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I know I promised you all that my next story would be Les Aventures du Renard Blanc, but my only excuse is that Teagan kidnapped me!  He kidnapped me, possessed me and this is the end result.  I just HAD to get it out of my system before I could move on to Marianne’s story and do it justice.

That said, I hope you enjoy.  I have tried something a little different.  You will notice as we progress that the first half of the story the titles are listed by name.  That is for a particular reason.  I have tried to write these chapters from that character’s particular point of view.  I’m not sure exactly why this happened, but suffice it to say I am pretty satisfied with the results.  Later on, when the chapters take on names of their own, it will be back to the mutli-point of view format that I usually use.

My everlasting appreciation to my betas Erynnar and VioletTheirin  for putting up with me, checking my chapters, assisting me with ideas, and just plain being there when I needed them.  A special shout out and thanks to VioletTheirin for the title to this story ... for some reason I just could not grasp one that worked.  Not only did she, but it inspired me to add in additional chapters to make it work even better.

As always, Bioware owns all but what I created.
 


‘TIL YOU RETURN TO ME AGAIN

Lysette Cousland found herself wandering the battlements of Redcliffe Castle the night before their final march to Denerim.  The armies were gathered, the new king ready to take the throne upon victory.  But, Lysette found herself unsettled, both by what Riordan had announced to her and Alistair about what was necessary to defeat the archdemon, and by Morrigan’s offer to guarantee their safety.

Riordan’s announcement of the Grey Warden’s sacrifice had not really surprised her.  After the journey she and Alistair and their companions had undertaken for the past year and a half, she didn’t feel anything else could stun her.  And, given her current situation, she felt that she was the one who would make the sacrifice.

But Morrigan’s offer had shocked her.  Lysette had been prepared to dismiss the idea immediately, to send the witch off without another thought.  Knowing that it affected not only herself, but Alistair as well, she agreed to Morrigan’s request to speak with him about it.  Alistair’s initial reaction had been predictable: blood magic?  No way.  As Lysette explained the information that Morrigan had given her, she sensed a change in her friend and fellow Warden.  When next he looked at her, she felt ... disbelief?  Honor?  Pride?  Certainly love for her blood brother.  

“Alistair, you don’t have to -”

Alistair stood up from the chair and placed a strong, calloused finger to Lysette’s lips.  With one of his lopsided grins easing across his lips he told her, “Lys, this is the one thing I am pretty sure I need to do.  I have to make sure you survive.”  He kissed her forehead gently, then added, “Teagan would kill me if I didn’t!”

Lysette blushed.  Her relationship with Teagan, if you could call one night’s tumble two months earlier a relationship, seemed to have made it around their little camp.  If only they knew the full story! she thought.  Grasping his hand, Lysette looked up into Alistair’s amber eyes.  “You are truly an amazing friend, Alistair.  I am honored that you would even think to do such a thing for me ... given that I know exactly how you and Morrigan feel about each other ....”

Alistair shuddered at the thought before emitting a groan.  “Riiiight, creeeepy.  Let’s go get this over with, shall we?” he choked.  He saw her smile then and kissed her hand.  “The longer I have to think about it, the less I’ll want to go through with it ....”


As she stood in the open air above the castle now, Lysette sincerely hoped that Morrigan, despite her lack of caring for the ex-Templar, treated him well.  

She turned into the wind, pulling her cloak closer, the hood around her head, and began walking again.  She neared the northernmost point that overlooked Lake Calenhad to find someone else standing there. Unfortunately, she realized too late who it was.

Teagan turned at the sound of approaching footsteps to find Lysette standing nearby.  He offered her a smile, gesturing for her to join him.  He noticed her hesitation and wondered at it.  

“I would have thought you to be resting,” Lysette murmured as she approached.  “We have a long march ahead of us.”

Teagan nodded and turned back towards the Lake.  “I was up here ... thinking,” he explained.  

“Of the upcoming battle?” she asked.  She wished she could reassure him that all would be well, but she wasn’t about to give away Grey Warden secrets.

“Of you, actually,” he returned.  He glanced back down at her to find her features paling.  “Lys, are you all right?”  He reached a hand out to her shoulders to steady her.

Lysette gasped softly at his touch, immediately taking a step back from him, out of reach.  “I-I’m fine,” she stammered.  I cannot stay and talk to him! her brain screamed.  He won’t want the likes of me now ....

Teagan frowned.  He saw something flash in her cerulean gaze, but the lighting was so bad he could not tell what it was.  “Lys, you don’t look fine.  Are you ill?”

Just leave me alone! her brain communicated.  “Just ... I’m just tired ... maybe worried,” she added.  “We’ve almost reached the end, and there are so many things to still worry about ....”

Teagan gave her a sympathetic smile.  In her early twenties, Lysette had reached a position of leadership that most men twice her age would find daunting.  “It wouldn’t be normal if you didn’t worry,” he told her honestly.  He did see her flash him a small smile at that.  “Would you like to join me downstairs for a nightcap?” he asked.  He wanted to get her at ease, help her relax so that they could talk.

Lysette shook her head.  “I-I’m sorry, Teagan.  I think I will just ... go to bed.  We have an early start in the morning.”

He had barely finished nodding when he noticed her spin around and hurry towards the stairs descending to the keep below.  A few moments later, with a heavy sigh, he turned and followed behind her.  She was right: the morning would come all too early. 

Modifié par ladyames, 29 juillet 2010 - 11:52 .


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YAY another fic from one of my favorite authors! WOOT!

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You are so silly sometimes ... but thanks! [blush]


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Yay Teagan! I love it as I do everything you write! * grabby hands * More more more!!

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Awww! Thanks Sweetie!

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Thank you to those who have joined me on the journey that is
Teagan’s story!  Those who have read,
reviewed and set alert and fav status - I am very appreciative!  Thanks especially to Nithu, CynderJenn,
Snafu1000, Piceron, VioletTheirin, kiwibliss, Shakespira, Harmakhis and
Erynnar.  Your interest adds fuel to the
fire of my writing!

Special thanks to my betas, Erynnar and VioletTheirin
for their invaluable assistance ... especially when they are busy with their
own writing!  Also, special shoutout to kiwibliss
for giving me perspective from a non-DA point of view!  Thanks, Sweetie! And to my new and fabulous
beta MireliA!  Welcome to the fun, Sweetie!

As always, Bioware owns all that I did not make up on my own ....



**  Just a heads up ... this may be the last posting this week as I have company coming into town
through the weekend.  Will be back as soon as I can to post, or Monday ... whichever comes sooner ...






 
TEAGAN 1
 

Thank the Maker, the Blight had ended!

Now back at Redcliffe, taking over the Arling for his brother who had remained in Denerim to assist Alistair in his new role as king, Teagan wondered briefly if the needs of the people in peacetime would be enough
to satisfy him as they had during the Blight.  The danger was over, the archdemon defeated and the kingdom on its way to unification, yet the former Bann of Rainesfere was beginning to feel a bit ... lost for reasons he knew only too well.

As his nephew’s half-brother had done during the Blight, Teagan now walked among the people of Redcliffe, speaking with them, listening to their concerns, making himself available for whatever, or whoever, was
needed.  He had been the one they came to for help when his brother Arl Eamon had taken ill.  He had been the one they had asked for - and Eamon and Alistair had agreed - to replace Eamon.  He and he alone was the one they came to with their struggles, their trials, ... and their joys.  As the days passed and the realm healed,
Teagan began wondering to whom he would turn for his needs to be met.

The new Arl found himself on any given day walking through the village, visiting the Revered Mother at the Chantry; speaking with Murdock, still the mayor of the village, regarding the establishment of monthly militia
drills; assisting Ser Perth and the other Knights of Redcliffe with various odds and ends that needed doing.  For, though the Blight was over, much still needed to be done to rebuild.  And through it all, Teagan thought only of one person: Lysette Cousland, Grey Warden, Hero of Ferelden.

He had known her since she was a child, her family and his being close friends.  During the Wardens’
journey to stop the Blight, they had met up again at Redcliffe.  The defense of the village from attack had
been in no small part due to Lysette and Alistair and their willingness to defend the innocent townsfolk.  Teagan
had managed to find moments to speak with Lysette privately during the Wardens’ stay, and their return trips as well.  On one occasion, things had even ... progressed to where Teagan had thought he might
convince her to return to him after the Blight ended.  Yet, somewhere, somehow, and for reasons
unknown ... that message had not been made clear to her.  After the defeat of the archdemon, during the
confusion after the battle in Denerim, the coronation of Alistair and the rebuilding of the palace and the city, Lysette had managed to sneak out of the capital and into the unknown ....

His steps heavy this autumn evening as he strode back up the hill towards the castle, Teagan was teased with recollections of the first time he and Lysette had met, years before, at a Landsmeet in Denerim.  Bryce, Eleanor and both children were in attendance at that meeting he recalled.  He had been thirty or so at the time, and newly made Bann of Rainesfere.  Fergus, at twenty, had found him at the Gnawed Noble Tavern, and was telling him about his latest conquest in young women when Lysette had come upon them ....



“She’s the prettiest little thing, Teagan,” Fergus said with a grin over the brim of his tankard, his eyes sparkling at the memory.  “And, what a spitfire!  Maker, I thought she might smash that tray on my head afterwards!”

Teagan laughed giving his friend a wide grin in return.  “Serving wenches are a tricky bunch,” he
admitted from personal experience while lifting his mug in silent salute.  “I admire your courage, my friend!”

Fergus opened his mouth to respond when a shadow fell over the table.  Glancing up, he found his
little sister standing there.  With a visible sagging of his shoulders, Fergus groaned.  “Lys ....”

“Mother and father are looking for you, brother.”

At the melodic tones, Teagan glanced up at the newcomer ... and met cobalt blue eyes with his grey. 
She was dressed in leather armor, her bow at her back and daggers at her waist.  Her dark curls reached beyond her shoulders where they were pulled back at the sides in two braids and secured twice with strips of leather.  If she had not called Fergus brother, he might not have guessed she was Bryce and Eleanor Cousland’s youngest, though now that he looked closer, she did resemble her mother quite a bit.  “Lady Lysette, I presume?” he asked.

Lysette nodded, struggling to contain a blush of embarrassment.  Fighting it back, she returned, “I understand congratulations are in order, Bann Teagan.  My parents mentioned your recent ... promotion.”

Teagan grinned and watched as she reddened just a slight bit more.  “Thank you, my lady,” he replied,
nodding slightly at her. 

Fergus stood then, downing the remainder of his ale in one gulp before setting the tankard aside with a thunk on the wooden table.  “Teagan, I hope we shall meet again before the Landsmeet is over.”

Teagan rose and clasped wrists with his friend in the usual warrior fashion.  “I believe your family
has been invited to a dinner at my brother’s estate,” he agreed, “a ‘small affair’ according to Isolde to celebrate my being made Bann.  At any rate,  I hope that I shall see you both there?”  Fergus nodded, Lysette rolled her eyes, but also nodded.  Biting the inside of his lip to contain his amusement, Teagan decided not to press the issue. 
“Maker be with you both,” he finally managed.

“And with you,” Lysette’s soft alto tones replied as she and her brother turned to leave the Gnawed Noble Tavern.  Teagan watched them leave the establishment together, Fergus whispering something to his sister, and she responding by slugging his arm.  Teagan winced first and then smiled.  He wondered what Fergus had said
to cause that particular reaction ....





Teagan entered Redcliffe castle through the front gates.  To his right he found Redcliffe archers
taking down their targets for the day. He climbed the steps, gratefully weary from the day’s efforts.  He would take his meal in the study, as he often did, while working on the monthly accounts.  He entered through the main doors, signaling one of the servants to notify the kitchens that he had returned.

Before he was halfway to the study, another servant came rushing up to him.  “My lord, you have a guest ...”

Teagan sighed and ran a hand over his face, all the while hoping it wasn’t one of the village elders deciding to pay him a visit of an evening as they sometimes would.  “Who is it, Daynan?” he asked wearily.  “I am in no mood ....”

“I would have hoped that I would be a more welcome guest in your house....”

Surprised, Teagan turned towards his study to find Fergus Cousland standing there in the doorway. 
“Fergus!” Teagan exclaimed, crossing the hall to greet his longtime friend.  Then, with a deeper look of
concern, he asked, “How are you?  Truly?”

Fergus tried to shrug off the injuries he had received at Ostagar so many months before, but Teagan had seen him at the palace only a few weeks previous and was well aware of the damage done, not all of it
physical.  “I am doing as well as can be expected,” he replied.  He followed Teagan into the study where the elder man poured them each a drink.  Taking it in hand, the two men tipped their glasses in silent salute.

“So,” Teagan began, first to speak after the silence, “to what do I owe the pleasure of your unexpected visit?  Come to see Bella at the Warden’s Rest?”

Warden’s Rest?” Fergus queried, a frown of confusion crossing his features.

Teagan chuckled.  “She changed the name when Lloyd, the lazy lout, left.  Now she runs it all by herself.  And quite admirably, I must say.  You must stop by and see it for yourself, my friend.  You won’t recognize the place!”

Fergus smiled sadly remembering a summer only ten years distant or so ....  With a heavy sigh, he
replied, “I wish I could tell you that was tempting, but given all that has happened ....”

Teagan nodded.  There was no need for explanation.  When Fergus had married six years before, Teagan had been in attendance.  Though it went against most of the nobles’ sense of propriety, Teagan had supported his friend in his marriage to the Antivan beauty he’d found and loved.  The death of Oriana would haunt Fergus for a long time to come he suspected, as well as the death of their only child.  “Any word on your sister?” Teagan asked casually.

Fergus took another drink from his glass, smiling behind the rim.  “Actually, my friend, she is the
reason I am here.”  When Teagan’s eyes darted up to his suddenly, Fergus had his answer to an unspoken question.  “I wish I could tell you I knew where she was, but I cannot.”  Setting his glass aside, he reached into his pocket.  Withdrawing a folded piece of paper, he handed it to Teagan.  “Our king asked if I would deliver this to
you personally,” he announced quietly.  “Is there ... something I should be aware of, my friend?”

Frowning, Teagan took the parchment and broke the seal.  Scanning its contents, he groaned inwardly.  When did Alistair become so perceptive? he wondered silently.  Refolding the parchment, he lifted it and waved it at Fergus.  “Have you seen this?”

Fergus shook his head.  “No, though Alistair did tell me, generally speaking, what it contained.  Should I have concern that our king believes Lysette would run to you for ... escape or protection?”

Teagan turned, his drink still in his hand, and set the paper aside on the desk.  Walking over to the window that opened to the north out over the lake, he stared out at the sunset beyond.  As he looked out over the
calm waters below, he couldn’t keep from remembering ....



Teagan was passing through the “hall of glass” as he had called it since he was a small boy, the hall leading to private quarters he used whenever he visited, that had an entire wall of windows looking out over
the gardens of Redcliffe.  He was striding down the passageway when a blur of motion in the gardens caught his
eye.  Pausing, he walked to the glass and looked out ... to find Lysette alone and wandering around the blooms that his mother had planted so many years before.  Curious, he turned towards the door.

As he approached the younger Cousland, Teagan cleared his throat.  “Good evening, my lady,” he
greeted her softly so as not to startle her.  He found her dressed casually, in dark leggings and dark blue over-sized tunic, but she still wore her sword belt. 

Lysette smiled up at him as she turned from the rosebush.  “Good evening, Bann Teagan,” she replied.  

Teagan’s smile widened into a grin.  He knew what she was about.  Upon her arrival in Redcliffe, she had
requested he simply refer to her by name, without her title.  Teagan, however, refused to do so.  “I must admit I am pleased to find such beauty in the garden this evening.  It has not been graced by such a vision of loveliness since my mother’s passing so many years ago.”

Lysette’s smile stayed in place, though she did duck her head slightly, momentarily embarrassed. 
“I - I understand that your mother was a very beautiful woman,” she returned.  “I’m sorry not to have had the
pleasure of meeting her.”

Teagan smiled and offered her his arm.  “I was but a boy when she passed,” he admitted as he led her to another part of the garden, “but as I recall, this was her favorite area to sit and read of an afternoon.”  So saying, he led her to a small footbridge, rising over a stream that flowed from one end of the garden to the other.  Once on the other side, he gestured her ahead of him, up the small path way to a gazebo surrounded by numerous varieties of
flowers.  He heard her gasp of surprise and couldn’t help but chuckle to himself.  “Why is it,” he wondered softly as he led her to a bench and sat beside her, “that all women seem to like flowers?”

Lysette’s laughter washed over him, sending a wave of sensation down his spine.  Glancing at
her, he saw her staring out at the blooms.  “That is probably because like women, these blossoms are strong, hearty, resilient ... though they appear to be weak and delicate.”  

She stood for a moment and moved towards a bush, breaking one of the gentle blooms and lifting it in her hand.  Turning back to face him, she said, “Like this one, for instance.”  Lifting it slightly, she twisted the stem between her fingers so that the last rays of evening sunlight could catch on the blue hues of the petals.  “Petals so soft one might think they were the skin of a baby; lovely colors to put your heart and mind at ease;” she lifted
it to her nose first, then in Teagan’s direction, “a scent so gentle, so alluring you would think nothing but sharing it with others.  Yet,” again, Lysette lifted the bloom, this time upending it, turning it within her hand until he could see a thin line of blood trickling from her palm down her wrist, “a stem riddled with sharp thorns to remind you that not only is this blossom a delicate gift of the Maker, but also a hearty plant, one capable of defending itself against any foe no matter its size or strength.”

Teagan gasped, concern filling his features immediately.  Rising, he reached for her hand, turning to see that the cut was small, and of no cause for immediate concern.  Taking the flower from her, he set it aside.  “Point well taken, my lady,” he murmured, staring into her eyes for a long moment.  He could see something in the depths, hidden but bubbling near the surface.

“Do not mistake me, Teagan,” she told him, her voice dropping huskily, her eyes locked onto his.  “I am no delicate bloom - I never have been.  I was raised a warrior, a soldier in my father’s armies, a Captain in his guard. 
I have fought against treachery, treason and torment most of my life.  Like the rose, I have learned to protect myself.”

Having wiped the blood from her hand with the cuff of his sleeve, Teagan now lifted the wound to his lips, watching her closely for her reaction.  He had his hand situated so that he could feel the jump in her pulse at her wrist as his lips grazed her skin.  He could see a light flush of color rising from her neck, hear her breath as it caught.  “I would respectfully argue, my lady,” he murmured, his lips now trailing down her wrist, “that you are more like the
flower than you give yourself credit.”  

Teagan waited patiently, watching her every move, reaction, to his touch.  She did not seem to be pushing him away, nor fighting off his advances.  Her eyes closed momentarily, and he had to wonder if she knew just how much her actions told him.  “Your comparison was incomplete,” he continued, lifting his other hand to her face. 
Her eyes shot back open at his touch, locking onto his.  “You have grown into a beautiful woman, one
that others eye with envy.”  He saw the confusion and he added, “You might not have been at court often, but when you were, both the men and the women spoke of you in awe and admiration.”

He watched as she seemed to shrug off the words, as if they had no value or relevance.  “Perhaps it only matters then, if one particular person is aware of that beauty?” he asked, stepping closer until she was leaning against him.  She was tall, like her mother had been, and reached just above his shoulder.  Her gaze never left his as he added, “Or are you spoken for by another?”

“No ....”

“That is good,” he whispered, leaning in close, “for I like knowing who I might have to fight off for your affections.”

He intended for the kiss to be light and gentle, a teasing exploration that would emphasize her description of the flower she had handed to him.  The moment their lips touched, however, Teagan felt a shock of electricity jolt through him and heard her gasp indicating she had felt it as well.  In less than a heartbeat, the touch became much, much more ....

 

Teagan straightened when he heard Fergus shift behind him.  “Your sister and I,” he finally admitted to his friend, “became ... close.”

Fergus chuckled.  “So I gathered,” he returned, moving to the window.  “What I am concerned about is why she chose to sneak away at night.” 

Teagan shook his head.  “I wish I had answers for you, my friend, but since that night we have hardly had a moment to talk.”

Fergus sighed.  ”I was afraid of that.”  Shaking his head, he added, “I am worried.”

Teagan nodded, but said nothing at first.  After a long moment, he reminded him, “She just led Ferelden to victory over the archdemon, surely she should be all right.”

Fergus turned then, and Teagan saw a deep, raw pain that had been hidden before.  “I’m more worried about her now that she doesn’t have the Blight to occupy her,” he admitted.  “Now that she isn’t ... otherwise engaged, I am afraid that the past, what happened to our family, may catch up to her.  She does not need to be alone right now.”

 

 

 

 

 

Modifié par ladyames, 15 juillet 2010 - 09:12 .


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Ah, hot sexy Teagan!  MOAR please! *makes grabby hands*  Nice flashback with the flowers and the garden. :D:wub:

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Ah, hot sexy Teagan!  MOAR please! *makes grabby hands*  Nice flashback with the flowers and the garden. :D:wub:

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Love it soo much! :) Ok so its a Teagan fic and I'm biased but still... :).

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Thank you, ladies! I know ... more Teagan .. mmmmmmm .... cannot go wrong with that, right???

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Oooh Teagan! Great story and I also cannot wait for more!!! A story of Teagan/Cousland is different, but very good! hihi.

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Thanks, Lynn!

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 Thank you to all who have read and reviewed! Also those how have set up favorites and story alerts including: Eva Galana, Jen4306, Piceron, kiwibliss, CynderJenn, Shakespira, Erynnar, VioletTheirin, Liso66, roxfox62, Zevgirl, Prose Princess and Nithu.

As always thanks to my wonderful and fabulous betas: 
Erynnar, VioletTheirin and MireliAmbar without whose help I would be lost! Thanks you so much, ladies! Also, HUGE thanks to Erynnar whose persistence in knocking me upside the head made me realize I needed a fairly large edit to my story to make it flow better, and whose inspiration is a constant source of my success ... Thank you, Sweetness! You rock my socks!

As always, Bioware owns all that I did not make up ...



LYSETTE 1


A leatherbound journal, newly purchased. All pages are empty as if waiting to soak up what the author has to say ...

Today will be my first entry of many, I expect - I hope! As I have no idea what may come, I have decided that I must do whatever is necessary should the past need to be carried on by someone other than myself. To that end, I am trying to do what I could not when I was younger: keep a journal.

Let me begin by saying for the record that I fear I may be the only remaining Cousland left in Ferelden. On the night that we were betrayed, that my family, my friends, and my home were destroyed, thanks to the invaluable assistance of a Grey Warden named Duncan, I was spared. At the time, my brother, Fergus had been sent ahead to Ostagar with many of our Highever troops. I have yet to hear from him, to know if he yet lives. I pray to the Maker – not something I do very often – each night for his safety, yet still I hear nothing. In my heart, I want to believe he yet lives … because not believing it hurts too damned much. He is my brother, my family … my best friend. If I do one day cross paths with him again, it will break my heart to admit to my failures in protecting his family, our parents, but I will do it. He must know the truth. He will be angry and hurt I know. I hope he can forgive my part in all of this … but I dare not focus on that now. Too many other things have happened or will happen to fall down that hole at the moment ….

I suppose I have gotten ahead of myself just a bit. For the past two years almost, our focus has been on defeating the Blight, the Archdemon … and we finally succeeded. Not only that, but Alistair has been made King of Ferelden as the only surviving heir to King Maric, King Cailan's half brother. He is a kind hearted man, one who really cares about those around him. I think he shall do well as king, though I am sure he will hate the job itself. We secured his throne in the process of defeating the Blight, and then, as we had ever done since the fall of Ostagar, he and I defeated the archdemon – together. I shall not go into details here, there is too much to say, to think on, but suffice it to say that we both did what needed to be done. Yet, now that the Blight has ended, I wonder at what cost?

I created an army of humans, elves, dwarves and mages out of nothing. I shared my life and experiences with new friends and some old. I found my way through betrayal and carnage and heartache ... to find vengeance and peace ... and hope.

It is with and for this hope that I keep this journal, so that my experiences may be passed on to those who can learn from them. I find peace in memories of that which I had once thought would satisfy my needs ... only to find that my needs are what brought me to this point. I found vengeance against those who killed and murdered my family in cold blood, in hatred and greed ... and for that I can be satisfied that, come what may, I honored my parents' memories and those who gave their lives to let me live.

My hope comes from one I knew so long as a friend, who somehow managed to break through the barriers I'd erected to keep my heart safe and remind me of what I had always known ... that I cared about him. He does not know this, nor will he ever, but he has left me with a dream that I did not know I wanted fulfilled.

I knew before entering the final battle that something within me had changed; that what I had been told could never happen, had. Wynne confirmed it for me before we left Redcliffe for Denerim. That battle, knowing that I had new responsibilities on the way, was difficult. He was there. Others whose safety was paramount were there. I saw friends and comrades die around me. I felt guilt for surviving when I knew others deserved it more.

When the battle was over, and the dust had cleared, we were the victors. I saw him then, at the coronation. I didn't know what to do, what to say ... or how to say it. I'd come to care about him too much, I thought. It couldn't be real, not when so much was at stake, when any of us could die at any given moment. I had several opportunities to speak with him: before we left, on the road to Denerim, even afterwards at the palace before Alistair was crowned...

But like a thief in the night, I stole out of the city under cover of darkness, leaving behind those who I know care about me most, including Cadogan. Ah, my mabari! Ever has he been my steadfast companion … he will be better off with those who can care for him, feed him, love him as he deserves after a job well done. I departed in stealth, even eluding two of my best friends who were trained to spot one such as me, lurking around in the dark. It broke my heart, passing the doors that I knew would lead me to him, yet feeling as if I had betrayed his trust. I was confused, I was scared, and for the very first time in my twenty two years, I have felt helpless. Should he ever find out why I left, why I ran, I have no doubt he will never forgive me...

So now I find myself on the road once more, destination: unknown. I have questions and concerns, and I believe I shall address those first. To do that, I need the assistance of one who many find difficult to trust ... one who may be the only one left to help me. I shall turn towards the hidden pathways and tunnels towards Soldier's Peak. Only there shall I find the answers I need before the rest of my journey can be completed.

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Okay so I completely forgot to review...my brain is on vacation..that's my excuse and I am sticking to it! Wonderful as always my friend. Poor Teagan and poor Cadogan, they can come visit me while Lys pulls her head from her rear LOL...especially Teagan *SQUEE*. Love it friend!

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ISOLDE & EAMON


"Husband, could we not take a break from all of this ... this drudgery and chaos and return to Redcliffe?"

Eamon Guerrin, chancellor to King Alistair Theirin, glanced up from the papers he was reading to look at his wife sitting across from him at the dining table. "Isolde, my love, we are barely three months into the rebuilding of Denerim and Ferelden," he told her reasonably. "Alistair is still learning how to be a king. As his chancellor, I cannot simply leave him to fend for himself to go on a vacation!"

Isolde leaned forward in her seat, touching her husband's hand. "But, there is nothing for me here!" she exclaimed, pouting ever so slightly. "With Connor gone, I have nothing to occupy me here."

Eamon sighed heavily and patted her hand where it still rested against his. It had come as a complete shock to him upon waking from his long illness to find out that his only child and heir had magical abilities. Eamon had been distraught and angry at the news at first. Later, after the others had left him and his wife alone, Eamon had confronted Isolde. She had admitted to him finally, after all of their many, many years together that magic did run in her family: an aunt, two cousins, an older sibling she didn't remember.

For his part, Eamon had lost his temper and actually yelled at Isolde for the first time in the years they had shared together. His anger had been so great, he had forgotten to couch his words, his tone, and he spared no thought for Isolde's feelings. It was only after his anger was spent, and Isolde was kneeling at his feet sobbing, that Eamon regained his senses. He had assisted her to a nearby chair, consoling her, sharing in her grief at the loss of their only child at such a young age.

Now realizing that Isolde probably did need some time and space, something new to occupy her and keep her out of mischief, Eamon suggested, "Let me contact Teagan. I cannot leave Alistair alone just yet, but perhaps some time in the country, in a familiar place and surroundings will help you, my dear."

Isolde's eyes brightened at his words. "Oh, husband, would you?" she exclaimed, rising to her feet and moving quickly to his side so she could kiss his cheek.

Eamon chuckled at her exuberance. Patting her hand once more, he told her, "I will send him a note today. I promise!"

With one last kiss to his cheek, Isolde replied, "I shall begin packing at once!"

Eamon watched her leave the room, shaking his head in the process. "Will I ever understand women?" he wondered quietly to himself as he turned his attentions back to his papers for the time being.

As Isolde made her way though the Arl of Redcliffe's Denerim estate, she couldn't repress a smile of delight. Entering her room, she spotted her maid, Rachilde, straightening the bed. "Rachilde," she announced, "we will be departing for Redcliffe soon in order to visit the new Arl. I would like to begin packing immediately so that we may be ready to leave the moment we receive word."

Rachilde curtsied slightly. "Yes, my lady."

"I think I will take you and Carson only," Isolde decided as she took a seat at her desk. "Teagan is the Arl now, and he will have inherited most of the staff who served for me before. Inform Carson, if you will, and see that you both are ready to leave within the week."

Rachilde nodded and curtsied again. "Yes, my lady," she echoed before turning to leave the room in search of her fellow servant.Isolde made a few notations on her "to do" list before reaching for her journal. She opened to the next clean page and in her tiny but flowery script, she dated her entry and began writing.

I am married to the sweetest, most loving, most thoughtful man in all of Thedas ... and for all of that he is the most gullible as well. With a look, a touch and a few words of misery, he is about to make all of my dreams come true!

Eamon is sending a note to Redcliffe, to my Teagan, to request that I be allowed to visit! The time away from this dreadful city and back within arms reach of my one true love ... My plans are now all coming together at long last!

I heard from the Arlessa of Denerim recently, whose daughter heard from a servant whose sister works at the royal palace that the woman, that female Warden, the hussy responsible for my Connor's forcible departure from my arms and for capturing my Teagan's affections, has run off ... Some say she ran off alone, others insist it was with another. Whatever the case, my Teagan will now be at his most vulnerable - heartbroken and bereft. Now is the time to make my move for his affections. He does not stand a chance against my wiles ... I will make him forget that **** and we shall find happiness together in each other's arms ...


Isolde sat back for a long moment, allowing the page to dry completely before closing the tome. So much to do and so little time ..., she thought as she mentally began listing the things needing to be done to prepare for the trip.

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Ah Isolde, as charming as ever and she's right, Eamon is awfully dense.



I love it :)

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I know - on both counts! Thanks so much, Sweetie!

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WOOT more in the Teagan story!  I know I reviewed on FF.net, but I wanted to say my love for Teagan is strong enough for both sites. :lol::wub:

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WOOT and I love you for it! YAY Teagan!

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 *** THIS is the chapter that necessitated the M rating ... you have been warned.***

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TEAGAN 2

It was a long night for Teagan after leaving Fergus' company. He took the long way from the study to his room, needing the time to think. As he neared his room, he began recalling more details of his one night with Lysette: the feel of her sinewy curves wrapped around him; the honeyed taste of her skin; the scent of leather, soap and sweat ... When he did finally go to bed and fall asleep, it was a restless one filled with dreamt memories ...

As they neared his room, Teagan's grip on Lysette's hand tightened, willing her through thought and touch to join him. No one was more surprised than he when he opened the door and she walked in without a sideways glance or comment.

The curtains having been drawn earlier that evening before his return, the only light in the sitting room came from the fire blazing in the hearth which was causing ghost-like shadows to trail along the walls as Teagan closed the door behind him. He secured it, ensuring they would not be interrupted, before turning to face Lysette once more. When his eyes found her again, he found her standing there in front of him, still as the air surrounding her. She reached out then, touching his wrist, saying, "Teagan, I -"

Teagan shook his head and simply leaned forward to capture her lips with his own. He was surprised with the intensity of the kiss ... the ferocity that he could feel thrumming through his blood. That he wanted her was not in question: Could he do so, feeling this desperate for her and without hurting her in the process?

He lifted his hands to her face, angling their mouths for a deeper connection. He could feel her struggle to breathe for a moment, before leaning into his chest. He lowered one of his arms to slide around her slender waist to pull her against him. He felt her hesitation, her slight resistance, before again she relaxed against him. When he lifted his head for air, he found her gasping as well.

He began trailing kisses along her neck, from her ear to her shoulders, tickling, teasing, taunting ... As he did so, he could feel the surging of her pulse beneath her skin, hear her keening moans as he found tender spots that enjoyed the feel of his touch.

He was startled by a thud, and realized a moment later that she had removed her sword belt and let it fall to the floor. Now, the tunic she wore, which looked large enough to fit him easily, remained loose ... loose enough for him to slide his arms beneath. Turning, he began moving her backwards until she was up against the wall. Thus situated, he lowered his other hand, moving both beneath the linen of her clothing. At the same time, he lowered his head to hers again.

"Teagan, please ... wait!" she gasped near his ear. "I need ... to tell you ..."

"Lys," he growled near her ear, his breathing as ragged as hers.

Lysette lifted a hand to his lips, turning her head to face him. "Teagan?" She watched him struggle to focus on her. "I've never done this ..."

Teagan froze briefly as her words washed over him, penetrating the fog that thickened his brain. "You've never ...?" He lifted his head and glanced at her. Suddenly he understood. Taking a deep breath, fighting his body's instincts, he lifted a hand to her cheek, caressing it slowly. In the dim firelight, he could see her eyes closed tight, a slight pinkness rising on her cheeks. Lowering his forehead to hers, he smiled gently. "Do you not want to ...?"

"No!" she gasped, her eyes opening to find his darkened greys. "I mean ... yes! I mean ..." She dropped her forehead to his shoulder, muttering something incomprehensible to his ears.

Gently, Teagan lifted her head so that he could look into eyes as blue as the evening sky. "Lys ..."

He watched her take a deep breath, stand straighter and lift her lips near his. "Teagan, I want to be with you," she breathed quickly, twining her arms around his neck.

He leaned forward again, capturing her lips once more. "I ... want ... that ... too...," he gasped at length. He turned his body slightly, pushing her against the wall, pinning her so that she could feel his body's reaction to hers. He both heard and felt her moan this time.

He began moving his hands again, touching beneath her shirt. He felt her spine, her ribcage (thankfully, she did not seem to be ticklish). As he lifted his hands, the material began to bunch between them. He took a moment to step back and lift the material up, sliding his hands over her skin as he did so, feeling her body shiver at his touch. She shifted slightly then, pulling her head through the slit in the fabric, her arms out of the sleeves. He watched entranced as, while he lowered the garment, tossing it across the room in the general direction of the chair, she shook out her long dark curls, the tresses settling over her shoulders.

Looking up at him, her cobalt eyes a bit hesitant yet filled with curiosity and excitement, she lifted a hand towards his shirt. All Teagan could do was nod in response to her unvoiced question. He watched her long, graceful fingers as they slipped laces through holes, spreading the material away from his skin. He audibly gasped as her fingers touched the flesh beneath, the feel of her light touch startling him in ways that drove him mad. As she reached his waist, he grasped her hands in his, lifting them to his lips for just a moment before pinning them above her head. He then lowered his head to her neck, still holding her arms in place, and began kissing a path down to her almost exposed breasts. Using his nose, he began nuzzling and forcing the fabric of her breast band lower, exposing her flesh to his lips and teeth.

The moment Teagan's mouth closed around one of her breasts, Lysette cried out. He felt her struggling to pull her arms free from his containment, but he held them in place while lavishing attention upon her slender frame. "Tea-Teagan!" she gasped, her breathing now rapidly erratic. He chuckled against her, felt her jump slightly at the sensation.

Rising to his feet, he released her arms, feeling them drop suddenly to his shoulders. Pulling back a step, he lifted Lysette into his arms with practiced ease and carried her into his bedroom. Slowly, he released her legs, allowing her body to slide along his as her feet reached towards the floor. When she was standing on her booted feet once more, Teagan shrugged off his shirt, allowing it to fall at his feet.

Before he could think what to do next, he watched Lysette back up and sit on the edge of the bed so she could remove her boots. Realizing that this might perhaps be a smart idea now rather than an embarrassing moment later, Teagan quickly kicked off his own until he was left only in his trousers. As he straightened, he noticed Lysette had moved to stand in front of him, her breast band now removed, she too remaining only in her leggings. He reached out for her then, pulling her close so that he could kiss her once more. He felt her hands reach around him, sliding to meet at his spine, then move lower, sliding beneath his waistband and trailing along the flesh she found there.

Teagan could not hold back a groan against her lips as her nails grazed his skin. He only hoped that the noise did not frighten her. Reaching a hand out to cradle the back of her head closer, he angled her mouth more tightly to his for another long, hard kiss. He knew he succeeded in distracting her when her hands came up to grasp his arms in an attempt to maintain her balance. Lowering his other hand, he reached towards the closure to her trousers. He loosened the ties quickly, then slid a hand beneath both the outer fabric and the smallclothes beneath. He heard her gasp into his mouth as his calloused fingers slid around her skin, lowering the material until it fell of its own accord and pooled at her feet.

Lifting his head, Teagan drank in the beauty and perfection that stood before him. She bore physical scars, testament to her years as a soldier in her father's ranks as well as the trials of her current mission, but all Teagan could see was the toned muscles, gentle curves and the perfection that only a female form could have. "Lys ...," he finally managed.

With a shy smile, Lysette stepped close again and reached for his remaining clothes. "Be with me, Teagan," she whispered pleadingly. He did not stop her from from repeating his actions. When he too was free, he lifted her once more, moving to lay her upon the bed. The door to the sitting room remained open, allowing the smallest bit of light to filter in, enough so that they could see the other's eyes as the real explorations began.

Teagan lay on his side, focused on Lysette and her needs in an effort to keep himself in check. He started trailing kisses along her neck once more, then lower while running his hands over other areas. He felt her slowly, hesitantly begin touching him, testing, seeing what he liked as he did the same to her. He gave her smiles of encouragement, groaning when she caught him off guard or touched a particularly sensitive area.

When he felt her begin to squirm against him, he rolled until she was beneath him, though his weight was not crushing her. Leaning above her, his arms on either side of her, his lips nipping at her neck, her lips. He looked deep into blue eyes that had him feeling as if he was drowning in Lake Calenhad, and whispered, "The decision ... is yours, Lys. You let me ... know ... when you are -"

Lysette shifted her hips suddenly, causing Teagan to groan. "Now!" she gasped, reaching for his hips with her hands. "Please, Teagan, now!"

Teagan obliged her, settling closer against her hips. "Look at me!" he whispered almost harshly, watching as her eyes snapped up to his. "I want to see your eyes ..."

Teagan moved swiftly, not giving her time to panic or change her mind. When he felt her body freeze against his invasion, he paused, leaning down to kiss her gently. He waited, would wait as long as necessary, until she felt comfortable again ... even if it killed him in the process. Whether it was mere moments or minutes later, he did not know, but he saw the change in her eyes. One moment there was pain, and the next, she moved slightly as if to find comfort, and there was something more. It was then that he shifted his body, moving gently, slowly, easing back and forth until she found the same rhythm. He heard her breathing change, felt the gasps of surprise at the sensations. Lowering his lips to hers once more, he murmured, "Relax, Lys. Let it take you."

"Teagan!" she cried, panic in her voice. "I - I -"

He felt her body react instinctively, giving in to the motion and the sensations suddenly, and at that moment he relinquished his control and sought his own release with her...


Teagan awoke with a start, bolting upright in bed ... alone. Moonlight shone in through the curtains that were only half shut, spilling onto the bed and bathing him in the light. It took him a few moments to gain control of himself and his emotions, to realize it had been a dream, no ... memories of that night. Groaning at the emptiness in his heart and his bed, Teagan lowered his head to his now raised knees. Lys, he thought desperately, where are you?

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LYSETTE 2

[/i]I traveled alone and by foot to Soldier's Peak, to seek out someone who might be able to help me with the answers I sought. Upon arrival, I found Levi Dryden and his brother, Mikael, still in residence, though many of the rest of their extended family had apparently left for home now that the Blight was ended. I explained that I was there to see Avernus, to ask him some questions, and they told me that the old mage was still in his tower, refusing to see anyone, yet taking the meals that were brought to him and left outside his tower door. With a smile of thanks, and a request for secrecy, I left the brothers and began climbing towards the tower.

Avernus was just as cranky and crotchety as the last time we met. I explained to him the reason for my visit: I was a Warden with child and I wanted to keep the child safe from the taint that flowed through my blood. The mage eyed me for a long moment, asked me flat out if the child's father was the other Warden. I must admit, it took me a minute or two to realize that he meant Alistair. At first I laughed at the idea, so hard even that I almost fell off my chair. I told the sour looking man that Alistair and I were only friends, that he was the king now and I was no longer a part of his life.

After a time, Avernus seemed to accept my explanation. I told him then: No, the child was with another, one some years older than I but who was free of the taint. And as I began speaking of the one and only man I had ever loved, I found myself pouring out the entire story. I do not know what Avernus thought of my meanderings, particularly when I began sobbing at the thought of shaming my love with an illegitimate child who might or might not be a victim of the Warden taint. But to his credit, the mage remained silent, asking only questions that provided him with the details he needed in order to assist me. Finally, he told me to leave him; to find him on the morrow and he would have something prepared to help. When I pressed him for details, he would not expand. With that, I left the tower.

As I departed, I chose to stand upon the bridge between the tower and the keep for goodness knows how long, staring towards the northwest in the direction of Highever and remembering my family ... my home. I had no concept of time as I stood there, of the weather swirling around my body as I thought of my days there in the castle and the town of the same name, as a child growing into adulthood, becoming a soldier in my father's army. I remembered the faces of my past: my parents, Fergus, Rory Gilmore, Mother Mallol and Nan. Aldous my tutor, came to mind then, and his struggle to teach me lessons, and Fergus' wife Oriana and their son Oren. For the last time, I grieved for them, for the loss of those whom I had lost.

That I would be welcome at Highever should I ever choose to return, I had no doubt. The people of the town, even the elves in the alienage there, accepted the Cousland family as their protectors, their benefactors,... their friends. Yet, I knew that I could not go back there. When I became a Grey Warden, I gave up my name and title and all that came with it. I am no longer Lady Cousland, Teyrna of Highever, daughter of Bryce Cousland and Eleanor Muir: I am simply Warden Lysette ... of no place ...

The wind picked up then, and the snow that was ever present in the Coastland Range began falling softly about me. I pulled my cloak close around me, the hood up to protect my head, warding off the chill ... and then it hit me with a suddenness that left me breathless. With a gasp, I realized what must be done and where I must go. My newfound resolve strengthening with each step that I took in the direction of the keep; I exited the bridge and found the room that Levi's wife had just finished preparing for me for that night. I thanked her for her kindness and made ready for bed. It was going to be a long while before I would be sleeping indoors once more, and I was bound and determined to enjoy it while I could.

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 Latter part of this chapter inspired by the October Project song, "Return to Me." (Yes, the same one from the end of "Do You Trust Me?" What can I say, I love the song!)

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ISOLDE & TEAGAN

Leather bound journal belonging to the former Arlessa of Redcliffe; well used, about half filled. Entry is dated the day of arrival at Redcliffe.


It has been two weeks since Eamon agreed to let me return to Redcliffe. Finally we have arrived! I brought Rachilde and Carson to accompany me ... for only they I know I can trust completely.Though polite, Teagan did not seem overly joyous at our arrival. He looks tired, pained. He says he has been working night and day to help with the rebuilding efforts of the village and the castle. I have arrived just in time, it seems, to help him recover from that woman, for I know that this is all her fault. The things she has done to him ... my heart aches for him, that he fell for that .. that strumpet and her wiles.I have chosen my old rooms for the length of our visit. They are comfortable, safe ... and near to Teagan's should he require any ... attention.

Journal entry dated two weeks after arriving:

Teagan has been polite, solicitous, yet completely unapproachable. He continues to treat me simply as a ... sister. This is disconcerting, yet perhaps expected as he thinks he is still in love with that tramp, that ****. She doesn't deserve him! I shall have to redouble my efforts
...

Journal entry dated a month after arriving:

It has been four and a half weeks since I arrived and Teagan still refuses me! I have reconsidered my approach to convince him to forget the absence of that harlot, but he pays me no attention.Last evening, I went so far as to enter his room as he was changing - a delightful prospect, until he began shouting at me to leave him. Despite my protests of concern, of caring, he refused me. He had the nerve to tell me that I was insulting not only the Guerrin family name, but his brother as well. As if Eamon has touched me in years with anything other than simple affection! Surely, Teagan knows by now how I feel about him! Yet with each passing day it becomes clear that he still pines for that ****! I must find a way to break through this infatuation he has with her ...

Isolde closed the journal after blotting the page and tucked it away in her trunk. It would not do to leave it out for just anyone to look at, and now that she was no longer mistress of Redcliffe castle, she could not be sure that the servants were of the same quality as she had come to expect ...

Rising to her feet, Isolde left the room and headed downstairs towards the main dining hall. As she exited into the stairwell, to her right she noticed that there was a light on in Eamon's old study. Given that it was late evening, she knew it had to be him.

Teagan was seated at his desk facing the doorway, a book of accounts open in front of him as he worked on them. The door was partially ajar, and Isolde pushed it slightly to move into the room.

Teagan sensed his sister-in-law's presence the moment she neared the door, but he chose to ignore it. He had hoped that she would be sensible enough to give him the time and space to at least get his work completed for the day. Glancing up as she entered the room, he realized it wasn't going to happen. Sighing internally, he asked rather brusquely, "What is it, Isolde?"

Isolde chose to ignore the rudeness for the moment, and replied, "I wished merely to speak with you, Teagan."

"As you can see," he lifted the book of accounts so she could see it clearly, "I am quite busy. I do not really have time for idle chitchat."

Isolde stepped forward, approaching from the opposite side of the desk. "Teagan, you are working yourself to death! Why not let me ... help you, make things easier for you ..."

Teagan sighed to himself, pushing his chair away from the desk and rising to his feet. There was so much he could say, so much he wanted to say ... so much that he had said in the past that this woman simply failed to understand. "Isolde," he began slowly, searching for the best way in which to make his thoughts clear, "I have allowed your return visit to Redcliffe as a favor to my brother. However, I have made myself very clear on numerous occasions, but this shall be the last. If you do not start behaving as you should, you will be returning to Denerim as soon as arrangements can be made."

He walked around the edge of the desk until he was standing directly in front of her. Without touching her, for he realized now that she was having increased difficulty in separating reality from her own delusions, he announced, "You are my sister, Isolde, by marriage only. I do not and will never view you as anything other than my brother's wife. Nothing that you can think up in that twisted mind of yours will ever change that." He saw the look on her face fall, her dark eyes looking pained and confused, but he did not alter his stance or his position.

"But, Teagan -"

Teagan swiped a hand in front of him, cutting off her protests. "You are Eamon's wife, the former Arlessa of Redcliffe. Nothing will ever change that. You appear to think that you and I will have something more than a brother-sister relationship. I am telling you now that will never be."

Isolde straightened suddenly, and Teagan saw something snap behind her gaze. "You are allowing your feelings for that Cousland tramp to interfere with everything!" she cried. "She is nothing more than a ****, a common ****! I could give you so much more ...!"

Teagan did not realize his hand had raised from his side until the shadow of it crossed Isolde's pale features. He stared at it in distanced fascination until he realized he was about to backhand his brother's wife. Glaring down at the woman who had promised his brother fidelity, he managed at the last moment to pull the hand back and miss her. "Isolde," he ground out, anger thickening his voice, "you are at best nothing but a petty, manipulative ****! I have watched you over the past two years or so, from the time that you discovered Connor's abilities most likely, become the twisted, controlling woman who through her selfish actions allowed not only a blood mage to endanger this family, but a desire demon to possess her child ... and then lie about it to those who would help!" Turning then and walking towards a window, he kept his back towards her and added, "I think it best you leave Redcliffe in the morning."

He heard hear sputter behind him, trying to form protests that would change his mind, but he simply told her, "Leave, Isolde. Go back to Denerim. Do so without fuss, and I will not mention your shameful actions to my brother."

He continued to stare out the window until he heard the door shut behind him. Slowly, hesitantly in case she still remained, Teagan turned. To his great relief, Isolde had left the room. Returning to his desk, he took a few moments to close the books and replace them where they belonged before he too left the room and headed upstairs towards his room. He noticed Rachilde hurrying by as he opened his door and guessed that Isolde had called her maid to assist her with her packing. Shrugging his indifference away, Teagan entered his room and crossed through to his bedroom.

Like the study below, his room faced out over Lake Calenhad. This he found on many an occasion to provide a calmness when needed, such as now. Leaving the lighting dim, he stripped his shirt off then his boots until he remained only in his trousers. Padding across the floor barefoot, he opened the door leading to the balcony overlooking the lake. Stepping out into the darkness, he glanced down at the water, the sight of the village to the east, also bordering the body of water he found to be a source of relief as well. Glancing upwards, he noticed that the moon was dark this evening. Looking across the sky, he found the largest star shining and stared up at it for a moment.

"Lys," he whispered, his voice soft against the gentle breeze that wafted over him, "My love, where are you?" He closed his eyes, turning his face towards the star as if it was the sun shining down upon him. "I need you, love," he continued softly. "I almost did the unthinkable this evening ... I almost hit a woman ... I need you with me, to guide me through what remains of this miserable life of mine ..."

Teagan breathed in the moisture-filled air around him. "Return to me, Lys!" he begged to the sky above, his hands reaching out to grasp the rail, tightening against the stonework until he thought surely it must surely crumble beneath them.

Turning silently, he returned indoors and closed the door to the world outside.

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LYSETTE 3


As promised, the next morning, Avernus, still cranky as ever, gave me a bottle. The liquid was to be mixed in with my morning tea, herbal he insisted, for full potency: one drop each morning until the day the child is born and is free from dependence upon my body. With it, the child should remain free of the taint, he told me. I watched his face closely as he spoke, determining for myself if he spoke the truth.

After my brief visit with the mage, I grabbed my few belongings, the bow that had belonged to my mother - Wicked Grace, the dagger and sword that had once belonged to Duncan and my pack and left Soldier's Peak on foot.

It took me two and a half weeks before I made it to Haven. At first, I did not know where I would end up. My feet, however, took me to task, leading me in a direction I should have realized sooner. After our months together on the road, and her constant faith, I found myself being drawn to Leliana's Chantry. I knew there would be an expedition to Haven, given the discussion we had with Brother Genitivi at the time, there could be no doubt. I hoped - knew - that the man would be part of the expedition, so I chose to head there to seek him out.

I took the potion daily as instructed. Though I did not feel any physical changes, I realized that the increased sense of the taint that I had been feeling up to that point was diminishing. I can only assume that it had been due to the child in the first place, and the reduction due to the mage's potion.

On my way to Haven, I passed through the Bann of Rainesfere. I found an inn by Lake Calenhad, a familiar place to travelers called The Hunter's Horn. The couple who operate the facility are nice, if a bit ... odd. I spent the evening after my meal out on the back walkway, simply staring out at the lake and wondering if he was well. I had heard rumors that he was the new Arl of Redcliffe, that his brother had remained in Denerim with Alistair to assist the new king. And so I teased myself, staring south towards Redcliffe where we had created the child I now carried within me.

The next morning I left the inn and made what ended up being a two day journey ... finally reaching Haven late afternoon of the second day. As I had hoped, Brother Genitivi was leading the Chantry expedition and was present when I arrived. He recognized me immediately and offered me sanctuary if that was what I was seeking. With a half sob, I replied that was indeed the purpose for my visit. With a smile, he led me to a newly built hut.

So now I am in Haven, a place that has undergone many changes since my last visit, and the difference from then is palpable in the air, the atmosphere of the village. The village is still broken into three tiers: the lower tier containing some housing and a pier leading out onto the small lake nearby; the second tier containing more housing, including my own temporary residence and that of Brother Genitivi, the general store, and some fields; and the third tier where the Chantry is located.

As the days pass, I find myself reflecting more and more on the events of my life that have led me to this point. I think of my parents and I wonder how they would judge me and what I have become. I am no longer a noble. I have no wealth, no special rank or privilege accorded me as a Grey Warden. I am a common soldier, yet not. I have tried to do my duty first and foremost, and though some would say that I now shirk duty, have gone into hiding. I believe deep down that my first duty is to my unborn child. That duty transcends above all others as the child is reliant upon me for anything and everything it needs in order to survive. In this instance, the needs of the one outweigh the needs of the many. After the child is safely delivered, that is when I will determine the best path to fulfilling my obligations to the Grey. Above all else, we Couslands always do our duty; that one lesson I have not forgotten.

I remember Fergus and I wonder what he would think of my predicament. Would he still be proud of me, or disappointed? He has ever been my blood, my brother, my best friend. Sometimes, I desired our connection to each other to be stronger, more so even than that of my own father because Fergus was my equal - my brother both at arms and by blood. I always worked hard towards earning his respect, his approval-


A sudden knock at the door to her hut startled Lysette to the point that her quill jerked and ink blurred the remainder of the line. Sighing, she rose to her feet and answered the summons. Slowly, because she could hear the wind outside blowing ferociously, Lysette first cracked the door. "Yes?"

"I now understand Sten's and Zev's complaints about Ferelden being cold and smelling continuously of wet dog. For Maker's sake, Lys, let me inside!"

Lysette was so shocked to hear the familiar Orlesian accent, that she acquiesced without protest. The newcomer entered, shrugged off her cloak with flair, dumping snow onto the floor nearby, and then grinned at the Warden. In the moment of recognition and joy that crossed Lysette's face, her guest emitted a loud gasp, graceful hands flying to cover her mouth. "Lys! You are expecting!" she squeaked. Seconds later, Lysette was wrapped into one of Leliana's exuberant hugs. "How wonderful for you!"

Smiling through tears, Lysette allowed herself a moment of joy to celebrate with her friend. "I cannot tell you, Leliana, just how glad I am to see your familiar face!" she sobbed.

Leliana moved quickly, placing an arm around the younger woman's shoulders while leading her near the hearth where two chairs were sitting. "I suspect," she said as they sat, "that you have a tale or two of your own to tell, yes?"

Lysette nodded. "I don't even know where to begin!" she admitted.

Leliana giggled, her grin infectious and soon she had Lysette smiling. The bard scooted her chair closer to Lysette's. "Why, at the beginning, of course!" she insisted. Pointing to Lysette's gently swelling belly, she added, "First things first, who is the father?"

Taking a deep breath, Lysette launched into tale that had started just over four months earlier. She took her time with the telling, explaining how she had known Teagan in yer youth, that their reunion had rekindled feelings she had not thought on since she was fifteen ... that she had given in to her emotions after the traumas of the previous months that began their journey. "Leli," Lysette murmured, "I know it wasn't a one way street, I realize he was interested in me ... but I ... I feel like I threw myself at him! What would he think? Or my brother ... if he even lives?" Lysette covered her face with her hands as she felt the shame wash over her yet again.

Leliana's gasp startled Lysette into lowering her hands. "You mean, you do not know?" the bard asked.

"Know what?"

"Your brother, Fergus ... he survived Ostagar! He was injured, severely from what I understand, and he was cared for by the Chasind for many months. He arrived in Denerim right after Alistair's coronation!" Though wanting desperately to tell her friend everything, Leliana held back the fact that Fergus had "hired" her to find his sister.

Lysette paled for a moment at Leliana's announcement. "Fergus ... lives?" she breathed. Moments later, she groaned again. "Oh, what will he think of me?"

Leliana reached a hand out to Lysette's shoulder, squeezing gently. "Lys, I spoke with your brother on several occasions. His greatest concern is about you and your survival. He loves you, Lys!"

Lysette turned towards her friend. "How can he?" she demanded. "I've gone and -"Leliana would later declare she did not know what came over her as she reached out with her right hand and smacked Lysette upside the back of her head. "Lys, snap out of it!" she cried. "Your brother, Teagan, and everyone else for that matter - we all love you! We won't judge you on the circumstances of your child's conception; we will be happy that both you and the child are well and healthy!" She paused for a moment to gather herself. "And, don't you think that perhaps Fergus most of all might find your ... situation, if you will, to be healing given what he has lost?"

Lysette looked up into the blue gaze of her friend, the soft caring expression she found there. Groaning, she turned away and said, "I'm so stupid! How could I have been so stupid?"

Leliana let out an exasperated sigh, tossing her hands in the air as she stood. Turning, her hands at her hips, she asked, "Do I need to go out and get a large stick to smack you into making sense again? What happened to my capable, logical Warden from the Blight? You've turned into an overly emotional ... !"

Lysette stared for a long moment, taking in her friend's demeanor, her entire attitude ... and then began to laugh. At first it was a soft chuckle, then grew until she was struggling to hold her sides to keep from falling over. "Ah, Leli," she choked out at last, "How I have missed having you around to keep me in line!"

Leliana giggled then, a huge grin crossing her features as she sat back down. "We were quite the team then, weren't we?" she agreed. "Now, then, tell me all about Teagan ...!"

Modifié par ladyames, 26 juillet 2010 - 07:39 .