Well, it's not exactly modesty... I mean, yes, it is, and I'm really thankful for your kind words, but at some point in my life I couldn't receive praising in a normal way. In short, "it felt like I didn't deserved them, they're unnecessary, because what I did is nothing".
True problem is that I had kinda high hopes to get to the industry that could allow me to use my work (I'm good at PS and kinda at vector graphics editing programs, but when I have to do something by myself, like projects etc....... ), but I was deaf to what closest people said. Turns out that I was chasing a dream and now I'm in a really tight spot.
ME is highly inspiring, and I have a lot of things in my head that it almost hurts, I just have no idea how to, well, materialize them. I'm not good with writing, so I can write only short, not really involving stories. Reading others and learning from them is... off limits. I could unintentionally copy ideas and interpretations.
Drawing, well, it's now much of a hobby, and now that I think about it, I'm not letting myself to draw until I find a way to get on with my life. Like drawing is some kind of a luxury.
So, yea, curse you ME (and few other things) for being so awesome. That also influences my Kaidan artwork, although I have pictures in my head - whatever I draw is nothing like the initial idea - and that goes for all my work EVER.
Modifié par AkodoRyu, 18 janvier 2011 - 04:36 .