I make no claims that this will be even remotely interesting - and all the other things we say when we put something of our own writing out there where it can be either liked or hated. However, having received much enjoyment from the works on this board and on FF.net (which won't let me post this till I've been a member another 15 hours...) I thought I would share it on the off-chance.
*edit* wow... formatting needed so much help oy!
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Origin - Circle Tower
When Jowan came up to me in the hallway outside Duncan’s guest quarters and started nervously whispering to come away with him I didn’t imagine what he was about to tell me. Not that was wasn’t pleased to find out the “girl he’d met” wasn’t entirely in his imagination or one of the other apprentices that I couldn’t stand… but did he have to pick an initiate to the Chantry?! It is forbidden, of course. He had bigger problems though – if that’s possible. In line to become tranquil and lose his entire spectrum of emotions – which would have at least taken care of this forbidden love issue – his magic and his dreams. Made like Owain. It makes me shudder to imagine it.
Of course he found out through his forbidden love mistress. Which is probably one good reason why such trysts are forbidden. They suspect he is a Blood Mage, which he denies, and in truth I can’t imagine that he could manage it – I’ve seen him at spellcraft all my life after all and he’s not the sharpest staff in the bin to put it
mildly. I always thought it was just his unwillingness to accept the strict guidelines of magical conjuring, but after my own Harrowing I am beginning to suspect he simply lacks the proper will. The way he pleaded with me
to help him and Lily avoid punishment confirmed this new idea.
I wanted to say that I would help him, but the look in his eyes, and hers… it made me uneasy. They were going to have to further defy the rules of the Circle to get out of the mess they were already in, and I have just been honored through my Harrowing to join the true Mages. Irving has been like a father to me all these long years in the tower,
even though I am not even Human like he is, how could I betray his trust for Jowan, as much as he has been friendly enough to me so that he could whine about the templars and the restrictions? I had to be honest, I could not be a part of this. Lily enjoined me not to speak of it, but I don’t know her. She’s got no right to ask me to keep my silence – they could both be killed doing some fool thing over this!
Senior Enchanter Leorah offered me an opportunity to practice my magic without restriction in the supply tunnels below the tower verses live targets, which I seized as it is very rare to have such a chance to contribute with magic to the Circle’s wellbeing for young apprentices… I should say young Mages now that I am one. It is still hard to believe even as I admire my robes and staff and new quarters. The Circle has been good to me. I was taken here when I was so very young that I do not know what life would have been like for me outside of its halls, where elves are not treated well I am told, unless they live the life of wanders in the forest the way the Dalish supposedly do. I must tell the First Enchanter about Jowan and Lily. It makes me sad to betray their trust, but I cannot betray my home and everything I am to keep their secret when all it will do is harm them. This will be difficult.
Irving already knew about him and Lily, and suspected that she told him of the Circle’s plans to make him Tranquil. I was a little taken aback by his frankness with me about that, knowing as I do how sad it makes him every time a
potential mage fails to come to their potential. I was more surprised that he wanted me to pretend to help them and expose their actions – but how could I refuse? He was right to say that the Chantry would protect Lily and leave Jowan to suffer all the blame on his own if it was not proven that they were both equally culpable. Jowan was going to be punished in either event, why should Lily – who really created this situation by divulging the information she should not have – be left to become a priestess of the Maker? Still… I felt it was beyond my duty to
do this to them, but Irving made it clear that any order from him is my duty to the Circle… and he is correct. I owe them everything, including this. Maker help me.
It was a complicated plan to get into the sealed chamber that housed the phylacteries, and I felt nervous battling down the defenses that assaulted us as we searched for our way around the door. Of course, Irving had revealed to me that there would be another way, and I led them to it – deceiving them and allowing them to believe they deceived me. I saw Jowan drop his phylactery to the ground where it shattered and cringed. He would be free for
only a short few minutes… but it was no less than he deserved for spitting in the faces of the Templars and the Mages. What guilt I felt for him as they confronted us outside the chamber and proclaimed that he be put to death and she sent to the Mages prison evaporated when he cast his Blood Magic to escape. Without Lily. She would
have none of him now that he had revealed his vile practices to her. Poor girl, for her I felt truly sorry.
Knight Commander was less kind to me than Irving though, suspected me of having been influenced by Jowan. The nerve! I never feared or hated the Templars as some did, I only wanted them to realize I would never threaten others with my magic. Certainly not them who had given me so much! Duncan, the visiting Grey Warden, recruited me for my talents though just then. Taking me from the Circle and Gregior’s accusing stare. Irving urged me to go, so proud of me that I could bear the thought of leaving him only to return and prove that I had been all he ever wanted me to be. I will miss the Circle, but I will prove that Mages can serve the good of all as magic is meant to serve man, and never to rule over him. So let it be.
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