jlb524 wrote...
Ah, I don't think blood magic or blood mages are inherently evil and I don't think Merrill is evil or everything that happened was part of an evil plan she cooked up in her Alienage home.
I think Merrill does have a nice, warm caring, heart and does sincerely want to do something to help her people and part of that is so they will finally accept her. It seems to me she has had issues with interpersonal relationships even amongst the Dalish and, as a result, has a pretty poor self-image in regards to her relationships with other people. She even says she would make a terrible Keeper, and these issues come up in other places like during the romance or when she compares herself to Isabela in one of their banters.
However, she's good at magic and knows a lot of history and this is the one source of her self-love and pride. It's not surprising that when she finally finds an opportunity to restore an ancient elven artifact using her knowledge of magic/history she goes all out, gets "tunnel vision" and obsesses over it. I'm assuming that finding any ancient elven artifact is quite rare, so I'm sure Merrill feels that this is a once in a life time chance to do something for her people in the only way that she could help her people (in her mind).
But you see, what to me at first looked like a caring heart more turned into that she wanted to be a savior.
And her people did not want to be saved. By setting herself apart from them and saying, "I will save you!" instead of working with them, by rejecting everything bad that happened and realizing that she should stop, it became more about her than about them. She wanted them to love her, to be their savior. But her actions didn't seem to indicate that she really loved them in return. She set herself apart from them; the more she pushed to do this humungous great thing, the more damage she caused because the keeper wouldn't stop her because she loved her, but she didn't see this. She only saw her need to make them love her. She cried over them, but in the end decided it was their own fault, instead of accepting any blame.
A good example of if she had excepted blame, excepted responsibility would be to have smashed the damn mirror.
Again, she said that they would rather destroy themselves than accept her help. Why, oh why couldn't she have just lived with them and been part of their family? Why did she have to be right, no matter what?
Am I the only one that sees this? The fact that it was a mirror that she was obsessing over itself is so obvious it's not funny!