Pseudocognition wrote...
Addai67 wrote...
Where did you get that idea? He competed for an extremely painful ritual in order to get a boon to free his mother and sister. The ritual wiped his memories so he was more or less brainwashed, but he describes thinking the look on Danarius' face was "priceless." That doesn't sound like a happy slave to me.
@tankgirly: The GIF is cute, but is the spam really necessary? It was cute about the first twenty times I saw it...
This is what I got: He doesn't remember before the ritual. After the ritual he did not retain the perspective and knowledge to understand he was being mistreated. So I don't see why he'd be angry, and have to develop stoic behavior to repress his anger in that situation. Once he escaped he regained perspective. THEN he could be angry but would have no reason to repress it except... because it's cool?
I guessed he thought the expression was 'priceless' in hindsight.
A slave has no use for stoicism and locking away emotions? Really?
Look, just please stop and imagine his mindset as a slave for a moment.
Really imagine. Here's Danarius punishing him with a beating for something. Does he feel bad about it? Undoubtedly. Does he feel defiant about it? No, because he's been conditioned to accept that the master is right, so therefore he must
deserve the punishment, and kick himself for displeasing his master. Even if his master isn't right, he'd still kick himself for being careless and making his master angry. And really, you think he'd have no use for stoicism during beatings, or when being drained of blood for an experiment of some sort, or when half-dead from defending his master from assailants? You think that in the constant mindset of inescapable despair the slaves are kept (rememeber the giant statues?), there would be no negative emotions to repress? Really? <_<
Not thinking of escape or being accepting of his situation does NOT mean he wasn't an unhappy slave.
And honestly, this nitpicking at his mannerisms feels a bit silly. Why does
anyone act stoically, or doesn't? Why do people who haven't gone through horrible stuff still sometimes act stoically? It's just the kind of behaviour that comes naturally or feels more comfortable to him. Personalities are formed in unpredictable ways - can you trace every quality of
your personality back to some logical reason?
I also see nothing inconsistent with him locking up emotions but going on the occasional dramatised rant about it now and then. It fits perfectly with someone who's generally introverted and doesn't open up to people much, while being so affection-starved and sympathy-starved that he still
wants to give people a means to understand him, but without losing face. He draws comfort from the idea of being strong and unshakable, as shown in his numerous "Don't pity me" moments, but still longs for comfort too much not to leave an opening.
It's conflicted and contradictory and perfectly, breathtakingly, intricately realistic. It's the classic introvert's response to pain - needing comfort, acting like they don't, but still leaving openings for comfort. Maybe it takes being introverted yourself to really understand - which I certainly am.
Modifié par Hekateras, 21 avril 2011 - 10:45 .