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EnvyPrompted by a discussion sparked by
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It was early into the third shift on the
Normandy. Tali was exhausted; she had been doing the work of three people, and she had worked nearly 20 hours. Ken and Gabby were off ship on the human Time of Joining.
What was it...a honeymoon? she asked herself as she sat after grabbing some food.
She nodded a greeting. "Hello Miranda," Tali said, her voice tired.
"Long day in engineering?"
"Keelah yes," Tali said after having more of her paste. "Those two really do more work than I thought." She looked around quickly. "Nothing I can't handle, of course."
Miranda only laughed softly. "Of course not. Nothing is impossible for the perfect engineer." They laughed and ate in companionable silence for a moment. Finally, the commanding officer sighed.
"I envy you, Tali," she began as she set her utensils down.
Tali looked over at the brunette in shock. "W..What?"
"I do," she said again with a small smile. "When you first joined the ship, I wanted to dislike you. The Illusive Man had not planned on you, nor on what possible effect you would have on the Commander."
Miranda shook her head with a smirk. "He was unsettled enough with the revelation that one of the commander's oldest friends was the bloody Archangel."
"Really? That wasn't planned?" Tali asked.
The human answered, "Not at all. The initial plan was to keep Shepard as far away from his previous friends and contacts as possible. After the changes he went through when agent Vakarian joined the team, the plan was reconsidered." Tali tilted her head to the side in confusion.
"I noticed it on Freedom's Progress," Miranda said to the unspoken question. "And again when we found Garrus. His stance would shift slightly, and suddenly, the Commander Shepard that had saved the Citadel was in front of us. I figured out what was missing then."
"What was missing?" the engineer asked, her dinner abruptly forgotten.
Miranda took a sip of her drink, then answered, "Trust and Acceptance. I don't think either the Illusive Man or I had factored how important that was to the commander." Finally, Miranda looked up and stared straight into the quarian's eyes.
"And that is why I envy you Tali," she said softly. "For the longest time, all I have ever really wanted was to be accepted; to not feel like an outsider even among my own kind. And you had that with Shepard and Vakarian."
The human bowed her head. "I hated you for that. That you had what I wanted. And I didn't understand how you did it." She let out a laugh. "When in reality, I needed to learn how to accept myself, and trust others."
Miranda looked down at Tali's left hand, at the platinum band that was attached to the outside of her suit as a visible example of the actual ring worn inside the enviro-suit. The human reached out with her own left hand to grasp Tali's, and inspect the ring. Finally she smiled.
"I think I finally understand Tali" she said as she let go of the quarian's hand. And now the only thing I envy about you was that you learned it before I did. That you did not waste
years learning such a valuable lesson."
Tali could only nod as she sat there, stunned. She saw Miranda smile at her before the human got up and moved off. It was then her mind finally understood what she had seen and what she had heard. She stood quickly and grabbed Miranda's hand.
"John taught me," Tali blurted out as Miranda looked back at her in surprise. "And I didn't understand until he was gone. Then he came back, and I understood."
She smiled, even though Miranda couldn't see it. Releasing the human hand, she gave Miranda a brief hug. When she released it, she grabbed the left hand again, smiling all the while.
"Congratulations to both of you," Tali said after a moment. "If you'll excuse me, it's time for me to get some sleep." She made her goodbyes, then headed up to deck one, where her man waited for her.
Tired as she was, it had been a good day.
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Slightly shorter than the one posted in the blog. Hope it is good enough Titanium.
Modifié par uhdnrt, 08 juillet 2010 - 11:03 .