Ieldra2 wrote...
Admittedly it has taken me some up to come up with a satisfying character concept for Shepard. But I have one. Mostly, it's based on the assumption that most of his public persona is a mask. Like in my fanfic (the one linked in the OP), he acts the hard-ass Renegade at times, but it tears him up inside to see an innocent suffer. So there's no contradiction between the man who leaves Jacob's father to the mercy of his erstwhile victims and the man who heals the sick Batarian on Omega, between the man who uses the Renegade responses at Grunt's trial (it's an act, he knows krogan culture) and the man who convinces Jack not to kill Aresh on Pragia. No one who isn't really close to him ever sees his thoughtful side, and there are times when he comments his own actions in his mind with "Am I really doing this?". This way, I can overlook most of his steamrolling, and I'm much more forgiving of his lack of subtlely (which is, after all, only the surface) than of his cheesy lines in the romance (which are supposed to show the real man).
Hmm... I'm a little hesitant to post this as it's a big wall of text that's not entirely Miranda-related but I'll give it a shot.
I took the same approach as Ieldra in explaining and rationalizing Shepard's somewhat Mary Sue-ish (Gary Stu?) image. I suspect my Shepard is keeping up the facade to hide something different than Ieldra's is though. Underneath the facade, my Shepard isn't much of a hero at all.
Relating this back to the discussion a few pages back, my Shepard has seen and done things that haunt him and have shaken his belief system to its very core. He's been changed. He's seen too many friends die and been forced to make too many sacrifices for him to ever be "normal" again. While he may have been idealistic at one time, all that's left of that man is his quest to stop the Reapers. He pursues it relentlessly because he sees it as a kind of atonement for past sins (if he can save the galaxy, maybe that will justify or balance out all his past deeds) but also because he fears what he will become without a purpose to drive him.
In terms of alignment, most of his actions are Renegade but he makes those decisions out of what he believes to be necessity, not callousness. Working for Cerberus and with Miranda is both easy and difficult for him. Easy because considering the cost of failure in his quest to stop the Reapers, he also has somewhat of a results-at-all-costs outlook. Difficult because he is all too aware of the costs, both to himself and others, that such an approach requires.
The reason I posted so much about the role of delusion in preserving sanity is I'm working through the dynamic of the relationship between my Shepard and Miranda. Due to the effect his experiences have had on him, he often asks himself whether ignorance really would be bliss. He may appear formidable on the outside, but underneath the shell in many ways he's not as strong as Miranda in his convictions. Where Miranda may question her worth and her accomplishments, Shepard's experiences have made him question his beliefs about what is "right" and "good" in the universe.
Edit: Finally read the fic you've got linked in the OP, Ieldra. You did an excellent job of portraying some of the hard choices Shepard and Miranda may be forced to make, given the realities of their mission. I thought Miranda's reluctance to just allow herself to escape into Shepard's arms was very realistic and IC.
Modifié par fongiel24, 24 août 2010 - 12:15 .





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