above petty murder or cruelty. All I'm saying is that I'm willing to take responsibility for it, to own those decisions, and to live with them, on my own.

That is a very self-destructive outlook.

It is.

Rip, I speak to you with the utmost sincerity: I have been down this road. There was nothing to be found but misery and regrets that will never escape. I don't know how much has happend to you, but there is nothing of worth to have by continuing it.

I know. I don't have a light at the end of the tunnel. No pot at the end of the rainbow. No god waiting to great me when I fall. It took me years to accept it, but I have.

When I die, it will be a cold thing, it will be empty, as was what preceded it. Until then, I am content to draw pictures and write stories about people that don't exist, for people without faces, and to fight in a war and in a country that will not remember me. I'll fade away, and it won't matter. I'm a ghost. It's who I am. I'm fine with that.

Are we still talking about a Video Game?

Modifié par CptSkull, 02 juillet 2010 - 08:23 .

[Thelacan]

I'm off gents! See you after the weekend!



Sorry Rip&Liv, I can only read your newest Reckoning after the weekend.

[cannedcream]

RiptideX1090 wrote...

I know. I don't have a light at the end of the tunnel. No pot at the end of the rainbow. No god waiting to great me when I fall. It took me years to accept it, but I have.

When I die, it will be a cold thing, it will be empty, as was what preceded it. Until then, I am content to draw pictures and write stories about people that don't exist, for people without faces, and to fight in a war and in a country that will not remember me. I'll fade away, and it won't matter. I'm a ghost. It's who I am. I'm fine with that.

You shouldn't be, though. No one should.

I hope someone comes along that makes you feel more worthy about yourself and your place in the world. I really do.

[RiptideX1090]

cannedcream wrote...

RiptideX1090 wrote...

I know. I don't have a light at the end of the tunnel. No pot at the end of the rainbow. No god waiting to great me when I fall. It took me years to accept it, but I have.

When I die, it will be a cold thing, it will be empty, as was what preceded it. Until then, I am content to draw pictures and write stories about people that don't exist, for people without faces, and to fight in a war and in a country that will not remember me. I'll fade away, and it won't matter. I'm a ghost. It's who I am. I'm fine with that.

You shouldn't be, though. No one should.

I hope someone comes along that makes you feel more worthy about yourself and your place in the world. I really do.

I had that chance. More than once. I'm hardly deserving of another. As I said, I'm content to spend my time here, until it is my turn to fight and die. Maybe, that'll be enough for someone else to have the opportunity to have what I never did.

It's not so terrible once you accept it.

[RiptideX1090]

Thelacan wrote...

I'm off gents! See you after the weekend!

Sorry Rip&Liv, I can only read your newest Reckoning after the weekend.

We'll have a new chapter for you. Promise.

[CptSkull]

RiptideX1090 wrote...

cannedcream wrote...

RiptideX1090 wrote...

I know. I don't have a light at the end of the tunnel. No pot at the end of the rainbow. No god waiting to great me when I fall. It took me years to accept it, but I have.

When I die, it will be a cold thing, it will be empty, as was what preceded it. Until then, I am content to draw pictures and write stories about people that don't exist, for people without faces, and to fight in a war and in a country that will not remember me. I'll fade away, and it won't matter. I'm a ghost. It's who I am. I'm fine with that.

You shouldn't be, though. No one should.

I hope someone comes along that makes you feel more worthy about yourself and your place in the world. I really do.

I had that chance. More than once. I'm hardly deserving of another. As I said, I'm content to spend my time here, until it is my turn to fight and die. Maybe, that'll be enough for someone else to have the opportunity to have what I never did.

It's not so terrible once you accept it.

As long as you're doing what you love to do, god speed man.

[Azint]

RiptideX1090 wrote...

I know. I don't have a light at the end of the tunnel. No pot at the end of the rainbow. No god waiting to great me when I fall. It took me years to accept it, but I have.

When I die, it will be a cold thing, it will be empty, as was what preceded it. Until then, I am content to draw pictures and write stories about people that don't exist, for people without faces, and to fight in a war and in a country that will not remember me. I'll fade away, and it won't matter. I'm a ghost. It's who I am. I'm fine with that.

Then nothing has its values. Nothing you ever do will ever mean anything. Why bother ever doing it? If you actually accept that your purpose is that, then that is all it would ever amount to. Do something, and mean it. Don't take a nihlistic approach to it, you're still too young to think like that and you accomplish nothing by preemptively doing it.

So what does anything mean to you? Do we mean nothing to you? You will likely never meet any of us, but you continue your activities here and you do it passionately. If you truly were fine with it, you would not be here, you would not be doing what you are, you would not be doing any fucking thing. Yet here you are. I believe that you think you know what you are saying, but I doubt you actually believe it. I've known things like this, and you are falling short of the criteria.

You need to give it time. It may take a year, it may take ten, twenty. You will find something and you will finally see what you need.

[CptSkull]

Azint wrote...

RiptideX1090 wrote...

I know. I don't have a light at the end of the tunnel. No pot at the end of the rainbow. No god waiting to great me when I fall. It took me years to accept it, but I have.

When I die, it will be a cold thing, it will be empty, as was what preceded it. Until then, I am content to draw pictures and write stories about people that don't exist, for people without faces, and to fight in a war and in a country that will not remember me. I'll fade away, and it won't matter. I'm a ghost. It's who I am. I'm fine with that.

Then nothing has its values. Nothing you ever do will ever mean anything. Why bother ever doing it? If you actually accept that your purpose is that, then that is all it would ever amount to. Do something, and mean it. Don't take a nihlistic approach to it, you're still too young to think like that and you accomplish nothing by preemptively doing it.

So what does anything mean to you? Do we mean nothing to you? You will likely never meet any of us, but you continue your activities here and you do it passionately. If you truly were fine with it, you would not be here, you would not be doing what you are, you would not be doing any fucking thing. Yet here you are. I believe that you think you know what you are saying, but I doubt you actually believe it. I've known things like this, and you are falling short of the criteria.

You need to give it time. It may take a year, it may take ten, twenty. You will find something and you will finally see what you need.

[Gust4v]

RiptideX1090 wrote...

Raid1000 wrote...

Someone With Mass wrote...
*awesomepic*

+ininite to everything

Indeed.

Ah, that's why Tali is the best squad member.

[uhdnrt]

Why settle for becoming a monster, when you can strive to be better? When you can become an example that what is good can not, even in the face of horror, be defeated?

Aside. If you open the door to something worse , you get it.

Modifié par uhdnrt, 02 juillet 2010 - 08:37 .

[SpatFieya]

cannedcream wrote...

RiptideX1090 wrote...

I know. I don't have a light at the end of the tunnel. No pot at the end of the rainbow. No god waiting to great me when I fall. It took me years to accept it, but I have.

When I die, it will be a cold thing, it will be empty, as was what preceded it. Until then, I am content to draw pictures and write stories about people that don't exist, for people without faces, and to fight in a war and in a country that will not remember me. I'll fade away, and it won't matter. I'm a ghost. It's who I am. I'm fine with that.

You shouldn't be, though. No one should.

I hope someone comes along that makes you feel more worthy about yourself and your place in the world. I really do.

Life is full of uncertainty. You can try and expect the best, and probably get the worst. But then again, you can expect the worst, that nothing will bring you light, that you will walk the road of despair alone... And end up being completely wrong.

You cannot accept a future that is unknown my friend. You can accept possibilities, and certainties; Death being one of those. I feel destiny is predetermined, and that no matter what happens in life, good, bad and ugly, it all happens for a significant reason. It makes you who you are. Why? Who knows, a persons character can do many things to others. It can bring down and destroy things, but it can also bring light to others, and your self.

I cannot fathom what you have seen or been through. No ones slate is completely clean, everyone is tainted to an extent. You can let that break you, or you can use it to give you strength.

I came in for a quick look at the thread, but I see a good person on rocky road. You may think to your self "You don't know me" and I don't per say. But I have that belief in every human being, there lies a good person. We may be faceless people, but that doesn't mean we do not care. People care about you, hell, here we are, people you've never met, caring for you.

I must depart now, but I wanted you to know all that. You have the power to make your self happy, to change the course of life your on. Remember that.

Good night, guys.

[Someone With Mass]

Gust4v wrote...

RiptideX1090 wrote...

Raid1000 wrote...

Someone With Mass wrote...
*awesomepic*

+ininite to everything

Indeed.

Ah, that's why Tali is the best squad member.

It's true. When she takes damage, I'm focusing all my fire towards the guy who's doing the shooting. Not to mention how much I love to run into the first room on the Alarei, yelling "WOLVERINES!"

Doing this in slow motion, thanks to the Solider's passive sprint boost makes it even more fun.

[RiptideX1090]

Azint wrote...

RiptideX1090 wrote...

I know. I don't have a light at the end of the tunnel. No pot at the end of the rainbow. No god waiting to great me when I fall. It took me years to accept it, but I have.

When I die, it will be a cold thing, it will be empty, as was what preceded it. Until then, I am content to draw pictures and write stories about people that don't exist, for people without faces, and to fight in a war and in a country that will not remember me. I'll fade away, and it won't matter. I'm a ghost. It's who I am. I'm fine with that.

Then nothing has its values. Nothing you ever do will ever mean anything. Why bother ever doing it? If you actually accept that your purpose is that, then that is all it would ever amount to. Do something, and mean it. Don't take a nihlistic approach to it, you're still too young to think like that and you accomplish nothing by preemptively doing it.

So what does anything mean to you? Do we mean nothing to you? You will likely never meet any of us, but you continue your activities here and you do it passionately. If you truly were fine with it, you would not be here, you would not be doing what you are, you would not be doing any fucking thing. Yet here you are. I believe that you think you know what you are saying, but I doubt you actually believe it. I've known things like this, and you are falling short of the criteria.

You need to give it time. It may take a year, it may take ten, twenty. You will find something and you will finally see what you need.

Nihilsm is the only thing that really makes sense to me. Only to me, I suppose. Putting a name to it doesn't seem right, though. I don't know. Not sure if I could sum up my thoughts and feelings on it with a single word, or a book of them for that mattter.

As it stands, I keep going in the hopes something will come along. That, or I die. Until then, I pass the time, filling the empty spaces with things that have questionable value. I'll either find a reason to live, or I won't. For now, I'm still looking. I'm not sure in the end that it matters. I'm not in the end that it doesn't.

I'm just, waiting, I suppose. Find work, save money, repair my eyes and my flesh, enlist, and what happens, happens. I feel no loss for anything either way. At least, I try not to. I know what I want. I know what I need. I just don't know how to get it, where to get it, or if in the end, it's even worth it. I don't know a lot of things...

Until then, I distract an overly energetic and creative mind with art, writing, and video games. I get tired of thinking about it sometimes... seeing as it's all I feel I do anymore.