Queen-Of-Stuff wrote...
It's surprising, really: it took a while for me to get Awakenings, and from what I heard, Anders seemed the kind of cheeky arrogant that I would find supremely annoying. And yet, he became my favorite character. CulturalGeekGirl had a marvelous rant about the progression that I won't dig up without her permission.
Feel free to dig up any of my rants at any point, that's what they're there for. I always feel terribly egotistical if I dig something old of mine up, but if someone else does it, it's great.
I loved Awakenings Anders. I wanted to take him away on a pirate ship to Rivain so badly, and we could open up a pub called Sparklefingers and Zev could move in with us and neither of them would have to be afraid anymore. DA:A Anders with his solitary and his continuous recapture and the threat of death hanging over him was dramatic enough for me. I miss him, and I wish I could have saved a version of him to go off and do that. I've read a few fics written before DA:2 that are sort of like that. I kind of wish we could have had a romance with him in that form, but I understand why we couldn't... people wouldn't romance him in DA2 because it would feel like he was cheating on their Warden.
Aside: Anders is the first character I've ever voluntarily read fic for. Seriously, before now I've only ever read fic when a friend of mine made me. I've collected doujin, but that's not the same thing (and even that was pretty much just yonkoma for comedy series that I liked.) Part of what makes me feel ok about reading Anders fic is the fact that he's already written by two authors. He belongs to the world, now, like Batman. Ahem, anyway, back to my point!
I don't think Anders would have ever been able to do what JAnders does in DA2 without justice. He might have tried, but the first time something went too wrong he'd pack up shop and move on to the next town to start again. He also wouldn't... couldn't... hurt people to get his point across. Not without someone like the Commander standing at his back, telling him it was OK. And at this point, violence is necessary, at least on some level. It may be terrible and wrong, but it is necessary. It's easy to choose not to kill a templar when that choice doesn't blaze the face of a hundred mages who committed suicide through your brain. It's easy to keep your hands clean when you don't really care if you get the job done, as long as you made some kind of an effort. And that's the main thing he gave up... the luxury of clean hands. The luxury of "it's the thought that counts." I miss the DA:A feelings of something rare and awesome that I could maybe just manage to save before the world finally crushed it, but I also love the DA2 idea of someone who is in the process of burning himself up, and you can give him his only solace, a little glimpse of happiness. It's less what I
want, but it's more
powerful.
I do kind of miss DA:A Anders' voice. Not that I don't love his DA2 voice, but it would have been interesting to hear all these lines in his original voice. Would have provided a nice continuity. But ah well, you can't have everything.