Because it had been so long since I originally watched episode 1, I didn't pick up on how wonderfully delightful it is that TRS' first scene after the nightmare fight mimics episode 1's opening perfectly save for different dialogue. Madoka's 'I don't have any secret admirers...' made me just grin. Oh foreshadowing. Since I mentioned the opening of TBS before I'll go into a little more detail here. The SKU parallels that I keep mumbling about making me twitch are dependent on hand touching.
https://www.youtube....h?v=fMLGTV_hDMU (That's SKU's opening) Out of context it probably doesn't mean much and it's probably strange that such a simple thing makes me get all stupid but in context with both series... It's funny that TBS' opening does kind of spoil some things visually, Godoka in all her glory most specifically. At the same time it's the usual Magica Quartet way of me picturing them sitting around a table giggling over how they can work so much imagery in that will later have a different context. The song is lovely though, even if I do miss Connect. Also THE NUZZLING. :') Oh Gen, I love the fact that you enjoy eating my heart for breakfast.
I've never thought about it before but considering the fact that she's reset over 100 times, Homura's apprehension about letting Mami fight Charlotte makes me strongly think that this timeline is not the first Mami was killed here. An effect I've always loved in the series is when Madoka and Mami have their talk before the Charlotte fight, the background behind them while Mami vents her loneliness is very lowkey and dulled. Once Madoka shares her sense of comradery, the whole screen lights up. Yes this isn't Mami's barrier but I always appreciated the fact that it almost connected with her own mental state.
Junko's line about doing something for a friend, even if they immediately don't understand that it's a good thing. Oh man. Rebellion is grey enough that this is up in the air but it puts an interesting spin on how Homura felt that Madoka wished she hadn't sacrificed herself at the end of the series.
J: Would you still want to resolve it if it isn't a neat and tidy solution?
M: Yes.
J: Then you should make a mistake for her.
M: A mistake for her?
J: Sometimes you tell an awful lie, or run away from something scary... and then later look back and realize that that was actually precisely the right thing to do, right? If you can see there's no way for your friend's problem to end but in despair, it'd be better for her to crash and burn sooner rather than later.
M: But do you think she'll understand that I'm doing it for her own good?
J: Sometimes they do, sometimes they don't- especially at first. But I warned you that it wouldn't be a pretty ending. So what seems better to you? To give up on your friend, or to be misunderstood by her?
Since they seemingly worked backwards on TRS, some of the dialogue between Madoka and Homura in the series really does make it hard to believe because it fits so perfectly. After the Sayaka and Kyouko duel, she flat out says that if reasoning with a fool won't work, she'll take more drastic measures. Come TRS and she is made to believe that Madoka is/could be unhappy with the wish to be separated from everyone like at the end of the series, and Homura finds her drastic measures. I have a hard time subscribing to the idea that she doesn't respect Madoka's descision because of the flower field scene. It could be a case of miscommunication, the thing that has gotten so many girls in trouble as far as their wishes are concerned in the past. In Madoka's mind series wise, she was perfectly clear with her wants and desires at the end to Kyubey and that remade the system as we know it. Come the flower field scene and Homura walks away from that conversation truly believing that Madoka didn't truly want to be separated from everyone.
Homura calling Madoka out for the fact that her kindness could bring about more tragedy really is an almost gutwrenching moment with TRS so fresh in my mind. Yes all those resets damaged her, there's no question about it but the true scarring more than likely wasn't done until Madoka became a god and was completely removed from the equation in a tangible sense. In TRS Homura started to doubt her own memories up until the pieces started falling into place. Depression based out of the loss of an important individual can do that quite easily, be it through physical death or a parting of ways. Once enough time has passed, there can come a point where the person suffering questions their own memories, both good and bad. That's where the Godoka relief in her barrier comes back into play. It's like a hidden away photo or something of that sort, a visual reminder of the most important thing.
The alley scene with Sayaka and Homura in TRS is such a fantastic call back to their 'first' meeting after Sayaka makes her contract. Right down to Sayaka still calling her transfer student, except this time the roles are reversed. It's these little details that really do drive me up a wall in a good way. I can never seem to get my feelings out about such a simple scene but Sayaka's character growth throughout the series is such a wonderful thing to me.
Regret is such a decidedly difficult emotion. It's a theme that comes up so many times in the series and while in hindsight of TRS the conversation between Madoka and Sayaka on whether or not the latter has any regrets after first becoming a magical girl is almost generally smile worthy, thinking in context of the series alone it's very painful with knowing what comes later. Sometimes I worry that I talk about these characters with too much of a bias and if that is the case, I apologize. I do see a lot of myself in Sayaka and Homura as I've mentioned before so my own personal bias might get in the way. That in no way means I can't see their faults. If anything, it makes me notice them more easily because I do register my own personal character flaws. Sayaka's decline is almost excruciating at times for me because of that. Good intentions screwing you over. It's easier to say it's something that hits Kyouko on a far grander scale, but Sayaka's feels more personal in that we are allowed to see her own decline play out in full first hand.
I vaguely mentioned before that Sayaka in the beginning is very much the sort that bases her own self worth on those around her's opinions. I still can't help but wonder if she was given some sort of positive reinforcement along the way, if it would have slowed or even all but stopped her eventual witching point. Yes Kyosuke and Hitomi were part of that breaking point but I've always kind of felt like it was the sort of last straw sort of thing. Her wish could be called selfish in that she fixed Kyosuke almost for her own gain but even that is a very grey point. She healed him to make him happy again and in that make herself happy out of a purely empathetic outlook. Kyouko does call her on it later with the suggestion that she made the wish in order to push Kyousuke into the mindset of being eternally grateful to her and that she should have gone the far more direct route if she wanted him to be indebted to her. It comes back around to the idea of selfish love that I meant to expand upon earlier.
For as whiny as I was on learning that they replaced Decretum during the Elsa Maria fight, adding it over Sayaka watching Hitomi telling Kyosuke her feelings and the fight bit before the train scene to further show her decline really made me shut my mouth on the matter. While the series used a more music box sort of version to it, the movie chose to use the version I normally connect to the Elsa Maria fight, so good job on punching my feels there.
Really confused as to why they decided to cut out the almost fight between Sayaka and Homura though since it dropped the bigger hint about Madoka being Homura's motivation, the lengths she's willing to go for her, put in clear words how apathetic Sayaka had become and pushed the fact that Kyouko cares for Sayaka a bit further, I suppose it was for pacing sake though since in TBS it cuts from seeing Hitomi and Kyousuke together to the almost desperate fight scene and ending on the train. I do really like that train scene a lot personally, always have and the fact that the movie increased the contrast in the scene from the series really helped for me to serve as a visual idea that Sayaka currently sees the world in such black and white terms.
I read before that Gen has stated that he has no idea how to write 'proper' love because the emotion alone is just insane to him. That's just the thing though. In saying he can't write love, the line I'm using as my signature feels like it encapsulates the emotion above platonic and familial love perfectly. Maybe I sound jaded, I don't know but I've come to believe that love in and of itself is selfish. I don't feel that's a bad thing per se, in my mind there is absolutely nothing wrong with a bit of selfishness within reason. The idea of giving yourself over to another person is very selfless on first thought but at the same time, it's supposed to be a mutual thing. Give and get back. So there are the selfless thoughts but at the same time, the selfish desires to get the same in return. Balance. Their teacher can easily be taken as comic relief because of how out of sorts about her relationships she gets but taking the flipside of that and looking at the things Junko says to her in their talk at the bar and even just looking at the Kaname family in general serves to show the other half of the coin. It's human nature to search for love and try to make things work. Sometimes sacrifices will be made and it's often a question of whether or not that sacrifice is worth it. Sayaka felt that rush after her wish and seeing Kyousuke play on the roof because it was a visual acknowledgment that she did something good for the person she cares about. As her decline goes on and she starts get hit repeatedly with negative reinforcement from the other girls, seeing the general negative to apathetic outlooks of those around her, finding out the truth about soul gems and what the contract means to the girls' bodies, so the revelation that she made a sacrifice for something that isn't going to 'work' just feels like the tip of the iceberg. A lot of the fandom seems to focus solely on the stuff with Kyousuke amd Hitomi as being Sayaka's personal hell and while yes, it is such an unfortunate visual reminder on why love is such an insane emotion in general, I've never been able to place the blame solely there for why she lets despair in. It basically becomes a steady chain of negative happenings in seemingly a short amount of time. Of course the potential insanity of love plays out on a much larger scale in TRS.