You know, it's strange. I always get ideas for a prompt that when I write them up always seem to be vaguely relevant. Ah, well. Here's mine for this week.

It was raining when Nathaniel’s mother died. Some would say that that was fitting, that the state of the whether matched the somber mood inside of the house. And the mood was somber because, for all that his father had hated his mother and the servants thought her too demanding, a death was a still a death and one so close to them shouldn’t be taken lightly. Nathaniel hated that the more sentimental could say that the sky was sad that day. It couldn’t possibly have anything to do with his grief over his mother and therefore if it was to be raining because of a tragic occurrence than that occurrence would have had to have been elsewhere and unconnected to him. Who wanted the rain from someone else’s tragedy to overshadow his mother’s death?
Nathaniel had never told his father that. How could he? Rendon Howe was a man who had never had any patience for sentimental thoughts or idle dreaming. He had always said that if a man wanted something done then he would be better served to go out and do it instead of sitting around wishing. In later years, his father would go on to prove just how much he had meant that. It was a small comfort to know that at least his father had held to his convictions even if it had brought ruin to them all and had brought shame to the Howe name. His father hadn’t really seemed to ever mourn his mother but given their animosity that was, perhaps, not surprising. It was enough that he had never again said a word against her and that that incredibly unappealing portrait of the Lady Howe, which had previous only been taken out when her relatives had come to stay, had been left up in the Keep. Nathaniel liked to stand by it and just look at it sometimes as it reminded him that there had still been good in his father. That wouldn’t ever be nearly enough to make up for all the evil he had done but it was at least something to hold to.
Nathaniel had never told his brother about the rain either. Thomas was even more of a dreamer than he was and that had honestly worried Nathaniel. The problem with dreaming too much, of course, was that it meant that reality could never measure up to the hopes and expectations. Thomas’ dreams had seemed mostly harmless when Nathaniel had been sent to the Free Marches. The boy was full of chatter about glory in battle and epic heroes of legend – whose ranks he would one day join himself, naturally – and it had almost seemed like he preferred his dreams to his truth. It had seemed like he was just an overenthusiastic child but Nathaniel still had been hesitant to give his imagination yet more fuel. Thomas grew up eventually in a completely different country than Nathaniel and, though he hadn’t seen it personally, he was assured that his brother had turned to drink and chasing skirts. As hormones hit, romantic fantasies must have become a part of his fanciful repertoire so was he always searching for the one woman who would finally live up to his grand expectations? Did she even exist? And the drink…had that been his way of coping with the stumbling blocks in life that his dreams had not prepared him for? Nathaniel honestly didn’t know and, unless he could get Delilah to talk more about those years when he was gone, he never would. Reality had never been good enough for Thomas and Nathaniel hoped that, somewhere, he was happy now. He might even be with their mother again.
Nathaniel absolutely could not bring himself to tell his sister about the rain. Unlike Thomas, Delilah was a pragmatist. She would probably sit him right down and try to find out why he was saying things like that instead of accepting it or dismissing it like their father or brother would have done. Nathaniel might have even told her which was why he couldn’t have risked mentioning it at all. Delilah never tried to pretend that things were better than they were. She faced reality, no matter how awful it got, unflinchingly and she suffered for that. Nathaniel wasn’t about to add to her problems and he was the big brother anyway. It was really
his job to comfort
her, even if he didn’t know how, not the other way around. When he had found out that she wasn’t dead, he hadn’t been as surprised as he had thought he ought to be. Then again, she
would be the one to make it through. She had never wanted too much too quickly like their father or rejected everyone else’s reality and substituted her own like her brother. She had never really been happy living a pampered life as the Arl’s daughter because she said it made her feel removed from the people. Her new life in Amaranthine might not be glamorous but it felt more solid to her, more real. She was probably happier there than she ever could have been elsewhere.
Nathaniel wondered what his mother would have made of his feelings about the rain. It was a little depressing that he could perfectly picture how the other members of his family would have reacted and yet he had no idea how she would have. It was to be expected, he supposed. The Lady Howe had been the typical sort of aristocratic mother who had had little interest in noisy and sticky children that he had encountered in most noble households (the exception being Eleanor Cousland who, along with her husband, had adored her children since birth and Isolde Guerrin who seemed to be almost unhealthily attached to her son) and she had died before even Nathaniel could have become someone that could hold her interest. He had been raised instead by Adria who was just as good as a mother and who would have simply given him a hug had he confided in her. She was dead, too, now after having first become a ghoul. Sometimes when he looked at his mother’s portrait he tried to understand who she was because he understood her less than he understood anyone and he watched Delilah with her children it struck him just how sad that was. She was his mother but she might as well have been a stranger.
It was raining again. Some would call that fitting.