Shepard's frame of mind by Priority Earth is pretty shaken. Because:
1 - Still dealing with loss of Ashely/Kaiden from ME1
2 - Dealing with loss of squad members (if any) from ME2 and dealing with choices made in ME2
3 - Dealing with Batarian loss due to actions in Arrival (no real win scenario)
4 - Dealing with her superiors and everyone else outright saying
Everything and Everyone is depending on YOU Shepard. Only YOU can save
us! Only You! Just You. We are waiting for you to succeed so we can win
the war effort.
5 - Dealing with each race's stupid "needs": Turian wants Patriarch. Krogan wants cure. Salarian being themselves. Asari being themselves. Every Tom/Dick/Harry needing something to help them on the Citadel before they'll help Shepard. N7 missions. TIM. Lawson and Sanctuary. etc... etc...
6 - Shepard dealing with crew issues. <I need you Shepard. Come talk with me, beat me up, or
bolster my spirits. Make me feel better Shepard. Mentor me! Give me hope.>
7 - The War itself
8 - No sleep! Why? Nightmare about chasing the dead kid and hearing voices whispering in her dreams <IT> I deal with sleep deprivation pretty often and the depression that results can be devastating. On the job, in private life, daily living, just getting up in the morning is difficult to deal with. Can't imagine being a military leader during the biggest war of my time and needing my "game" on 100% of the time.
9 - No adult way to relieve stress until the night before Earth battle <If you know what I mean>. Dancing and
drinking in the bar doesn't cut it.
10 - Loss of Thessia was a huge blow. We see and feel Shepard's guilt and disappointment in failure. The scene with Shepard leaning on the wall ignoring the voice command klaxon breaks my heart.
11 - Shepard feels responsible for everyone in the galaxy. And if IT is true, the catalyst is sublimely adding to that burden by making Shep feel the weight of the galaxy bearing down. Sucking away confidence and hope. <catalyst/reapers have multiple cycles of experience in pushing hopelessness on those they are harvesting. Shepard resists for years, but is only human>
12 - Doubting her/his humanity after reading about Project Lazarus
13 - Being arrested and the hearing. Then being under House Arrest (6 months of doing what?) and loosing the Normandy.
14 - Not one of ME1, or ME2 squadmates, friends, crew, or supporters visiting during the house arrest period. That had to rub.
All this adds up to why Shep isn't being Shepard at the end game, IMO. I hope its all a bad dream, but now that I've cooled down, read through the forums, watched the youtube vids, vented and vented again, fumed, felt sick to the stomach, and played the game again... I can understand Shepard's frame of mind from writer's perspective. At least I can understand the "why" behind Shepards uncharacteristic defeatism. Especially under the IT criterion.
Modifié par Massa FX, 13 juin 2012 - 06:09 .