A friend told me of all the Well wishes and that I should come back and see this.
I am amazed at you people, and I am happy, that I helped some of us who have problems with depression, to speak out.
BioWare if you read this: See how much we cared for your franchise. We know it's irrational to get worked up like that over any kind of fiction, but as GBGRiffin said: It's a passion and you would be heartbroke too if your passion was ruined for you.
It's a harsh example, but I liken this to a young man in Germany. He wanted to do a bet on the biggest show in german TV "Wetten, dass..." (means "Wanna bet that..."). His bet was that he could jump over several cars, that were driving straightly towards him. It worked a few times, then he crashed on one of these cars. Now he's quadriplegic. He was a very fit guy, who loved doing sports. It's taken away from him. He hasn't lost hope and still has a positive outlook on live, but he still can't do what he loved anymore.
But he still fights for it!
I lost the ability to enjoy Mass Effect with this ending (again there is technically only one!). I am okay and I will still wait a few days before I actively jump into the fray here at BSN again. "Paper Mario The Thousand Year Door" is really helping me cope with this, as is my therapist which I saw today on a special session. He understands my pain but he really helped me to put it in perspective and to vent my grief the right way. The right way is:
-To talk about it with people that understand
done that in this thread already and will continue doing so
-To look directly at what is causing that grief and to understand it
I know now for certain, that I feel betrayed. I was betrayed in my expectations of 10+ endings where my decisions in Mass Effect 1 and 2 mattered. Nobody can argue against this, because it's the truth. My truth!
-To find another outlet for my creative energy
I will start something again. Thankfully I have other passions
-To meet with friends/family and be comforted
Already did so yesterday. Helped a lot
These apply directly to me and not for everyone.
Thank you guys, my prayers are with those who feel the same grief over the ending as I do.
P.S.: Ah Paper Mario - TTYD. It's not the Pinnacle of Storytelling, but still a much more fulfilling story than Mass Effect. At least for me now.
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