LolaLei wrote...
It seemed like he desperately wanted to talk to someone and when Hawke checks in for a friendly chat he often ended up revealing more than he intended, which shows that he still has a slight naivety about him to trust someone so easily (even if Hawke's pro-mage.)
I think Cullen was probably struggling to keep his head above water in his new title, especially as Meredith gradually descended into madness, I dare say he had to deal with a lot of her duties too when she started locking herself up in her office with her lyrium idol-sword. It seems like the Templars in Kirkwall pretty much done whatever they wanted behind the scenes and Cullen was powerless to stop them.
Yes, all of this. I also wonder if Cullen felt a little more open around Hawke because Hawke was also from Ferelden.
Once Meredith became reclusive, the Gallows must have been a nightmare. Knight-Commanders is hiding in her office. Knight-Captain is a look at by others as a naive boy. Alrik and others are doing whatever they damn please. Total disaster.
LolaLei wrote...
R2: I'd totally forgotten about her! Well, it was probably her or one of the others who started spreading it around. It's sad to think that it caused him pain be it through unrequited love or embarrassment... I actually think it was remorse that upset him for the way he treated her after the broken circle event (especially if you killed her off lol), otherwise he wouldn't have been so dreamy about her when mentioning her to Hawke if he was ashamed.
Those mages loved to gossip so no doubt that gossip was spread far and wide.
Agreed about the remorse bit. I also think that there are many different ways to read the dialogue that occurs during Broken Circle. It is easy to cut off certain branches of the dialogue tree and depending on what the fem!mage!warden selects, the nature of the dialogue has very different subtext.
Here's one way that the fem mage can trigger the middle section of the dialogue with Cullen:
F!Mage: Makes you wish you hadn't said those things, doesn't it?
Cullen: I am beyond caring what you think! The Maker knows my sin, and I pray that he will forgive me.
F!Mage: Why does it cause you so much pain?
Cullen: You are a mage and
I, a templar. It is my
duty to oppose you and all you are. …Why have you returned to the tower? How did you survive?
F!Mage: Is it so surprising that I've returned? This was my home.
Cullen: As it was mine. And look what they've done to it. They deserve to die! Uldred most of all. Kill Uldred. Kill them all for what they've done. They caged us like animals... looked for ways to break us. I'm the only one left... They turned some into... monsters. And... there was nothing I could do.
To me, this isn't the rantings of an anti-mage "kill them all and let the maker sort them out" zealot. This is someone who:
1. Prior to Uldred's attack, experienced a lot of emotional pain over unrequitted/forbidden love (and he might have been teased about it given how gossipy the tower was).
2. When saying "it is my
duty to oppose you," he is talking about how his duty causes him pain, not that he actually opposes her.
3. When the mage warden and Cullen both establish that they think of the tower as "home," Cullen sounds far more like he's trying to convince the warden to take revenge on Uldred and his followers for
wrecking their home than he's asking her to Annul the circle. Annuling the circle is a cold, executive decision (or, it is supposed to be). What Cullen is asking in this variation of the dialogue is pure hot-headed revenge-- kill everyone who might even be vaguely involved in destroying our home.
So, I can easily imagine him 3 to 4 years later, thinking about how strong and heroic the mage warden was, and how rediculously helpless and horribly emotional Cullen was.