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CulturalGeekGirl wrote...
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The tragedy of Anders denying his own desires (for what are actually legitimate reasons) is the thing that gets to me too, with Awakenings or without. This is in large part because he is the only fictional character I can immediately think of who refuses romantic connection he legitimately wants.... for an actual sane and reasonable reason. Unless Hawke is so in love with Anders that she can't even consider being with someone else, it's better for Hawke to choose someone else... anyone else. Unlike most characters who pull out the whole "it's not safe to be around me, I'll kill you or break your heart." spiel, Anders actually has a decent chance of doing either. A pretty damn high chance, really.
That's why one of the most interesting ideas for me is nonromanced Anders. I haunt the Fenris thread too, and I hear all the people there talking about their Hawke hating Anders, or about doing the one night stand with Fenris, kissing Anders, and then not being able to go through with it because Anders calls Fenris a beast when he shows up that night.
When someone talks about picking Fenris or being scared off by Anders, I sometimes think "but Anders still loves that Hawke. And he's probably partially glad she picked someone else, even if it's tearing him up inside. Because three years from now, when he knows what he has to do, he won't be breaking Hawke's heart in order to do it."
That's why I have to create a canon "happy ending" for any nonromanced Anders. Because seven years of steadily denying yourself more and more of the things that make you happy, until you are a miserable shell of a human devoted to a single purpose... that is the saddest thing I have ever heard.
Ah, bloody hell, now I have to talk about my canon Hawkette which I hate doing on forums.
If reading about other people's Hawke's bores you to tears, please look away now. The way I play her is that she takes his warnings seriously, he says it's a bad idea, so she listens to him. He reminds her a LOT of her Dad, who she adored, so trusts his judgement. Then Beth dies, then the thing with Fenris happens, then Leandra dies, and Fenris is about as comforting as a slap for the type of Hawke she is (It's my fault etc). The whole time Anders is the one person that's there, that cares, so she ends up needing him as much as he needs her.
It's more about that desperate all consuming 'must' rather than fluffy flirty love for me. I love delicious twistiness, and a Hawke that will deal with just about anything because they can't live without Anders hits all my buttons.
Non-romanced Anders hurts my little heart too, it's so painfully sad. Especially if Hawke moved on rather than never returned his feelings. How can you ignore someone that loves you that much?
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Modifié par ElleMullineux, 17 juin 2011 - 02:39 .
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My heart is melting. I am this close to developing a crush on that man.
