I disagree with you, Arquen (and we were
doing so well, lately), when it comes to the idea that Fenris has fixed himself. It's actually where I differ most from the majority of the denizens of the Fenris thread.
I think that at the end of the game, Fenris still has a serious problem: he's still kind of a bigot. Now, Gaider has been able to do something miraculous here: he's crafted a bigot that I sympathize with, despite the fact that I'm always the kind of person to
fight with the Native American metaphor against the American Military metaphor. It's really interesting because usually, the bigot is the one character type I find it hardest to sympathize with. But I still like Fenris, so much that I've completed his romance twice, and I at least start it almost every playthrough.
For me, Fenris perfectly captures a particular kind of romance that I would, indeed, classify as bittersweet, but that is not the particular bittersweet romance you're describing. Fenris is the argument guy. He's the guy who is almost... almost unreasonable enough that you give up, but not quite. Because you can see the core of goodness under all that scar tissue, and you know that it's reachable, even if the first few years of your relationship are essentially a long argument, punctuated by makeouts.
(Coffee, Black removes this quality from Fenris, making him almost a different character, an elseworlds of himself. That's also why that story is the first time I've ever felt the warm, marshmallow-y type of affection for him. It's also the only scenario in which I currently strongly prefer the friendmance.)
In fiction, I tend to go for the agreeable one, the reasonable one. I've had enough adversarial relationships with guys who were simply infuriating... I don't need to simulate it fictionally. But Fenris manages to capture the good parts of that relationship too: the feeling that you're challenging him, perhaps for the first time. The feeling that he finds you puzzling, because you break all the rules he is so sure are always completely true. The feeling that what you can offer is valuable enough to make him break his own rules.
For me, the most shivery part of the entire Fenris romance is "festis bei umo canavarum." That's what makes me sit back in my chair and grin like an idiot. Almost every other scene, I prefer the friendship path, but watching him pace as he tries to justify
the very idea of you to himself... as he's trying to square everything that has happened with his worldview and utterly failing... it's amazing.
I actually originally didn't want to rival him... I felt like he needed a friend, more than anything else. And now, I feel like It's worth having him **** you out about the book because, god of gods, in the long term it's actually bloody better for him to be rivaled. So I have to suck it up and swallow my compassion, and be the fight he needs to have.
And the look he gives you when you tell him he doesn't have to go through this alone and he says "Don't I?"... it gets me every time.
Modifié par CulturalGeekGirl, 04 octobre 2011 - 09:03 .