Thanatos144 wrote...
You truly don't grasp it yet do you? You asked for something and Bioware
gave you something. It wasn't what you wanted.......so what?You learn a life lesson that you don't always get what you want.
Gee, thanks so much. I needed you to tell me that. For the record, I am probably old enough to be your mother. I have worked in jobs where I have talked people down from committing suicide. I have worked in jobs where I have debrided the wounds of real people, one being the gaping chest wound of a man who tried to bear the pain so he could be brave for me and where I saw the brain matter of a young man run out of his nose because he'd been hit in the head by a factory fan.. I have worked in jobs where I had to comfort the parents of a 16 year old boy, who was driving a car and was killed. I had to try and tell these parents (the father had broken his hand by slamming it through a wall) that they could somehow still go on.
I have worked a job where I had to listen, helplessly on the phone as an intruder raped and killed a young woman that was seeking help, before help could arrive.
I have buried both my parents (gave my dying father mouth to mouth resusitation, had my mother die before my eyes, and dealt with the suicide of my sister) and somehow had to figure how to still get up in the morning. I have cared for a family friend who died of lung cancer and watched as she tried to talk to the dead through a television remote.
I live with the most gentle soul in the feline world, and the wisest-an animal that I found the week my mother passed away. I convinced myself that she came to me when I needed her the most. I now must sit and try to deal with the fact she has 2 inoperable brain tumors, and deal with the hurt in my heart that one day this wise soul will leave me all too soon.
I have dealt with physical abuse at the hands of an older brother who beat me because I looked at him.
I have helped friends who have had family members that contemplated suicide and found relief that in some small way I may have indeed helped stave off such decisions.
I have helped raise my brother's children and watched with pride their growth into adulthood and anguished over struggles along the way. And many of these things I have done while sacrificing the life I might have had-though I never have shared that concern with anyone along the way. I gave up having my own children. I gave up much, but got so much more in return.
So, yes I do need you to tell me that I may not always get what I want. I have had a really hard time figuring that out. Thank you so much for consistently coming on here and telling us all we need to get a life, move on, accept the fact that we can't always get what we want. I so cherish your wisdom and hope you will regale us with more along the way. This is my "DUH" moment.