"I was a coward" means something different to me. I see it as his admitting he drove Hawke away in order to avoid facing his fears and anxieties where his memories of the Fog Warriors was concerned. It ate at him, what had happened in Seheron, dragged at his own doubts and concerns where his self-worth was concerned. He was "bad" because he'd killed the Warriors who aided him and Hawke was so much like those Warriors, someone he could respect and admire, someone strong, brave and "free with her affection", just as they were. So there he was, agonized he could lose Hawke as he'd lost his Fog Warrior friends, and out of that fear he drove Hawke away, rather than face his own demons.
Arquen wrote...
Phyre! There you are! I haven't seen you.. did I miss something
...
All we get is "I was a coward.." which states to me that he was afraid of it happening again, afraid to face those memories again, and at that time not willing or not able emotionally to deal with such things. There is an old quote I'm reminded of about how you have to take care of yourself first and find out who you are before you can attempt a relationship with others.
Memories ARE powerful. I have always wondered why more attention isn't given to the events in Seheron that drove Fenris to fight for his freedom, honestly. I think those are the memories driving Fenris when he meets Hawke and those are the memories that eat at him as he considers a future with her. It's those memories that make him wonder as to his value as a free man, warrior, friend and lover; so that he fearfully denies Hawke during that night. It's only the events that follow which convince him of the foolishness of his doubts.
I do agree with you he's guilt-ridden after leaving Hawke like that, mind you. And that's perhaps the best reason they don't talk about his actions that night until three years later. He feels like an a** so he just doesn't talk about it. It's only after Danarius, only after Hawke assures him she respects his worth and value, that she's "there" for him no matter what, that Fenris is able to confront his own guilt and fears.
This is where I shamefully admit I've been playing with my husband in one of his MMO worlds. Haven't completed my latest PT of DA2, which is sad. I like the new "aggressive" mage I've created, who avoids the Circle only because everyone "needs" her but resents the increasing pressure of responsibility foisted on her by everyone. I should just finish the dang thing, lol.
Edited to add, for top of page:
I used one of those retexture mods for Fenris' armor and got this screenie during the final battle sequence --
Modifié par phyreblade74, 28 juin 2011 - 02:46 .





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