kemz19691 wrote...
How do you explain then Fenris' line: I'm not made of glass (not fragile). ?
Plus, Fenris was subjected to high and diverse levels of abuse - so he probaby has a pretty high pain threshold. I think Fenris could get kinky depending on his mood - he's just so damn unpredictable. He shocks me at times with his flirtation - like, where the hell did that come from? And then, he would table a night's romp for some other vague moment in time. He's soooo unpredictable. I think it's more then just discipline - I think a lot of connections to others was destroyed during enslavement.
It must be something like learning to walk again after decades of paralysis - the only memory of walking is as a child. This is what it must feel like to Fenris - loving and trusting other ppl after so many years of slavery and isolation.
He also shocked me when he refused Hawke's comfort after he kills Hadrianna. Fenris is heavily gated and often I suspect he's unable to to really feel anything.
I was also surprised at his desire to connnect with Varania for other than just "I need to know who I am". The 'affections' Danarius so fondly remembers are not true feelings - they were imagined by Danarius with his obedient slave. Those kinds of experiences complicates someone's feelings - some may say his ability to love has atrophied.
Who knows? 
I'm surprised that this was actually shocking behavior traits. To me they seemed very predictable behavior for someone with a past like Fenris. He states himself when you first meet him that he "isn't accustomed to asking for help," and that "I've gotten used to hiding." Two things right there that set off the "he isn't going to trust you or get close to you" red flags.
The learning to walk again is a good example, and I agree with it, but it isn't just about trusting others either. He says "I have met few in my travels" who are not out for themselves. Not only is he being hunted, but he can't risk getting close to people because they would most likely betray him or sell him out for a chance at a reward. His instinctual attachment and deep rooted interest in his family is what drives him to hire Hawke in the first place. He thinks the information in the chest is information about his family. It isn't so much that he wants to find out who he is, but he wants to "open up a new world..." by finding out about them. He thinks finding out about his family will be that acceptance he always searched for, and the key to what this "freedom" thing is all about.
As for the "I'm not made of glass" comment. It's in response to a pity comment made by Hawke about how she/he was sorry for all Fenris has been through. He states he isn't made of glass, because he isn't fragile or emotional about it, and the last thing he wants is people feeling sorry for him. He's carved his path to freedom in blood, and he doesn't need or want comfort or pity because in the core of his being he "is alone" in his struggle both personal and external. Until Hawke. Yet still that engrained resistance to being comforted and pitied like some poor thing is the last thing he wants from anyone. It's insulting to him. Hence, it is perfectly understandable when Hawke is like "do you want to talk about it?" after Hadrianna he blows up at you. You're patronizing him. As for feeling.. he feels it all very deeply, but he has a mask of stoicness and emotionlessness because that is learned behavior from a slave and moreso from a victim of lifelong abuse. They learn to compartmentalize their feelings because showing emotion or reacting can often-times make them more vulnerable or incline their abuser toward harming them more.
Also, no doubt he has a high threshold for pain. He rarely complains of an injury, and compared to the other companions when he is wounded/ KO-ed he is very much a stoic with comments such as "this is not going to heal quickly," and "I sustained an injury in the last battle." Indicative a lot of someone who can take quite a few blows before they actually need or ask for a heal/ bandages. However, just because of that doesn't mean he would be into re-inacting or inflicting pain on anyone or having it being inflicted upon him. I don't see that happening, ever. Even for a kink. The psychological reprecussions, as well as the idea that he could use his own strength and Danarius given talents to cause someone else he cares about pain -- even in the most benign sense for pleasure. I think it would be a full turn off for him, and probably make him angry.
His flirting as well isn't very unpredictable, and I especially wasn't surprised he turns Hawke down flat during the Fog Warriors convo. He says in the very first convo that he will "practice his flattery for next visit," and he is adorably awkward at it. The thing about Fenris is he is honest, and he is honestly going to tell you what he thinks of you. In his flirts he says "you are unlike any other woman I have ever met.." or "I like a man who speaks his mind.." it is a simple truth and he is paying an honest compliment. When you look at it, all his flirts are simply that -- honest statements.
gahhh why do I always end up with a wall-o-text? I just... I have way too much to say about Fenris I guess. Please.. forgive me... I'll try to be concise when responding since everyone goes TL:DR anyways.
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