Brass_Buckles wrote...
SusanStoHelit wrote...
See, killing people because they attack me? No problem. Because they are murderers, rapists, thugs, traitors, and so on and so forth (if I'm playing a 'good guy')? No problem. Or even because it's necessary and expedient - though with distaste and regret.
But to boast of enjoying it? Having no remorse or feelings of guilt? If I'm to role play (and I do) then my 'good' character would be appalled and revolted by such an attitude. Neutral or evil characters, no problem. Being forced to choose the lesser of two evils, killing someone you didn't want to in order to save your own life or that of others - yes; deliberately choose an intimate relationship with a cold-blooded murderer (who doesn't 'soften' or put aside that attitude), knowing that is what they are - no. It doesn't work for me from a role playing perspective.
I do have one of my female characters romancing Zevran (as a completionist I've got to do it, just to see what happens and how it affects the story) but she'll be the only one. Never again. Not 'working'.
See, that's my problem with Zevran and why I say he is not, and never will be, as good a person as Alistair. It's not really his fault; this is the way he was raised and how he has lived life. It's the only life he knows. But for most of my characters (and for me personally), his blase attitude about killing people, some of whom have not done anything to deserve it (ask him and he admits that he has killed innocents, perhaps even children) is a huge turn-off. Being a strong person is not the same as being a good person--Zevran is a strong person, but Alistair is a good person who is not terribly strong.
Don't get me wrong, I like both characters. There are things I love about Zevran (like the fact that he's so surprisingly loyal, which I mentioned before), even if there are plenty of things I hate about him. There are things I hate about Alistair, too (tantrum!), even though I do tend to like him better. I'm interested to see how Zevran's romance pans out. I don't think it's really all that more realistic than Alistair's (Alistair wants to fall in love but fears being in love, while Zevran fears falling in love but enjoys actually being in love), but I'll give you the fact that it's more mature. Remember, the PC is Alistair's first love, and it's a semi-forbidden love due to how close he was to taking his vows as a templar, not to mention the whole king thing. On the Zevran side of things, he's apparently sworn to himself that he will not fall in love. But he does. I almost feel sorry for him in that regard, because you know falling in love scares him witless.
lol, for my play-through, this standpoint would have been totally hypocritical.
I played a city elf who was completely devoted to their family. Thus, when my PC found Shianni--their childhood friend and cousin--in tears on the floor of Vaughan's room, you better believe they killed him without so much as a second thought, and enjoyed it to boot. There were no regrets, not even when the guards showed up to haul my elf away in the Alienage, just sheer satisfaction because Vaughan touched goods he had no business handling, and paid the price.
I didn't play an 'evil' character, but this origin definitely dictated how I judged a lot of Zevran's dialog later on in the game. When Zevran talked about the joy of the kill--of seeing someone's life literally slip away--my elf's mind immediately went to that final moment when Vaughan's carcass hit the floor, and they had to agree full heartedly that there was pleasure to be had in depriving someone of their life. Heck, when Wynne inquired into my PC's past at camp, I said that I'd gladly kill Vaughan a second time. I boasted. Who am I to not allow Zevran the same privilege?
My elf also acknowledged the truth in his words when he stated that some people just need to be killed. Innocents get mixed up in the events, but I don't remember Zevran relishing in those kills. If anything, he tried to put them aside; to not think too hard on them because such emotions do not a good assassin make (or so he was taught). My elf also tried to forget all of the guards they slaughtered on their search for Shianni as well. The PC was in a blind rage, and all who got in their path were... unfortunate deaths that were completely unavoidable at the time.
Alistair is a good choice if you want the knight in shining armor. Personally, he just didn't work for me from a role-playing perspective (I still think Alistair is an amazing character). When he's not being perfect, he's trying to be perfect. My character has yet to disappoint him on a strictly 'friends' basis, but I could never see them working out as a couple because the worlds they hail from are too different.
Alistair is optimistic. My elf is fairly jaded, but tries to act 'in the right'.
Zevran is much the same, though better humored than my city elf, and a good judge of character, which I think my PC needed more than the blinding romance Alistair offers. Proof of this was probably when Zevran recited that terrible poem out of the blue when we were questing for the Urn of Sacred Ashes. My PC asked why Zevran was spouting all that drivel, and was pleasantly surprised to discover that Zevran was simply trying to cheer them up, and for no other reason than that they looked sad. That hit me.
And I think that's where the real line is drawn between the two characters. Alistair is completely dependant on you. Emotionally, he doesn't help you, because he already thinks you're stable, or pushes you to be. Zevran has a more realistic view of the world, and while a follower and lover, doesn't expect you to be perfect or go on without support or appreciation... or a little good humor.
To reiterate: I don't really think one is better than the other, it just depends on how you role-play. I like all four of the love interests, but I think my characters are always going to lean more towards Lelianna and Zevran. Zevran is loyal and supportive when you earn that kinship with him. Lelianna I had a soft spot for straight from the beginning, but I downright fell in love with her after she stopped running from her past.
Anyway, my two cents. I'm pretty sure that all stopped making sense somewhere.