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I think I've spent the last 2 days completely on here, I might of gone to sleep for like 6 hours, luckily no classes for me tomorrow, yay!
You made me choke on my Coca Cola LMAO!
I'm deviding my time ( well right now ) between here and fanfiction.net lol OMG, I'm a lame woman
Hahaha! Oh god I really need to get a life, maybe I'll get a boyfriend. Then again how could I just give up Cullen?! Gahh, this is just so hard
I'm engaged (for about five years now?) and I feel bad, but sometimes I think, if there is an afterlife, and it is shaped in the way you want it to be, rather than the way that it's described in the holy books, or if we were part of the game....I like to think that Cullen would fall in love with me [to make it sond better, or have my fiance appear in the afterlife as Cullen <.<).
Awe don't feel bad,
I think of it rather as my character liking Cullen, not real me, though I guess I am my character? But in the same sence I'm not my character. I know people in these games are just characters, (though sometimes I think they're better friends than I actually have lol!) Hmm this makes me wonder what exactly is the reason people get attached to game characters? Do they feel like they're missing out on something in real life? or just because? Ooh I think I might create a forum on this...
I think I just said character too much lol
I know the reason why I got so attached to Alistair's character in DA:O:
When I first played Dragon Age It was because my friend has lent it to my boyfriend (now ex) and it had been sitting in the house gathering dust for a few months. I was in a unhappy relationship at the time where it didn't matter what I done for him he'd still accuse me of cheating, get ****ty with me when I saw my friends, called me a liar, belittle me and just generally acted like a bit of a **** towards me (don't get me wrong, I used to argue back with him etc.) Anyway, I was of the impression that the relationship probably wouldn't last much long so I figured I should keep the game at my house instead in case we broke up and I forgot to get it back for my friend. One evening I was a bit bored so I figured I'd try out the game since it was there, I'd never heard of Dragon Age: Origins so I didn't know what to expect but I thought I'd find it boring. I started playing and started to get really immersed into the storyline, then Alistair pops up on screen making some joke about Mages and I was like "ooo hello!" and the more his personal story progressed, the more I grew to like him and was pleasantly surprised to discover I could get my character to flirt with him. Then his romance story arc began to kick in and I was smitten. I guess Alistair struck a chord with me because he was so sweet, funny and treated my Warden so well, which set off alarm bells at just how badly I was being treated in my own relationship. There was my Grey Warden off having this wild adventure, whilst my own freedom was being stifled as I was often stuck indoors because my ex would demand to know where I was, who I was with etc. If I wanted to socialise I would have to either have to do it without him knowing or tell him I was going out regardless and get endless txt messages quizzing me about my whereabouts or get a grilling about who I'd seen when I returned *cue depression*.
I think I wrapped myself up in the Dragon Age world as a coping mechanism and means to escape my own crappy life at the time. Don't get me wrong I didn't get all obsessed with Alistair in a creepy way but he was the first game character I developed strong feelings for because he was the epitome of everything I was lacking in my own relationship. I was essentially unintentionally getting my romantic fix from a fictional character because I was starved of it in my real life relationship. Of course, my ex wasn't happy when he found out that I had a crush on Alistair and would be a right jerk about it even thoughhe would make comments about attractive women all the time. 6 months on from breaking up with my ex I'm still having to lay low, he kept pestering me asking for me to take him back, contacting me through my facebook/YouTube/Email accounts so I had to close everything, he even dropped a card through my door on Valentines day.
I'll always have a soft spot for Alistair and Dragon Age: Origins because that game was the cog that set the gears turning, forcing me to admit to myself that my relationship with my ex was not normal or healthy, it made me question what I actually wanted in a relationship/life and was the first little push I needed to address the problems.
As for Cullen? I just really sympathised with his character and the more we found out about his backstory the more intriguing he became and as such would make an amazing companion... that and the fact he's hot of course lol.
Awww, honey! I'm sorry to hear about this chapter in your life. Abusive relationships (and that's what it was) are sometimes the hardest to escape and often people don't realize that's what's happening until they're completely consumed by it. I've been there myself, many moons ago. I left and went back more than once. Took about two years before I finally picked up and moved out of state. By the time he found me I had finally gotten my wits back and was content without him. The hurt and anger eventually fade. One day I realized I hadn't thought about him in like a month and I no longer wished him any "specific" harm. LOL
Finding some kind of mental escape, IMO, is necessary.
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I don't want to sound like I'm trying to headshrink you but I think that talking it out is something you need to do. If you're still cooped up, it's delaying a part of your... recovery, for lack of a better term. You need to get your life back and you need to let it all out. I know I couldn't STOP talking the minute I got back to family and away from my emotionally abusive ex. So it's ok. We get it. 
<3
oops. Man, I wish I was his girl in the story or the game.
