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Grey WardenWell this is an unexpected turn of events, Anders thought to himself as he was torn between watching the retreating form of Ser Rylock and watching the woman who had just saved him from her making faces at the Templar’s back and… yes, yes she
was doing a little dance as well. Oh good. If you have to be conscripted into a fanatical military order it’s really best your commanding officer is a complete lunatic. Keeps things fun.
“Me, a Grey Warden?” he blurted out. Not that he didn’t appreciate her, well, whatever it was she just did. The king made an obviously-sarcastic comment about wondering if she had anything to say- and really, were kings
allowed to be sarcastic? Didn’t they have to be serious and official and… kingly? But, the black-haired woman responded with something very official and final sounding, and the Templar was forced to back down. “Well, I guess that would work,” Anders had said when he realized with a shudder that he’d somehow managed to end up conscripted into the Grey Wardens, hoping he didn’t sound ungrateful.
It didn’t work.
The Warden Commander had been beaming, clearly very pleased with herself. His words brought her smile crashing down. She recovered quickly, but for a moment Anders felt like he had kicked a puppy. Or, in this case, a pretty girl in a very short skirt. Really, that was far worse than kicking a puppy.
Anders chewed on his nail, watching the king’s entourage disappear down the road. “Cut it out,” the dwarf said, smacking his arm down. “You’re covered in
darkspawn blood, genius,” he added when Anders gave him a quizzical look.
“Oh…”
“Yeah,” the man replied, shaking his head. “I thought all you mages were supposed to be smart?”
“I’m having an off day,” Anders said drily.
So worried about whatever was going to happen to him now, Anders had somehow forgotten: darkspawn blood was poison. Contact could result in incurable disease. Even worse, it resulted in a disease where the only kind option was to
kill the infected before they became a ghoul and ran off to join the darkspawn. Lovely.
He tried to join in the conversation as their small group walked back towards the building. Apparently the redheaded dwarf, who stunk of ale from yards away, would be joining. Not exactly the first person Anders would pick to recruit, but he’d gathered that the man was a good friend of the commander and one of the heroes of the blight. That probably would be enough to skip anyone past the “how many of me are you seeing right now” and “do your hands shake before you have your breakfast ale” portion of the entrance exam. The young woman in armor was a knight, also volunteering. When she had told him his response was “well good luck with
that.”
Ah, irony.
Feeling like he had jumped from the Circle’s frying pan into some ‘spend the rest of your life covered in blood and guts until you meet a painful untimely end’ Grey Warden fire, he watched the other recruits head in. Evidently the commander wanted to speak with him alone. Anders made a joke, giving her one of his best grins. Even if he didn’t want to join her crazy suicidal order, and even if watching her slice into her own hand in the middle of battle before a cloud of blood-tinged magic surrounded her had chilled him to the bone… well, that was no reason they couldn’t still be friends. Ideally the kind of friends who saw each other naked. She had been all in favor of the idea when they met in the Circle years ago, after all. If only he’d known it at the time, since she didn’t seem to remember him now.
Shaking his head, Anders tried to clear his thoughts. He should force himself to keep his mind on the present.
“I’m giving you an out,” she said. Mouth open in surprise, he listened as she told him he could leave, walk away. Not only that, she’d tell people he had
died. He could be free.
He winced when he realized why. It was because she had simply
assumed he would just run away and humiliate her in front of her superiors. Well, given his reputation it wasn’t exactly an unfounded worry. He probably would.
She then proceeded to do everything possible to convince him being a Grey Warden was, somehow, a great deal of fun. Her speech switched between vague yet grim warnings and near-pleas for him to stay. He half expected her to actually drop to her knees and beg, judging by the look of desperation in her eyes. His imagination briefly filled in that picture, which led to him thinking of… other things.
Maker’s breath, he admonished himself.
Get your mind out of the gutter. Focus! This could change the rest of your life. He directed his attention to a point beyond her shoulder, ignoring green eyes and short, tight mage robes.
Why am I still here? Anders thought, listening to her answer his questions about blood magic with an elaborate justification.
She said I could go. Why am I still here? He tried to forget the sound of darkspawn in the distance, the screams of everyone they killed as they moved towards his cell. The monstrous teeth, the smell of rot that followed them, and their dead vacant eyes haunted his memory.
Exhaustion pulled at him. Their small group had fought through the night, clearing the building of darkspawn despite their far superior numbers. Before that he had been dragged across half the arling by the Templars, beaten and exhausted; the culmination of three years spent on the run. Sometimes living well, most of the time not. Sleeping in the woods, even in the rain and snow. Starving. In constant fear of capture. This could be… what…? A job? A life? Even if every mage in Thedas was freed tomorrow he would still need some way to support himself. No one would pay him just to be handsome and charming. Well, not that he’d found so far, at least.
“Let’s say I decide to stay,” he found himself saying, glancing at the splashes of darkspawn blood still covering his robes. She beamed at him.
***
Anders looked into the glass. Well, no,
glass wasn’t quite accurate. This was a
goblet, an ostentatious, ornate goblet. Of course, any creepy ceremony involving drinks and ancient oaths and secretive orders wouldn’t use a simple glass, it would
have to be something crusted with jewels.
Although he did have to admit, it
was rather nice.
Are those rubies? Anders thought briefly, glancing over it in an attempt to avoid thinking about what was
in it.
Briefly, the idea of dropping the glass (
goblet) and bolting crossed his mind.
The first recruit to drink had been the dwarf. Since she found him in the middle of a circle of darkspawn sliced in half by his massive axe the two had been speaking in the way of people who were very familiar with each other, all half sentences and facial expressions and vague references to past events. Anders had seen a drawing once of the entire group she traveled with during the blight: who hadn’t, with the way they were celebrated all over Ferelden. The dwarf wasn’t as clean looking in real life.
The young woman in armor would evidently be going after him. She was grinning broadly, clearly excited beyond words.
Maybe this won’t be so bad, Anders thought, glancing at her and then the commander,
if all the girls look like these two I could even get to like this place. She had tried to warn him, true, but it wasn’t until she looked at the prone dwarf and sighed in relief, muttering “he’ll live” that Anders realized just
how bad the potential outcome was.
All this to join an order that fought darkspawn… when there wouldn’t be a real darkspawn threat again until long after all of them were dead and forgotten. A blight
just ended. Hundreds of years pass between them, even he knew that. Sure, there were darkspawn around
now, but they were probably just… leftovers of the blight. In a few years everything would be back to normal. It seemed almost pointless to take a risk like this.
But, something told him she wouldn’t just let him walk out, not now that he knew what the Grey Wardens obviously went to lengths to keep secret.
This all flashed through his mind in a split-second, after accepting the goblet. “So, that’s it?” he said, trying to sound light. “We have to drink this?”
“That’s it,” she nodded. “All Wardens have to.” Of course. She had explained that, in great horrifying detail, once they were inside. Being able to sense darkspawn, immunity to their poisonous blood… all for the price of one goblet of filth.
“Well, all right,” he said, continuing to stall. Anders fully expected her to jump in at any moment and laugh, saying ‘just kidding! Who would drink darkspawn blood? That’s crazy!’ at any moment. The dwarf was probably in on the joke. That’s what people do in this sort of situation, right? Stupid jokes at the expense of the new guy. But no, she was watching him with those bright green eyes and a worried expression, lower lip caught between her teeth. “If I wake up on a ship bound for Rivain in nothing but my smallclothes I’ll be
very angry,” he joked. Not even a hint of a smile. The woman next to him sighed in annoyance.
She did seem to be awfully content with her lot in life, though. Anders couldn’t help but notice that. She was from the Circle and evidently hated it as much as he did, if her ‘they’d have to drag my corpse through the doors to get me back’ comment was any indication, but was obviously happy here. Granted, she also shouted ‘hooray’ after every skirmish, so she was clearly a little unbalanced, but he had to have faith that an order as ancient and respected as the Grey Wardens wouldn’t put a
complete maniac in charge. Maybe that was just a… quirk. Like the dancing. Or that slightly vacant glazed-eye look she had, the same one he’d seen on the face of one too many fanatical templar, when she talked about the Grey Wardens. But she was the leader of the order, she would have to be the most devoted. It was only natural.
And really, at this point he didn’t have much of a choice. She might have let him go before, but even if he had, they would have caught up to him again. They always did.
Better than letting the templars hang me, Anders sighed, closing his eyes and choking the foul smelling concoction down.
His first thought was that he had managed to stumble on to the most unpleasant tasting beverage in Thedas.
His second thought was that he had no idea a drink could make him feel like someone had slammed a dagger into his skull and mashed it around.
And after that was when Anders came face to face with the most horrifying thing he had ever seen in his life. Darkspawn, thousands, tens of thousands, millions, numbers beyond counting: stretching out further than he could see. Somehow he knew, just
knew, that this wasn’t a dream. He was seeing something real, something happening right now, somewhere under the ground.
So many, he shuddered. There looked to be more here than the whole population of Ferelden.
None of them seemed to notice him; they were all completely focused on their task. After a moment he realized they were digging. Some part of his mind remained coherent enough to understand what they were looking for.
But… the blight just ended… he thought, panic flooding his veins.
They’re looking already? How could they be looking so quickly!? One, larger than the others, turned and stared at him. With a guttural growl it raised a hand, drawing it across his neck. When the others turned to see what had caught their leader’s attention, Anders begin to flail out, trying to run as thousands of pairs of those dead darkspawn eyes looked at him.
Sucking in a deep breath, Anders allowed his eyes to open a crack as he exhaled. The ceiling of the Keep greeted him, carved wooden beams arching across stone and plaster. With a groan he sat up, rubbing his head.
“Welcome, brother.” Looking towards the sound, he saw the commander kneeling on the ground not far from his feet. She briefly grinned at him, quite obviously relieved.
“Bad dreams,” was all he could say in response.
She nodded sympathetically. “That’s normal.”
He glanced around. The idealistic girl was gone. “Where’s…” Anders suddenly realized he didn’t even know her name, and felt horrible for it.
“She didn’t make it,” the commander said, sounding sad. She handed him some kind of amulet, glass with a drop of sludge at the bottom. Anders was barely able to pay attention as she began rattling off orders. Thankfully none were directed at
him. Something about bedrooms, baths, Senior Wardens, food… his head spun. She turned to leave, Anders shuffled after her. The dwarf, he noticed, did the same. He had a look of numb fear on his face.
Something tells me I don’t look much different, Anders thought.
Following her through the halls he could only think one thing.
They’re already searching. Ice in his veins, he realized they would
never stop looking. Not as long as any remained alive.
“How can you
eat?” he asked as they left the larder, watching her shove what looked like an entire loaf of bread in her mouth.
“Hungry,” she muttered, spraying crumbs and giggling at herself. Swallowing she went on. “And
I didn’t just drink a chalice of darkspawn blood.” She had a point there.
The commander went on to tell him something about increased appetites. He didn’t know how true that was, but if she continued to pack the food away like that it would probably be a month before she weighed more than the rest of the Wardens… combined. “I think this one is mine,” she said, peeking into an open door. After a vague warning about nightmares, she told them to decide who got which room and disappeared, yawning.
“You saw them, too,” the dwarf said to him once she had left. He didn’t have to explain what he was talking about.
“Yes,” Anders nodded. “They were…” he shook his head, still horrified.
“Looking for one of them old gods,” the dwarf completed grimly. “I used to wonder, back during the blight, why she and Alistair would scream in their sleep. I think I’m starting to get it.”
“Bloody horrifying,” Anders said. “I’ll admit; I didn’t much see the point in risking our lives to join, not before. Now, though…”
A nod, red beard twitching. “My people, we always took the darkspawn seriously.” He paused. “I’m no surface dwarf. Well, I guess am now, but I wasn’t always. Not until I joined up with her. I’ve been going on expeditions against them in the deep roads since I was old enough to hold an axe. Outside Orzammar, though… no one else cares. No one but the Wardens.”
Anders shrugged. “We… it isn’t something people here think about. I mean, during the blight everyone did, of course. Before that, though… I don’t think I ever heard them mentioned outside history class.”
The dwarf regarded him carefully. “You don’t live with them up here like they do in Orzammar. Easy to forget they’re out there.”
“But they are,” Anders said quietly. He was starting to realize why it might be worth the risk to make more Grey Wardens, blight or no.
“I guess that’s why they still need Wardens,” he mused, apparently having similar thoughts. “So someone up here remembers, passes on what to do. Since now we know that one day…”
“Right,” Anders said, sighing. That was what scared him. People had believed for years that the blights were over. Eventually they would believe it again. Now he knew differently. With his own eyes he saw them looking, preparing for the next one. That wasn’t the last blight. Someday, there
would be another. “How do you think she can live with it? Knowing? I feel like I could scream. It feels like we should go do
something.” He wrung his hands together anxiously.
“But what?” he said. Anders sighed, he had a point. The three of them, currently the entirety of the Ferelden Grey Wardens, couldn’t exactly take on that many darkspawn and expect to live more than thirty seconds into the fight. “Don’t let her fool you, either. She’s gotten real good at putting on a brave face. Watch the bottom lip. When she starts chewing on it you know she’s worried about something.” He paused, but clearly had more on his mind. Anders waited. “Don’t let all the laughing and cheering and dancing around worry you,” the dwarf said quietly. “I thought she was a bit
touched when I met her, too.” That statement was punctuated by a tap of his fingertip against the side of his head. “Fought side by side for two years with her, though. I don’t think you could find a more loyal friend anywhere. Heck of a warrior for a girl in a dress, too. You could do a lot worse for a boss, believe me.” He shrugged. “I always figured it was a mage thing, that tower just made all of you a little… whimsical.”
“I didn’t live there as long as she did,” Anders said by way of explanation. It was a relief to know she wasn't
completely insane, though.
The two of them picked their rooms- both were identical so it didn’t take long to decide. Turning back to the dwarf he searched his fractured memory of the last day. “Goodnight, Oghren,” he offered once the name was recovered.
“Night, Sparklefingers,” he grunted in response.
I’m just going to assume that’s a friendly jibe and not an insult, Anders thought, too tired to reply.
He was sitting up drenched in sweat not even an hour after crawling into bed. Although he
hoped to get a nice rest after his capture and the horrors of the previous day, that didn’t seem possible. Instead of a nice dirty dream, ideally featuring his new commanding officer, Anders was treated to more visions of darkspawn. Shaking slightly, he lay back down and curled his arm around one of the pillows. The rest of the night wasn’t much better. The fourth time he woke Anders pulled himself from bed and walked over to the window.
Second floor, he thought automatically, pushing the window open.
No bars. On a hill, but the drop off is far enough away it wouldn’t be an issue. Survivable fall. Shivering in the nighttime chill, Anders closed and latched the window, reminding himself that if he wanted to leave he could just use the door.
It was nearly a full moon. Smoke rose from the chimneys of scattered houses in the woods and in the distance he could see the light reflected off the Amaranthine Ocean, only distinguishable from the darkened night sky by the spread of stars. He had to admit, it was beautiful. Without knowing why, he began to imagine the trees burning, the land blackened and corrupted, even the very fish in the ocean dead and rotting, floating on the surface of polluted water. Rubbing his eyes, he looked again. The peaceful scene had returned to normal.
Turning his back from the window, Anders sat on his bed.
What have I done? he thought as he put his face in his hands, pushing his sweat-damp hair back. He tried to feel the corruption in his blood, but every diagnostic spell he knew turned up nothing. It was there, though. The nightmares were proof enough. Even if he left tomorrow… this would just follow him. Whatever that poison did to him, there was no getting out of it.
Shivering, he ducked under the blankets, lying back and staring at the ceiling. A memory of his childhood in Gwaren suddenly came back to him. One of the boys had found out what the Grey Wardens were, probably overhearing a bit of gossip, and running through the streets with sticks for swords fighting imaginary darkspawn soon became the hobby of choice among the village children. “
I’m a Grey Warden!” he had told his mother. She looked down at him and smiled, which meant it must have been just after the order was allowed to return to Ferelden, when he was eight or so. Not much later and she would have had to look up to speak with him.
Of course he was, she had said, since where else would he belong if not among the bravest warriors in Thedas? He had to grin, wondering what she would say if he told her that now. Somehow Anders suspected her response wouldn’t be much different. It was certainly more impressive than his life's previous accomplishments thus far, which amounted to setting a record for number of escapes and setting a record for number of times caught in the library after hours with a girl.
Not that waking up repeatedly in a cold sweat was making him feel particularly brave.
But he could fake it. And who knows, maybe eventually he
would be able to block out the nightmares.
Maybe I can actually do this, he mused as his eyes drifted closed once more.
Anders woke to the sun in his face. Sitting up, he tried to remember details from his nightmares and found they were already slipping away.
Probably for the best, he thought, realizing he really didn’t
want to focus on the apocalyptic visions that had plagued his dreams.
Grimacing as he pulled on the bloody robes from yesterday, Anders hoped someone in this building could give him something clean to wear. Opening the door, he saw that wouldn’t be necessary. Someone had found his belongings the Templars who captured him confiscated. Changing into clean robes from his battered old pack, Anders read the two notes that had been slipped under his door while he slept.
The first, from the housekeeper, said she didn’t know whose pack it was, but as the only male mage in residence she guessed him, and if not she hoped the robes would be of use. He snickered to see it addressed ‘Ser Mage.’ The second was a request to find someone named Maggie in her study. Who was Maggie? She was a woman with exceptionally bad handwriting, that much was clear, and someone important enough to have a
study, of all things, but beyond that his mind was blank.
Important enough to have a study… well, that answered that. Shaking his head, Anders laughed. He’d forgotten her name from the Circle days, and was so flustered at having been caught seconds after setting several templars on fire that when she introduced herself yesterday it was almost immediately out of mind. Evidently his
boss was named Maggie. Not “Grey Warden Margaret” as he now remembered the papers referring to her, not Warden Commander, not even Ser, just Maggie. Although it seemed slightly bizarre to him, given how serious and formal the ceremony was last night, Anders took it as a good sign. He wasn’t sure how long he would last if they expected templar-like discipline out of everyone.
I can do this, Anders told himself, trying to push aside his fear at spending the rest of his life fighting. Taking a few deep breaths he squared his shoulders and went to find her, as ready to start his new life as he would ever be.
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