I recently finished a long Merrill post on another message board. Here it is:
My own opinion of Merrill is that I just love that poor little elf girl all to pieces. I did the friendship romance path with her and the ending was a total kick in the balls.
But when I stepped back and thought about it, I realized that I still couldn't blame her for how badly it ended. Merrill never wanted anybody to die except her. She set things up so that she was going to pay her own price, and not sacrifice anybody else. The Keeper changed that without asking Merrill... and from Merrill's reaction shot, it was the
absolute last thing Merrill ever wanted.
Merrill had made the choice to risk, and 99% likely sacrifice, her own life to try and give her people a better future. Normally, we call this kind of decision heroic! But since the mirror was actually all a lie, like a certain cake, and not going to actually help the elven renaissance, then it goes from 'heroic' to 'tragic' instead. And dear Maker, is it tragic.
But I still can't call it
wrong. It's not like she was proceeding in ignorance of the risks (because that would be stupidity), or proceeding on the basis that she doesn't care if other people get hurt as long as she gets what she wants (because that would be evil); instead, from the beginning Merrill's entire reasoning was 'A chance at restoring Arlathan is worth my life. It wasn't doing much good for the People any other way, anyway.'
Heck, Merrill's 'Don't try to save me! I don't want
you to get hurt!' dialogue on the rivalry romance path also shows her awareness of what the end of her road is going to be, and her desire to make sure that it lands on her, not on anybody else.
I just want to give her a hug and tell her 'No, you're wrong; your life is a precious thing, and worth as much as anybody else's. You're not so worthless that the only good thing you can do for your people is sacrifice yourself. Live, dammit, live! And do as much good in the world as you can!'
Instead, we got:
Keeper Marethari: You always knew that your blood magic would have a price, da'len. I have chosen to pay it for you.
Really, the writing on her is, IMO, one of the most brilliant things in the game; she is wrong, but she is so brilliantly and tragically and
unselfishly wrong that even when you
know its all going to end in tears, you still find yourself compelled to click 'Friendly - Friendly - Friendly' option, because you (or at least I) just could not help but sympathize with that powerful a dream.
Even if the dream was all a lie.
Dammit, Dragon Age. I know its a dark fantasy world, but can't we have
any nice things? Not even once?

The crux of Merrill's character is a philosophical debate; "At what point does sacrificing yourself to give your people a better life cross the line from hero to lunatic?" Because its undeniably heroic in the proper context.
Edit: And to add on stuff I saw argued elsewhere...
I
get Merrill. I get her entirely. I don't agree with her, but I am entirely in sync with where her head is. She combines being too dedicated to the mission of the Keepers that she's been raised to believe in with not having very much self-worth with a tremendous amount of unresolved grief for what the mirror did to her friends.
So she's got a core belief ('The only purpose of my life is to preserve and restore the elvhan heritage!') with a flawed self-assessment ('I'd make a horrible Keeper because I'm a total dork, I have no leadership skills or social skills; so trading my life for the eluvian isn't really that bad a trade because my life isn't doing much to help the Dalish any other way!') and a deeply emotional push ('I can't accept that what killed my friends was just another random horrible thing in a random horrible world! There had to be a point! It had to mean something! I'll
make it mean something!'), and with all of that mixed up in her head, you get... well, where she was.
And yet even with all that, she still remembered the basic moral tenet that 'Sin is when you treat other people like objects'. So I respect her. I just wish that she'd lived in a world where her heroic purity ofpurpose would mean that narratively, the mirror actually
would be worth something and not just be another trick, a demon's trap.
Modifié par cglasgow, 19 mars 2011 - 04:46 .