TripLight wrote... I did want an option to give Leandra a dressing-down, but then again, she did lose a child. I have an aunt who lost her son, my cousin, at 14 years of age, I have seen what that can do to a person. It took her a long time before she could talk about him without understandably breaking down in tears. I think Theoden from the "LOTR, Two Towers" movie put it perfectly, "No parent should ever have to bury their child." They are never the same.
You know, I never disliked Leandra for what she said. Yes, it was cruel and unfair, but that's what makes us human. We're not always at our best in times of grief. Look at Hawke's potential reactions after losing his mother, after all. Blaming the mages is just another facet of that same kind of anger. Plus, Leandra realizes it and apologizes after the fact.
i thought it was nice that could move on with her life. i think it was 10 years since malcolm died anyhow - more than enough time for a grown child to accept their mother has needs beyond a dead husband
Yeah, and look who it was: she found another apostate.
[Aww, thanks! I spent the entire morning and a lot of last night alternating between re-writing the thing and bawling my eyes out until I got it the way I wanted. And now I'm depressed it's over (which is generally the way I get when a story ends). But thankfully the reception's been pretty positive, so that's helped pick my mood up!
It's fantastic
I agree. I was actually avoiding maleHawke fic because I was afraid it would take me too far away from my head cannon story (I know, silly me). But your writing has converted me. lol Very well done!
Aww, thanks! I spent the entire morning and a lot of last night alternating between re-writing the thing and bawling my eyes out until I got it the way I wanted. And now I'm depressed it's over (which is generally the way I get when a story ends). But thankfully the reception's been pretty positive, so that's helped pick my mood up!
Everytime I read a fic that covers the ending I always brace myself for it, but even knowing that you were going to write something powerfully depressive and prepareing myself for it I still ended up damn near crying.
I hope you plan on writing something else that's Anders related because the worst part about that ending? The fact that it's over
Aww, thanks! I spent the entire morning and a lot of last night alternating between re-writing the thing and bawling my eyes out until I got it the way I wanted. And now I'm depressed it's over (which is generally the way I get when a story ends). But thankfully the reception's been pretty positive, so that's helped pick my mood up!
Everytime I read a fic that covers the ending I always brace myself for it, but even knowing that you were going to write something powerfully depressive and prepareing myself for it I still ended up damn near crying.
I hope you plan on writing something else that's Anders related because the worst part about that ending? The fact that it's over
I do have a few other things with the ADRL universe planned. Despite being about 110K words, quite a few scenes wound up on the cutting room floor, so to speak. I had Anders' reactions with Isabela after the Arishok duel, some more stuff with Gamlen, and a few other extra bits that just made the main narrative grind to a halt when included. But some of the stuff I like enough to want to tweak into decent one-shots. So that'll be next. Plus, I ship Nate/Anders hard and I had way too much fun writing their reunion in ADRL, so I think I'll flesh out their little one-night stand I referred to a few times. It'll be interesting (and a lot less depressing, I think) to write Anders the way he was in Awakening.
Aww, thanks! I spent the entire morning and a lot of last night alternating between re-writing the thing and bawling my eyes out until I got it the way I wanted. And now I'm depressed it's over (which is generally the way I get when a story ends). But thankfully the reception's been pretty positive, so that's helped pick my mood up!
Everytime I read a fic that covers the ending I always brace myself for it, but even knowing that you were going to write something powerfully depressive and prepareing myself for it I still ended up damn near crying.
I hope you plan on writing something else that's Anders related because the worst part about that ending? The fact that it's over
I do have a few other things with the ADRL universe planned. Despite being about 110K words, quite a few scenes wound up on the cutting room floor, so to speak. I had Anders' reactions with Isabela after the Arishok duel, some more stuff with Gamlen, and a few other extra bits that just made the main narrative grind to a halt when included. But some of the stuff I like enough to want to tweak into decent one-shots. So that'll be next. Plus, I ship Nate/Anders hard and I had way too much fun writing their reunion in ADRL, so I think I'll flesh out their little one-night stand I referred to a few times. It'll be interesting (and a lot less depressing, I think) to write Anders the way he was in Awakening.
Wait, you wrote A Distant Ray of Light? (Though, now I see it in your signature, oops. ) I must've missed this information while repeatedly trying to catch up with the thread. I just have one thing to say to you:
Why must you make me get all teary-eyed?!
Also, glad to know that you're writing more! I think you're quite talented, capturing the characters the way you do.
Anders fic! This is something I just banged out. It's really, really short. I just got done with the Tranquility quest line and while we were fighting the templars in the chantry, "Black Heart Inertia" (Incubus) started playing on WinAmp. It seemed fitting for what's to come, especially seeing as my mage is a budding elementalist. I also wanted to write something cute about him despite all the doom and gloom.
All seemed quiet at the chantry that evening. Moonlight spilled through the slatted windows of the chapel and across the marble floor. As we ascended the stairs to meet with Karl Theklas, however, I was overcome by a sense of dread. Something just didn’t feel right. I spotted Karl Theklas as my companions and I reached the second floor and I quickened my pace as I approached.
“Anders, I know you too well,” he said in the monotone lilt of a tranquil. “I knew you would never give up.”
“What’s wrong?” I asked, my brow furrowing. Even though Karl was rather straight-laced, this seemed so very uncharacteristic of him. “Why are you talking like that?”
“I was too rebellious. Like you,” he droned on. That was when I noticed the sun-shaped branding in the center of his forehead—the Mark of the Tranquil. “The templars knew I had to be made an example of.”
“Karl, no!” I growled. Zoe Hawke gave a faint gasp from behind me.
“How else will mages ever learn to master themselves?” Karl continued. “The templars must teach you to control yourself.”
“Don’t look now but I think this was a trap,” she said quietly as she stepped closer to her brawny brother, who crossed his arms over his chest.
“This is the apostate,” Karl said calmly.
“No!” I cried again as I dropped to my knees. I felt the spirit of Justice starting to take control of me then, using my outrage as a channel to come forth. Hold back, Anders. Control yourself, I willed. My fists clenched involuntarily with the effort of containing what was trying to break out of my soul. I saw the templars closing in on me and those I had tag along, but it seemed as though I watched them from underwater. Carver Hawke slowly reached up and over his shoulder, sliding a great sword out of its sheath as he positioned himself between Zoe and the templars.
Justice pulled me to my feet. I felt his strong clutch around my soul as we declared, “You will never take another mage as you took him.”
I snapped my stave from my back and twirled it as I unleashed a barrage of spells towards the incoming templars. Vengeance spurred me on to throw bolt after bolt of arcane energy at them.
“Watch where you fling those spells, magey!” yelled Carver as he charged forth, greats word poised in the air.
In the confusion of the ensuing fight, I couldn’t see Aveline anymore. She had probably pushed through the bulk of the templars’ formation. And where was Varric, I wondered. I saw bolts rain down upon the templars but I did not see him.
Suddenly, flames tore across the floor. As I leapt back to avoid them, I looked around for the source. “Bastards,” I spat as I considered that the fire was likely caused by a device the templars had installed before my arrival. Of course they would have expected a fight.
Out of the corner of my eye, I spied a few templars fleeing, their skirts lit ablaze.
“What can I say?” I heard Zoe ask from behind me, and was certain it was her because of that smartass tone she always used. “I make it hot.”
I whirled around. There she stood by the window, her flaxen hair and alabaster skin aglow in the moonlight. She took something that looked like a rod form a pocket inside her black surcoat.
“You… You’re a mage?” I asked, blinking.
“And you have even more explaining to do later,” she replied, tapping the end of her rod. It expanded from both ends, forming what appeared to be a simple stave. Without any sort of flourish, she slammed the end of it down against the ground. A Templar that had been trying to sneak up behind her was thrown backwards. “But for now, stay sharp.”
So for some reason I had a sudden urge to play the Sims again, and yesterday someone posted a screenshot of an Anders sim with custom hair. Does the person who posted that know where they got it D : or does anyone else know? Because I can't find it
The hair can be found here, but I made a darker blonde recolor especially for Anders.
Also, sim!Anders has no sense of personal space.
I thought only Fenris could do that!
Err, yeah... That doesn't look right at all. But Isabela doesn't seem to mind.
I feel weird just contributing these silly pictures to the thread. Hope I don't annoy people with my spam. I just... don't have anything to say that has already been said? Unfortunately I can't even play DA2 since I'm away at school and it can't run on my laptop. I'm going through major withdrawals! These sims help a little at least.
Aww, thanks! I spent the entire morning and a lot of last night alternating between re-writing the thing and bawling my eyes out until I got it the way I wanted. And now I'm depressed it's over (which is generally the way I get when a story ends). But thankfully the reception's been pretty positive, so that's helped pick my mood up!
Everytime I read a fic that covers the ending I always brace myself for it, but even knowing that you were going to write something powerfully depressive and prepareing myself for it I still ended up damn near crying.
I hope you plan on writing something else that's Anders related because the worst part about that ending? The fact that it's over
I do have a few other things with the ADRL universe planned. Despite being about 110K words, quite a few scenes wound up on the cutting room floor, so to speak. I had Anders' reactions with Isabela after the Arishok duel, some more stuff with Gamlen, and a few other extra bits that just made the main narrative grind to a halt when included. But some of the stuff I like enough to want to tweak into decent one-shots. So that'll be next. Plus, I ship Nate/Anders hard and I had way too much fun writing their reunion in ADRL, so I think I'll flesh out their little one-night stand I referred to a few times. It'll be interesting (and a lot less depressing, I think) to write Anders the way he was in Awakening.
Wait, you wrote A Distant Ray of Light? (Though, now I see it in your signature, oops. ) I must've missed this information while repeatedly trying to catch up with the thread. I just have one thing to say to you:
Why must you make me get all teary-eyed?!
Also, glad to know that you're writing more! I think you're quite talented, capturing the characters the way you do.
HOMG Highcastle - the ending was beautiful. It reinforced my wish that there had been more dialogue options at the end of the game, or the ability to do something other than stand behind him. So well written and so painfully real. Really, you deserve more praise than I could articulate.
HOMG Highcastle - the ending was beautiful. It reinforced my wish that there had been more dialogue options at the end of the game, or the ability to do something other than stand behind him. So well written and so painfully real. Really, you deserve more praise than I could articulate.
ok, after all the great reviews I think I have to read this one *prepares for heartbreak*
@highcastle... wow there's a lot to read! i've read the first chapter, it's very good - but i think i'll wait until after my exam to read more; it'll give me something to look forward to (other than more revision)
legbamel wrote... Yeah, and look who it was: she found another apostate.
Clearly in the Hawke/Amell family the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree, at least for all those Hawkes who romanced Anders.
Gamlen's comment was perfect.
Though my Amell romanced a former templar, so I guess she fell a bit far from the tree...since sexy scruffy apostates were NOT AN OPTION in the original DA <_<
legbamel wrote... Yeah, and look who it was: she found another apostate.
Clearly in the Hawke/Amell family the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree, at least for all those Hawkes who romanced Anders.
Gamlen's comment was perfect.
Though my Amell romanced a former templar, so I guess she fell a bit far from the tree...since sexy scruffy apostates were NOT AN OPTION in the original DA <_<
but that's more or less what anders was trying to achieve. alistair is afraid of the warden of any class cause she killed an archdeamon - not because she's a mage. he's EQUALLY fearful! (masochist )
legbamel wrote... Yeah, and look who it was: she found another apostate.
Clearly in the Hawke/Amell family the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree, at least for all those Hawkes who romanced Anders.
Gamlen's comment was perfect.
Though my Amell romanced a former templar, so I guess she fell a bit far from the tree...since sexy scruffy apostates were NOT AN OPTION in the original DA <_<
but that's more or less what anders was trying to achieve. alistair is afraid of the warden of any class cause she killed an archdeamon - not because she's a mage. he's EQUALLY fearful! (masochist )
Not just killed the archdeamon - also made him impregnate Morrigan to ensure they both live. That's enough to scar that poor boy for life.
to be more on topic; could anders have loved hawke before he became JAnders?
I always thought that was part of the tragic beauty of the Anders' romance - Justice is essentially poisoning his mind and clouding his judgement, but thanks to the merge Anders is finally able to love - fiercely and truly. I'm not saying Awakening Anders wasn't capable of love or didn't want it - but being free to move around freely unbound to anything in order to avoid re-capture as long as possible seems like his first priority. I can imagine him breaking a lot fo hearts - when it came down to it - he'd leave anyone and anything behind if it meant he could run away from all the circle and templar trouble a little longer. JAnders has found something greater then his own life and freedom and is finally able to stop running and help others. It's pretty much a transition from selfish to selfless and Hawke was definitely not part of the plan.
I'm not sure Awakening Anders would fall for Hawke because I'm not sure he'd go to Kirkwall in the first place - not for Karl or anyone. To me all the decisions that led to Hawke are only possible because of the merge - AAnders wouldn't have stayed in Kirkwall and ended up running a free clinic to help people at the constant risk of being dragged to yet another circle, and therefore he'd never be able to meet Hawke and even if he did somehow meet him/her I don't think he'd stick around long enough to fall in love. Sorry for the loong ramble - to sum up: I like AAnders but I could never love him like i love Janders <3
^^^ This so much. I know my Hawke wouldn't have loved AAnders, she'd have tumbled with him and then moved on. JAnders has all of that wonderful intensity which is equal parts scary and melty - and despite what he does at the end she'd always feel safe with him around. (And to come back to Hawkespawn territory - it's that kind of devotion that makes me think he'd be awesome as a Dad).
I think part of JAnders appeal is that he reminds Hawke of her/his Dad. Where everyone is trying to shrug off the apostate Dad, JAnders comes to represent this intense, serious, protective figure which for my Hawke at least makes her feel safe and familiar. And the 'paranoia' (I hate to call it that seeing as we don't have any evidence to say whether he was or wasn't hounded) that JAnders exhibits can't be that far removed from the true fear and paranoia that the whole family went through whilst they were on the run growing up. A quick question for anyone that might know better - when the Hawke family 'settled' in Lothering - was that before or after Malcolm died? In my head I see it as Leandra settling down after Malcolm dies, not sure if that's right though. Anyway back to point, so I don't think JAnders behaviour and paranoia is that far removed from what Hawke grew up with, and just reinforces JAnders as a protective male figure in their life.
kromify wrote...
ElleMullineux wrote...
I've only just started Awakenings so I couldn't say for sure, but the impression I get is that AAnders would bolt if things became too serious. Whereas JAnders has a steadfastness which allows him to bring another person into his world, Justice has made him a better boyfriend. I imagine part of it is related to the fact that Hawke still wants him too after 3 years, so Anders sees some of himself reflected back. I think JAnders needs the love but can't risk being distracted by something fleeting. He needs support and waiting for him demonstrates that.
As for Leandra - I have a shocking relationship with my mother and tbh it reminded me a bit of this... If I still had to see her more than once a year. She is just so happy to be back in society, and I don't think she ever recovered from what loving Malcolm did to her. Add exceptional times and just about everyone dying, well, angst galore. I loved being able to shout at Aveline, I thought that was brilliantly done. And I love how the different LI's respond as well. For my Hawke it was the perfect time to decide to move on from Fenris because... He's an arse. It means you miss out on Anders comforting scene but it RP's well in my head as the catalyst that sends Hawke into Anders arms after all of his warnings.
(Apologises for sP's, on my phone!)
my thumb would be very sore if i had to text all this!!!
Haha, it was on a BBTorch so it's just my thumb nail - had no idea how much I'd written until after it posted up. Serves me right trying to do internet stuff on my phone. Smartphones are no where near good enough yet - come on next-gen of phones. Also serves me right for browsing in bed - am knackered this morning and I'd had such good intentions of doing a LOT of work today.
A quick question for anyone that might know better - when the Hawke family 'settled' in Lothering - was that before or after Malcolm died? In my head I see it as Leandra settling down after Malcolm dies, not sure if that's right though.
They settled in Lothering ten years before the Blight (in 9:20), and Malcolm died seven years later, when the twins would have been fifteen and Hawke was at most 21 years old.
Is it said anywhere what Malcolm died of? I've not found anything on the wiki or in the codices, but I can only assume it was a relatively natural death. If Daddy Hawke was run through by a templar I'm sure it would have been brought up at some point in Kirkwall.
A quick question for anyone that might know better - when the Hawke family 'settled' in Lothering - was that before or after Malcolm died? In my head I see it as Leandra settling down after Malcolm dies, not sure if that's right though.
They settled in Lothering ten years before the Blight (in 9:20), and Malcolm died seven years later, when the twins would have been fifteen and Hawke was at most 21 years old.
Is it said anywhere what Malcolm died of? I've not found anything on the wiki or in the codices, but I can only assume it was a relatively natural death. If Daddy Hawke was run through by a templar I'm sure it would have been brought up at some point in Kirkwall.
Aha! Thanks Threeparts. I can still make that work with my headcanon - Hawke will have been old enough to understand why they spent their youth running around, whereas the twins wouldn't.
As for Daddy Hawke - I presumed natural too. Death by Templar/abomination/villagers would have been raised/ had a more marked effect on the twins.
As for Daddy Hawke - I presumed natural too. Death by Templar/abomination/villagers would have been raised/ had a more marked effect on the twins.
In my head-canon, he died of some sort of relatively common disease; my Amell Warden and my Hawke are both offensive mages, and rather rubbish at healing, so I justified it as the Amell/Hawke mages just being better at killing things than healing people.
A quick question for anyone that might know better - when the Hawke family 'settled' in Lothering - was that before or after Malcolm died? In my head I see it as Leandra settling down after Malcolm dies, not sure if that's right though.
They settled in Lothering ten years before the Blight (in 9:20), and Malcolm died seven years later, when the twins would have been fifteen and Hawke was at most 21 years old.
Is it said anywhere what Malcolm died of? I've not found anything on the wiki or in the codices, but I can only assume it was a relatively natural death. If Daddy Hawke was run through by a templar I'm sure it would have been brought up at some point in Kirkwall.
Bethany tells Merrill, "my father died in the Blight". She is not talking about the sickness because the text capitilizes the B, and if she meant the sickness, she would have said "died from the blight"
Bioware messed up somewhere. Malcom couldn't have died in the Blight before the Blight even started. Either the codex or Bethany is wrong. Or maybe Bethany is lying to cover up that her father's cause of death was shameful.
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