Influ wrote...
That brings into mind a question. How well do your femsheps sleep at night considering all the crazy stuff going on in their lives?
Maddy suffered from insomnia and sleeping problems for almost 8 years after her parents death, suffering with aweful nightmares of the incident. She eventually turned to a stong sleep aid medication called Esoretnapam to which she eventually became dependent on. She became defensive about this and it almost cost her her assignment to the SSV Yorktown. Her doctor (Dr. Lambert) and her CO (Cpt. J.T. Price) were concerned:
*AUDIO FILE BEGINS - DR. ALLEN MEYERS - DATE 7-24-2177*
"Ah, Lieutenant...Come in, please...have a seat"
"is this gonna take long...I just.....look, not be rude or anything...but I'm not sure why I'm here and I think it is just a waste of our time"
"Well since we are apparently skipping the introductions..."
"Your just another shrink here to examine my "delicate mental state" or "dive into my deepest most inner pain" or some **** like that.. right?"
"well,sometimes that is part of it, yes...but the reason you are here is thatyou were referred to me by your attending physician, Dr. Lambert ……he and I are old friends"
"ooooo...the plot thickens! So Lambert thinks I'm loosin' my marbles or something?"
"actually he was rather concerned about you…he told me you have been having quite a bit of trouble sleeping and trying for several weeks to get another prescription for Esoretnapam"
"Yeah, so..I have insomnia some times and need something to put down for the night...gotta be rested for
what I do"
"Esoretnapam is a very strong sleep aid for very severe cases and is recommended in small doses only...it's not for the occasional bout of insomnia.......he has been your attending doctor for almost 7 years now, he said you have always suffered from trouble sleeping.."
"Look....I don't know what the f*** you guys think is going on, but it's nothing I can't deal with...I just need the Esoretnapam to get myself straightened back out... on a good sleep schedule"
"This doesn't look good Madeline, you know that....It doesn't look good on paper, it doesn't look good to your commanding officer. I am required to file a full report with Captain Price if I feel there is an issue...that would mean he would have to remove you from duty....and with your military record, I just don't think you would want that to happen...I don't want that to happen either"
*shortpause*
(sigh) "okay...look..I..I have nightmares that keep me awake"
"Nightmares?....what sort of nightmares?
*awkward pause*
(her voice looses all emotion, with a hint of pain and fear) "....(deep uneasy sigh)...Horrible Nightmares...the kind
that….haunt your mind when your awake...and terrorize it when you sleep….images and things that…make you fear ever falling asleep again….things you can NEVER forget about, but want to so badly….."
"Go on Madeline....what are these nightmares about?
"There about uh....my family"
"You mean about what happened to them on Mindor?"
"Yeah...I.uh....I..can see my mother, she is in the kitchen preparing dinner like she always did at this time in the
afternoon.
"Tell me a little about her, your mother"
"(mournful
sigh)…She was so beautiful and smart….. she had a strong spirit and a kind heart....my father loved her so. He used to tell me a story about how they met on the Citadel during their academy days. He said he saw her for the first time on the Presidium....on one of those bridges, you know...the ones across the lakes?......He would always describe her as having long, flowing curls of fiery red hair ...and the most piercing emerald green eyes he had ever seen.... with a gaze that could cut to the depths of the deepest ocean...or the deepest part of a man's soul.... ashe used to put it"
"...Go on Maddy"
"Just then, my fathercomes running in yelling about something that is happening....just can't understand him. He has fear in his eyes.....something I had never seen in him before. My mother is scared too, and comes to find me...rambling....almost about needing to hide me..I...don't know why....I..I am terrified now as well....I can feel tears welling up in my eyes..."
"After my mother puts me into the service tunnel beneath the house 5 Batarians kick our front door in and barge into the house...I can hear my mother scream as one of them grabs her and drags her into the living room.....I can hear my father yelling at them to leave mother alone, I know that is what he said... I just couldn't hear his exact words..."
"I stick my head up through the service hatchin the dinning room so that I can see what's happening....I remember
seeing one of them hit my mother really hard and my father jump up to attack the Batarian...the one that hit her.....then.....um....they uh....." *choking back tears*
"Then what happened..... to your father?"
"(tearful sigh)..they....the one he attacked...stabbed him with uh...a uh..large knife......when he uh..fell to his knees…another one shot him in the temple...and it splattered all over mymother…..who began screaming...and screaming.......until....they uh..um(chokes back tears) ....they..(voice falters)..slit her throat..."
"..Her blood....was everywhere....it ran like ...um...like..a river..as one of the Batarians drug their bodies out the front door.........That was the last time...I..I saw either of them (tearfully panting, trying hard not to cry)"
*long pause*
"what happened after that Maddy...how did you escape?"
"Don't really remember exactly how I got out, but I remember the tears....the lump in throat and in my stomach......and the pure, unbridled rage and hate …..that consumed me like a black hole. I remember making it to the kitchen and finding the knife.."
"What knife?"
"The 14 inch kitchen knife that my mother had been using just minutes earlier" I remember picking it up and...the rest is a little blurry"
"well what do you remember from that time?"
"I just remember using what my father had taughtme....and killed every last one of those f***ers…..who had killed my parents...I...I stabbed them, sliced and hacked at them until I was to weak to hold the knife anymore....or see through the tears, blood and rage.......It was the first time I had ever taken a life." (clears throat and wipes her eyes)……I..I was a different person after that….I felt…different..”
"I got this scar...across my eye, here...from the last one I killed...he was the only one who tried to fight back....and it reminds...of, uh...what they made me into ...and that whole thing...every time..(sniff, wipes eye)...every time a look in a mirror"
"How do you feel, Madeline?"
"(sniffs)...Better....I guess.....never told that to anyone…..don't know what good it did telling you though.."
"Sometimes people carry great burdens of pain....bottled up for years and just need to release it....It is a healing process"
"don't know if I believe that, doc.....sounds like shrink bull**** to me..." (unknown rustling noise)…Idon’t think telling’ you is gonna make it all go away..”
“..Well not instantly, no…..I will still take time, how much time…now that depends on you…how long are you willing to let it consume you?…like a “black hole” as you said earlier…”
"...Well...it looks like our time is up.....If you ever need to talk just..."
"..Sure thing, doc...that is just what I want...to come back and sob like a chump and share feelings...this was awkward enough as it was"
"At least let me know if you still have those nightmares.."
( door opens)
"...(sarcastic chuckle)..yeah, sure doc."
(door shuts)
*ENDOF AUDIO FILE*
...sorry for that "long winded" answer
Modifié par Mr.Vakarian, 12 avril 2011 - 07:06 .