jlb524 wrote...
But, isn't that just being realistic? I never got the impression that she lost confidence in dealing with the ole demon...Merrill is aware that it's dangerous...like all Fade spirits.
I guess my point is...Merrill knows she could die from her attempts to fix the eluvian (and I would say her expectations are realistic here)...she's 110% aware of this. But, she's willing to do it. This is what she wants. So, I basically disagree with the idea that she doesn't know what she's doing/doesn't know the risks involved b/c she does.
The reason my Hawke went rivalry with Merrill is simple. Merrill doesn't value her own life compared to the eluvian and such. As you said, she knows full well she could die from it, and that's what she wants. But at the same time, she's being selfish and undervaluing her own life. Marethari, Hawke, Varric and Isabela all care about her a great deal, and don't want to see her die. They aren't willing to (or can't) outright force her to stop, but they see Merrill on what appears to be a self-destructive path (whether it actually is or not is anybody's guess, the game never outright tells or shows us). Merrill knows the risks involved - she just doesn't care enough about her friends' feelings to see how much she means to them, and is willing to sacrifice whatever else she could possibly accomplish in her entire lifetime for the potential of the eluvian.
To my Hawke, that seemed short-sighted. To her, there just isn't enough information to make the gamble worth it. Merrill doesn't seem to care about how much her death would hurt others, or how much others care for her, and is only concerned for restoring the eluvian - something that may or may not actually help (another thing nobody really knows). My Hawke didn't see that as a worthwhile thing to gamble someone's life on (let alone the life of a dear friend), and thus made Merrill disagree.