thrashmental wrote...
So last year around christmas I did not take any days off from work even though I needed the rest.
I always planned to take a whole week off with ME3 to rest my body and decompress. Enjoy my favorite universe that I've been a part of from day one.
I'm playing the game, I'm loving it.
I've never actually laughed out loud or really cried because of things happening in Mass Effect.
Don't get me wrong, I've felt sad and happy all through the two first games.
But somehow this third installment really stepped up the story, characters and writing to move me in a way I never thought possible.
And Kai Lang, when he got away with the prothean data I so desperatly needed.
I've never been so mad, so hungry for revenge even though I played paragorn I wanted to make him pay dearly.
Garrus actually made me feel better, like a real friend.
And Ashley, so beautiful and strong.
I could go on and on... but let's move on.
I invest in my story, my shepard. The first of many I believe, 'cause I have so many saved from previous games. I want to play out every story, every scenario and every ending. Good or bad...
However (!) the ending came, and man I was completely destroyed. I've never felt so helpless.
No matter what I do, I doom the galaxy, I doom the mass effect universe. Shepard dies, I die...
I have no will, no urge, no point, no reason to play this game or ME 1 & 2. It all ends the same way.
In a bleak, forced, futile, crushing way.
I'm very unhappy, this week was supposed to be a happy week. Now I'm actually depressed, I feel apathy. Nothing really matters right now in my life. Work is just work, friends and family don't understand this pain. They never invested this much time and money into something like Mass Effect.
All I have deep deep down in the void that is my heart. Is one star, a shimmering star of hope that they will fix the ending. Please...
I am a tired, beaten up young man of 27 years old. Holding the line, leaning on all of you for support. You give me strength, I will never give up because of you my fellow gamers, and dare I say... friends.
It helps to know I wasn't the only one that got depressed after this betrayal of an ending. And why not? The ending says to player, "You don't matter," and "Everything you've done and will do is invalid and meaningless."
Hell of a way to reward brand loyalty.

Maybe we should get some grief counselors to help us through this.
Modifié par RagingCeltik, 18 mars 2012 - 09:59 .