Knight
I had intended to not post further on this but since you ask some questions i'll answer them.
1. Dealing with betrayal.
Firstly i deal with it pretty much the same as anyone else, but only when that betrayal is without merit or when i myself have not played a part in the reasoning why i've been betrayed.
I've explained the reasons why Ash acts how she acts, rather than accept those reason you disagree with them first and now suggest i've not offered reasons why this is the case.
You refuse to accept someone feeling they've been abandoned for 2 years by the person that supposedly loved them, someone who during those 2 years never tried to contact them or find out how they are as a reason why someone would feel betrayed.
You ask me to provide evidence for how i came to my interpretation of these facts, the evidence is there in the words Ash herself uses.
She doesn't ask if Shepard's been dead for 2 years, if he's just been resurrected and that's the reason why he's only now coming to see her. Instead she says "she spent the past 2 years believing he was dead, that she loves him, that she thought he was dead, how could he put her through that, why didn't he let her know that he was alive, why didn't he contact her".
Her own words show that she believes now that Shepard has been alive all this time, that she believes during this time he let her go through believing he was dead and that he didn't care enough about her to contact her and let her know different.
I've said continually state of mind is all important, emotional state is all important and its clear that Ash's state of mind her emotional reaction to shepard's return, show that she believes shepard has already betrayed their relationship.
Yet you refuse to acknowledge this and say i've shown no proof of what i say.
2. Warriors way.
Firstly i'm a serving military man, i know all about the codes of ethics and the bond that service brings with it.
But what you say here completely disregards the personal nature of the relationship between Shepard and Ash and instead concentrates entirely on the proffessional one.
Personal relationships bring their own stresses to any encounter, for most people its the personal relationship that defines them or how they are perceived.
To ignore that personal relationship or downgrade its importance as i believe you do here is to completely misunderstand how people function.
Ask the most devoted military man to choose between his country and his family and if they are honest they will choose family every time, is that disloyalty or human nature?
I've led men into difficult situations, to do that i've needed the trust of those men, that trust is earned and once lost needs to be re-earned. If for example i was having an affair with the wife of one of the men in my unit and that man found out, would the fact i may have saved that mans life previously mean i haven't lost his trust?
I gurantee the answer to that is a resounding no, its not just what i've done in the past that gains me that trust but its how i'm perceived to be in the present also.
I've suggested that because of how Ash has perceived Shepards actions during the time spent apart (perceived actions not actual ones) and because of what those actions mean in relation to both personal and proffessional trust that Ash while technically being wrong in how she acts, has justifiable reasoning why she acts that way.
You refuse to accept how Shepard's actions could be perceived as wrong because you know they are not, but cant seem to grasp the concept of why Ash does not.
You expect Ash to act like a robot, ignore whatever emotional turmoil she may be going through, dismiss all evidence other than Shepard's idiotic responses and basically man up.
Which to me shows such a basic lack of normal human responses that i begin to wonder if you live in a bubble where emotions don't exist and everyone is aware completely of motivations based not on any evidence they have of them but a knowledge of how a person once was.
The problem with Horizon from Ash's perspective (a perspective you continually ignore) is that Shepard's perceived actions during the past 2 years, the info Ash has regarding those actions and the facts of Shepards working with cerberus allied to Shepard's own responses, force her to question not just the Shepard in front of her but the Shepard she thought she knew.
Once she's reached that point, she can no longer trust what Shepard says or her own memory of who Shepard is, simply because the emotional bond has been severely damaged and the info in her possession doesn't fit with Shepard's explanations. She's then faced with the key question, if Shepard was not who she thought he was, if he did not stand for the same things she believed he does, can she trust that the man in front of her really can be trusted.
I've explained why emotionally Ash perceives Shepard as having betrayed her and the relationship they had, but rather than accept that you suggest she should ignore the emotions and behave like a robot.
To paraphrase "I'm not going to hold her hand and nurse her through her emotional breakdown, i need competent soldiers that will follow my orders without question"
That proves how little you comphrend the relationship between Ash and Shepard, rather than acknowledge the personal nature of it, you expect Ash to act like a non thinking grunt, to blindly follow without question someone who's very existence should raise significant ones.
Horizon as i've said takes place with complicated factors involved, Shepard being alive and working with cerberus alone should raise significant questions, when the personal relationship between the 2 parties is also added these questions and how they're answered become even more complex.
If the most heroic soldier in america died in action then rumours spread that he was alive and working with al qaeda, if after a 2 year absence he suddenly reappeared and explained he'd died and been in a coma for 2 years and that the reason he was working with Al qaeda was because they were the only ones doing something about a major event, would his fellow soldiers just unquestionably follow him because they knew him 2 years ago?
Or would they wonder if he was being duped or had been brainwashed and had completely abandoned his principles and the things he stood for?
The answer to the first question would be not a chance in hell, yet you expect Ash to basically do just that, you expect her to accept Shepard's inane explanations because she knew him 2 years ago and knew what he stood for then.
When you on top of that add in what to Ash is a personal betrayal of the relationship they shared, then how else would a normal person act.
3. Bringing things up that are irrelevant.
The events that shepard has gone through, his reasoning for not contacting Ash, the justification for working with cerberus, his actions on Horizon in saving the colony, none of these are actually relevant in how Ash perceives Shepard and his actions.
Simply put Ash has only Shepards responses, his working with cerberus and the rumours that have been spread about him to go on.
In terms of his death and ressurrection, her questions and statements at the beginning of the encounter clearly show she believes he didn't die, that he only let her believe he was dead.
She believes he didn't try to contact her, let her go through the past 2 years believeing he was dead for some reason and is now and has been for some time working with cerberus.
Not knowing the details about Lazurus make Shepard's death appear to have been a hoax, which then gives rise to why was that hoax perpetrated.
Shepard brings up being in a coma and cerberus having rebuilt him in order to allay those concerns, the problem here is twofold, knowing nothing about the lazurus project why would anyone believe someone can be rebuilt? If you can't believe that why believe Shepard was in a coma?
Like i said because of the info Ash has, shepards return seems to have been not as a result of Liara finding his body and giving it to cerberus who for the past 2 years have rebuilt him but rather the culmination of an operation where Shepard has pretended to be dead for 2 years and has been working with cerberus for all that time.
She closes down completely at the mention of cerberus at this point because knowing who they are and what they stand for and knowing that Shepard has been working with them for some time, anything Shepard says cannot be taken without that context.
The problem is offcourse we know she's mistaken, we have info she does not, so we know her perception is wrong, Ash not having that info doesn't have the same luxury and is instead tied into that perception.
People wonder why she doesn't ask more questions about Shepard at that point, why she didn't press for details, to me its simple, why would she, if she already believes what i claim she does she wouldn't ask because the mere mention of cerberus has raised another issue.
4. Disagreeing.
You say my disagreement with how you conclude how you do is akin to disagreeing that the sky is blue, that rather than offer facts to show why i disagree i instead concentrate on the emotional argument.
I believe i've offered facts as to why Ash behaves as she does, the problem is that the encounter on Horizon is an emotional one and emotions play a large part in why things happen as they do.
To me you concentrate and analyse Horizon unemotionally, you cannot see why emotion plays such a key part in the reasoning behind why the encouner goes so badly wrong.
Instead you add up the facts that you as Shepard know, Dismiss the facts that Ash knows as irrelevant and expect a non emotional rational examination of the facts to prove your point.
You expect Ash to completely ignore her emotions, dismiss the evidence she has and the situation thats in front of her, revert to a non emotional robot and rather than question the situation and Shepard, accept everything as if time passed has no meaning and without question accept Shepard because she knew him before.
The situation's changed, time has passed, Shepards death and ressurrection, his working with cerberus should force serious questions to be asked, when thats added in to the emotional aspect of someone believing that they've been personally betrayed as i believe Ash perceives herself then Horizon becomes more complex than simply a trust and loyalty exercise.
Ash's perspective is informed by not just the info she has but her emotional state, an emotional state clearly shown in the opening moments on horizon.
She believes shepard for 2 years has been alive, that he didn't try to contact her or even care what she went through and that during those 2 years he's been working with cerberus.
I've shown i believe why this is the case and why then in the same situation the trust you want her to give Shepard is a step most people would not take at that point, rather than accept this you instead portray the encounter as one where emotion should play no part, where info Ash is not aware of should have bearing and one where questions need not be answered.
Perhaps you stoic and can handle your emotions better than the vast majority of people, perhaps you in the same situation could dismiss feeling that the person in front of you has betrayed your relationship, could dismiss that the person in front of you has serious questions to answer and instead offers inane respones to those questions, perhaps you could put aside your own loyalty to the people you serve because you knew what that person once stood for, perhaps you could ignore that it appears they no longer or perhaps never felt the same about you or believed in the things you thought they did.
If it was me i could not, for the very same reasons i've explained why i believe Ash doesn't.
Modifié par alperez, 28 septembre 2011 - 03:01 .