LobselVith8 wrote...
And this is where I disagree with you, because I do think Anders comprehends what's going on, which is why I find him siding with the templars OOC.
Anders is conscious of what's going on, but he also doubts himself on a fundamental level. He doubts himself in a way that only someone who has feared demonic possession his entire life and now believes he is possessed by a demon could doubt himself.
Anders currently believes that any thought or feeling he is having could be coming from an honest-to-god demon. He is conscious, but cannot trust his own thoughts. The only thing he does trust at this one moment is Hawke. "Everything I think is due to demonic influence. Hawke is the only person I can trust, if I cannot trust myself." When he's on the box of shame, he thinks that maybe there's some Anders left that isn't tainted by the demon inside of him.
By the time he gets to the gallows, he's convinced that isn't the case. The decision to fight for the Templars is the "right" decision according to that particular Hawke, and even the part of Anders that is currently suppressing Justice disagrees with this idea. He literally tells this to Hawke "it is destroying me to even contemplate turning against my people." (not the exact quote but close). But this version of Anders has taken what Hawke suggests to the logical extreme: if Anders still does not agree with siding with the Templars, it is because he has been completely corrupted by the demon inside of him. He is nothing but a monster now, and his desire to save the mages is just evidence that he is a monster.
So no, Anders has explicitly not decided that helping the Templars is a good idea, and everything about him is screaming at him not to do it, both Justice and Anders himself. The thing is, Hawke has convinced Anders that this is all because of a demon, and the only way Anders can reject his now demonic nature is in this one last act. Anders is convinced that he is
fundamentally a wrong and evil thing, and thus going against his instincts is the only right thing to do.
It is AWFUL. It is literally the worst and most horrifying thing I can imagine. I didn't realize how utterly wretched it was until I typed all of this out. Now my heart hurts.
But it isn't ooc.
Modifié par CulturalGeekGirl, 15 juin 2011 - 04:13 .