Rinna had always been able to take care of herself, of course. One didn’t make it to their double digits in their line of work without being reasonably self-sufficient, after all. Still, Rinna wasn’t exactly the run-of-the-mill recruit. No, she was special. Her movements were so graceful that she almost danced across the battlefield and there were times when Zevran realized that she was a lot closer than he had thought she was. Her eyes gleamed with justice and her targets never saw her coming.
That was why Zevran didn’t understand it, this strange need to protect Rinna. Rinna may not be as talented as he was – well, by his own admittedly biased estimation at any rate – but she was better than most and she’d never forgive him if she knew. Taliesin would never let him hear the end of it and who knew how the Crow Masters who hadn’t even let him keep an old pair of Dalish gloves would handle the news? Well, he would just keep this information to himself, for everyone’s sake…not to mention, of course, that he wouldn’t have even known how to express the sentiment even had there not been so many, many reasons not to.
There was just something about her, though…when he saw her standing there alone he wanted to hide her away from the rest of the world. When he saw her hurting he wanted to kill whoever had done that to her. When he saw her in trouble, he had to stop himself from running to her side and fighting with her. It was really a good thing that they hadn’t had any missions together because, despite how much he would enjoy their time together, he was afraid that this strange protective instinct would do something to jeopardize their goal or get one of them into trouble.
It wasn’t even just a matter of him wanting to make sure that nothing happened to someone important to him because he thought that Taliesin was probably more important to him than Rinna was and yet…He would be very upset if Taliesin died and would readily take the opportunity to avenge him if he could but he didn’t feel that same compulsion he did where Rinna was concerned. Taliesin was no better of an assassin than Rinna so what was the difference? Why did the thought of anything happening to her make him feel sick while the thought of something happening to Taliesin just filled him with a cold anger?
He would have to figure this out or otherwise get past it because this desire to protect Rinna wasn’t going to do anybody any good, not even her.
Caunira Surana could kill a man with a gesture from hundreds of feet away. She could take out a dozen darkspawn at a time and on the off-chance that she suffered a physical injury she could completely heal it in a matter of seconds. From what Wynne had said, Caunira was one of the top apprentices up at the Circle Tower and he could definitely see why. Caunira could take care of herself far better than Rinna ever could and he had no doubt that, if she so chose, she could kill him without so much as touching him. She had been the death of hundreds and would probably be the death of hundreds more before this Blight business was through.
That was why it didn’t make any sense. With Rinna, at least, he felt that if it came down to it he probably would be able to defend her better than she could defend him. With Caunira, it was just the opposite. So why…why did he want to try anyway? When he saw someone (usually a long-ranged fighter or another mage or emissary since close-quarters fighters didn’t often get close to her) going after her in a fight, he went after them without a second thought. If someone got close enough to attack her with a sword or a dagger then they were losing a head and if any of them actually managed to wound her…well, they usually ended up regretting that.
For all of that, though, he knew that it was absolutely unnecessary. She had been managing just fine even when it was just her, Alistair, Morrigan, and the dog and she would continue to manage fine even if…when the day came that they were no longer travelling together. More often than not, it was Caunira who was freezing an enemy that was about to land a blow on him. And as far as protection went, she was the one with the skills and the reputation to keep the Crows from coming after him while he could do nothing to stop the darkspawn or the humans from trying to kill her.
And yet…and yet it almost felt like Rinna all over again. He still wanted to hide her away so she wouldn’t get hurt, he still wanted to hurt whatever had hurt her, and he still wanted to run to her side and fight her enemies. Unlike with Rinna, however, he actually did. Unlike with Rinna, there were no Crows or unwritten rules holding him back.
Zevran still couldn’t figure it out and he was starting to doubt that he’d ever get past it but maybe…maybe that was okay. Caunira could take care of herself, after all, and he’d be there to try to protect her however he could regardless. He had to have learned something from that mess with Rinna and maybe that was what mistakes to avoid. Maybe this time, he could pull it off.
Maybe.
He had another chance now and it was all thanks to Caunira. He’d do whatever it took to keep her safe.





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