Tidra wrote...
Heidenreich wrote...
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I figured I came across as being too harsh, but your explanation I also do agree with. I know when he says it he is feeling self-hatred, but that's another reason I kind of hate it too. I am sitting there, trying to comfort him, and it's like he hates me and he hates himself for being my friend. It is just kind of depressing and I have known the guy for several years at this point, and it's like he still doesn't accept *ME* for just ME. I know he has gone through stuff with Danarius, stuff that I have also ended up helping him go through. I mean, maybe it's the voice actor. Gideon Emery is great but several of his lines end up sounding the same due to the whole "deep voice" thing. The line itself came across to me as being self-hateful, and sort of "UGH. Yes. YOU'RE my friend. How utterly sucky for me." And that is again, just my opinion. I was pretty floored when I heard it, because previously I had gotten the romance dialogue in that particular scene. So I was like wow, THANKSSS.
The catch though, is that he isn't "UGH,
your my friend. how utterly sucky for me". He's saying, "Wow... I would never believe it of myself had I not lived it. I have managed to find the
one decent mage in the whole world. And they actually put up with me.. and I still hate myself enough that I can't figure out why."
He's self-lothing, not hawke-disliking. His dispreciation for the friendship isn't because he doesn't apreciate Hawke's friendship. It has wholly to do with him and his inabiltiy to
want to bend his belief that, given enough freedom and power, mages turn into Magisters. Hawke (as a mage, or through bethany)'s whole roll in the friendship is to show Fenris this. He get's it, he appriciates Hawke, may even love them. He's just having a hard time dealing with the fact that Hawke keeps proving him wrong.
I didn't mean Anders was helpful in Awakening, I was specifically referring only to DA2. I still believe that Fenris honestly follows Hawke around for lack of anything else to do, (which most of them do, including Isabela) which is understandable he is trying to find his place in life. But at the same time while people get mad about sending him back to Danarius (which is terrible and I don't ever do) I think it is almost just as bad to let him go through with killing his sister. It's like, he doesn't even want answers from her. He finds out she is a Mage, she betrayed him, and neck snap. It's worth it to keep her alive just so he knows that his markings were of his own doing, not something that was forced upon him.
I was using Anders in Awakening as an example. In Awakening Anders was very selfish. In DA2, Fenris is very selfish. Given enough time, he'll move past it, and its clear that he has later on in the game (act 3, with his getting over of running away and asking for forgiveness.. or of his spark of a relationship with Isabela and supporting of a full friend/rival hawke.)
Anders grew up thanks to Justice. Fenris' catalyst is Hawke. Except we dont get enough time to see it, because Kirkwall explodes. Kaboom. By act 3 he's made his personal cause protecting Hawke, esp so if he/she's a mage. A Self-Appointed Bodyguard, rather then an enslaved one. A Free choice, given to someone worthy, in his eyes, of it. Perhaps he sees his best aveneu towards being rid of the slaver population in and around the Free Marches is to stick
with Hawke.
As for his sister... Well, if my brother betrayed me to the one person in the whole world who could hurt me and the people I love, I probably would/would want to kill him too. He doesn't kill her (or stays his hand thanks to Hawke), because she's a mage, but that he built it up slowly over the course of three years in his head what it would be like to meet her, to know who he was, to have a connection and be loved by
family. Family, who are suposed to love you unconditionally.
Except she doesn't, and she rats him out and sets him up in a trap, which he sort of knew would happen but didn't want to believe because it was his sister. He says as much if Hawke convinces him not to kill her, "I would have given you
everything." You can hear the hope shattering in his voice as he says it (and this is why Gideon is so awesome in his inflections.)
He doesn't turn Anders over to the templars because it would be a Betrayal of Hawke, who has never betrayed him (at that point), has helped him pretty much with out question, put up with his outbursts etc etc etc. He doesn't do it to protect Anders, because he doesn't like Anders. Who he likes, is Hawke (or at the very least, respects). Take Hawke out of the picture, and you can bet your ass Fenris would have taken Anders head and piked it back to the Templars.
Just in the same way that Anders, in his oh-so-Anders-ee way, will happily cheer Hawke on should he chose to give Fenris over to Denarius. They Do Not Like Each Other At All. The only reason they even put up with one another is because they
both like Hawke, either as a Romance, or as a Rival/Friend.
At the end of the day, you don't have to like the friends of your friends, but occasionally you'll put up with them for your friends sake.
btw, this is why we can't have nice things, because I
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