I find myself on the fence and uncertain - and this is why:
Tali Zorah nar Rayya... In Mass Effect 1 - In 2183, she was not only an integral part of my shore party.My canon Shep is a combat specialist.She is a tech specialist.Liara T' Soni is a biotic specialist.Together we were as
powerful as the Power of three Halliwell sisters of Charmed :-)
Tali was also the squad-mate that I most wanted to become romantically involved with.But it was not to be during that time.
A couple of years later - Mass Effect 2 is released.And I discover by way of Yeoman Kelly Chambers that Tali fancy's me.I was not expecting to hear that.But it was welcome news nonetheless.
complication.By the time I ended up recruiting Ms.Zorah in ME2.Shep was already spoken for by Miranda.
Also Operations Chief Ashley Williams and Commander Shepard need a resolution.For she is my ME 1
canon love interest.But in her email, she said that she was "Not sure what the future holds betwixt us." Which made me say,"Well when you figure out if you want to be my girl again.Holler... Until then - I'm going do me." (as they say)
In any case... By the time I was ready to do the Suicide Mission. I had a tough choice to make.Here I
found myself again in the same position that I was in Mass Effect 1.I had chosen the runner up b/c I couldn't be with my true choice.In ME 2.Before Horizon.I had no idea that Tali was even going to join my team.I accepted the fact that thingswere different now.My former squad-mates were doing new things.I have a new ship, crew and mission.My XO - Operative Miranda Lawson has been good to me.Then Tali has to go and say,
"Hey Shepard.Get over here handsome." ../../../../images/forum/emoticons/love.png
I never meant to hurt Miranda, but given the high probability that we all would not survive the Suicide Mission.I just couldn't let Shepard leave this world without ever seeing the face of a woman who he cares for respects and loves so much.
So I broke off things with Miranda and walked into Tali's arms as I have wanted to since ME 1...

But.. We didn't die.Indeed - in my first play-through of Mass Effect 2 (in which all I'm writing of here takes place) I didn't lose a single member of my unit.We all made it out alive.And in the intervening time betwixt Mass Effect 2 and 3.Shep and I have had much time to think and reflect on the decisions we've made up until this point.
Who he is?
What is he fighting for?
Who does he want to share his life with?
I thought that b/c Tali and I clicked so well on the battlefield that it would be the same in the bedroom, so to speak.But after reviewing the "Hot Mess" ../../../../images/forum/emoticons/pinched.png that Shepard has made of things in the Mass Effect universe.I couldn't help but recall that more than not; the one who convinced Shep to do these things that effed up the galaxy was my "Sister in Arms" Tali Zorah vas Normandy.
She was the one who convinced me that "Concentrating on Sovereign" at the expense of the Citadel Council was
the right call.But now I'm not so sure that her reasons for advising me on this course of action was purely tactical...
Especially when I began to recall things she said to me while we were on the Citadel and exploring the Presidium, earlier in our quest.
Tali:
1.When I first arrived at the Citadel.I spent nearly three hours being questioned by the officers before they let me enter the wards.
2. Quarians aren't to popular with Citadel Security.They think that we are all beggars and theives.
3. My people use to have an embassy here.But after we created the geth.We were no longer welcome.
4. The krogan rebelled against the Council, yet they have a statue on the Citadel.And we quarians still live as outcast. ../../../../images/forum/emoticons/andy.png
5. (The Pièce de résistance - in the Council Chamber) Three hundred years ago the geth drove my into exile.We asked the Council to wipe the
synthetics out, but they ignored our pleas. ../../../../images/forum/emoticons/angry.png
Ashley: Maybe if they'd listen.We wouldn't be here now.
Bearing this all in mind.I feel as though Tali used me - manipulated me to avenge her ancestors... She is so bitter and angry about how the galaxy treats her people, the Council especially. That paying them back blinded
her to the consequences for others.
Now my people.My race is hated and despised by a good portion of the inter galactic community.Just like the quarians are...
In 2185 after we were reunited on Haestorm.During her loyalty mission.I deferred to her once more.Seeing it as her call, not mine.After all, it is her neck on the line and they are her people.But after hearing what
she says after I asked her about the quarians plans of war with the geth, and reclaiming their home-world.I was kind of shocked and a bit pleased by her response.I'm paraphrasing: I did what I could for them.If they want to go get themselves blown up.Oh well..."
Tali is seen as a hero by many of her people.But she doesn't really give a damn about them - really.We know this is so from how little she is affected by being "Exiled".Tali only becomes distraught, if her fathers dirty laundry is put on public display.
I'm not writing any of this to bash Tali.In point of fact; I think all these facets of her character make her fascinating.From an objective observers point of view.But in-game:
My Shepard has reached the point where he sees Tali as a 'Bad Influence' on him. She is like a beautiful Siren in a way.Her voice and figure and personality have a way of affecting Commander Shepard's IQ Level and Common Sense.
Why do I have to break up with her? For the reasonsI have listed and this one as well: Shepard would not be what he is today, if not for Tali.The first human Spectre.It is a debt that I feel at times can never be fully re-payed.Tali says that she is indebted to Shepard to the same extent.For him saving her life from Fist thugs and Helping her complete her pilgramige.That may be... But I still feel like Shepard owes her more.Also I feel kind of gulity, even in my "Save the Council" ME 1 Import.That the Systems Alliance gained so much good will and political
gains.Post Battle of the Citadel.Where as the Quarians didn't even get so much as there embassy reinstated by the Citadel Council.That's F'd up...
More reasons to end things with Tali:
I care about Tali's people more than she does - apparently.And that's F'd up too...
Her complete lack of sympathy or empathy for the Geth...
At one time I saw Tali.I thought of Tali as a sweet, innocent, kind, highly intelligent , strong person.A good girl who wields a shotgun and is more than willing to use it if nesecary.But now I see that she is "A Good Girl Gone Bad"
I remember being shocked beyond words on one of my ME 1 play-throughs when on Virmire she suggested that I kill the indoctrinated STG members in their cell.In
cold blood... ../../../../images/forum/emoticons/surprised.png When I put all this together - she just leaves me thinking, "Who the hell is this person!?!" ../../../../images/forum/emoticons/alien.png
I didn't kill the Indoctrinated STG.But I did leave them in thier cell.
I don't know what BioWare has in store for us Talimancers in ME 3. But I'm not sure if I'll still be a Talimancer by the time the game comes out...
Rihanna's song "Rehab" is so appropriate for how I feel about Tali and what i wrote in this Blog - These lyrics especially:
Damn,
Ain't it crazy
When you're loveswept
You'll do anything
For the one you love
'Cause anytime
That you needed me
I'd be there
It's like
You were my favorite drug
The only problem is
That you was using me
In a different way
That I was using you
But now that I know
That it's not meant to be
You gotta go
I gotta wean myself off of you
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