Yeah, when I said that Kaidan would blame himself, I meant he'd consider himself partially to blame for Horizon, and for not making his intentions or support clearer in that email. I've been having some new thoughts on the Horizon situation again, and I'm going to write something up about it soonish... but I'm working on a real "work" project right now, so I don't have the time for anything deeper than silly forum stuff, and that Horizon article requires some
research.
Here's another thing I noticed recently, which influences how I see the "cannon" of Shepard and Kaidan's relationship: in his conversations and email, he only mentions that one night, before Ilos. I'm starting to get the impression that, after that, things just went back to flirting and shared glances and maybe a few "accidental" moments of closeness. They had a month together after Ilos, and if he's only asking about that one night... it implies to me that he maybe didn't follow up, slipped back into his noncommittal mode. During that night they were bloody mutineers, and the regs were out the window. After that, back on official duty, I can see him thinking he had time, waiting until they were completely off-duty again to make a real move.
This influences my feelings about the whole thing a bit. Sure I hate the idea of hurting Kaidan, but I don't feel like we were exactly picking out curtains before I died, anyway. If all we had was flirting and then one night and then back to flirting... I feel less like I "moved on" from a serious relationship, and more that I gave up on something that had the potential to be serious, the potential to be great, but never really achieved its full potential.
Modifié par CulturalGeekGirl, 01 mai 2011 - 04:06 .