Gen Petitt wrote...
Actually I have already been treated for the most part yet still learning getting better
That's great! So long as you have hope and you can learn, you'll get better.
I hate to sidetrack things here, but I guess I'll let you all in on a little personal story:
When I was in 1st grade, the school psychologist I had evaluated me. After doing their tests, they believed I had autism and that I was, in a sense, a aspie as well. At first, I faught against it and didn't believe it, but then it somehow sank into me and I forgot about it until last year. People hated me at school for my behavior and the foul way I treated others. It was so bad that I had to transfer schools at one point to try and get better, which I did to some degree. While my grandmother told me that I was a smart kid and wasn't dumb or disabled like I thought I was, it didn't sink into me until last year, when I was at work. At that moment in time, the memories came flooding back into me. The whole truth of the situation was that I was not disabled or dumb, it was my parents influenced that caused my ruin! My father was the one who influenced me to bully others and be stupid, while my mother was the one who taught me deception and lying to ruin others. I couldn't believe what happened to me; a ordinary person such as myself was brainwashed into believing they had a mental illness.
Of course, I don't blame anything on my parents; I am aware that I have traits that led to my own faults; People tend to not care about their homework or projects every now and then, eh? But in the end, it was them that caused me to have a bad childhood in school. Had I been raised more properly by my parents, I wouldn't have had to go through what I did; it wouldn't stop confronting other kids in school like most children would, but it would put me in a much better place in school. I could never ask the people that hated me to forgive me, because what happened was a long time ago; most have forgotten the details by then. Plus, what I did back then were of my own actions, period. But I know that somehow, mystery lies in their mind about why I did what I did, and I hope I can explain to them why I was the way I was back then.
I realize this has nothing to you with being an aspie, but I figured I would elaborate on my own story. Maybe you weren't raised right by your parents. Maybe you were. I'm not sure. But what I can say is that there is hope for you to recover. Reach within yourself, tell yourself that you can still live within society and do the things you desire as long as you put effort into it; hell, throw out the stupid mental illness label if you have to, that's what I did. Don't let something like that hold you back! Keep going ahead in society and don't stop because you 'think' you can't go on. Know you can. Everybody has questions in life, and no matter how awkward they may seem at first, you can at least try to find the answers to them. There's no loss in trying.
Now, back to Tali, shall we? If Shepard were an aspie, i'm not sure; Mentally, he is hurt from all the war he's had to endure, with the reapers and all, but I bet Tali also is in a sense too. However, he is strong-willed. I think Tali looks for someone who has a strong will, intelligence and strength. And Shepard no doubt fits the bill in all 3. Save for maybe a strong will, I wish I could fit the bill on those requirements...
Modifié par forthary, 12 mai 2012 - 04:40 .