Iam only going to say this one more time about what indoctrination is, and this time actually read it.
I have been reading it. What is factual about indoctrination does not support your claim that it can be resisted. Again, people are not "tricked" into becoming Indoctrinated, it is forced on them through sustained contact with the energy fields the Reapers generate. It degrades your mind.
BTW...you mean to tell me that you never intended to kill the reapers?
My Shepard's primary goal was to defend the races of the galaxy. If it could be done, say, by simply keeping the Reapers confined to dark space with no chance of escape, he'd have done it. In this case, killing them would also kill one of the races my Shepard sets out to protect, so instead he takes the hit himself and forcibly steers the Reapers away from his friends. It's that simple.
Did you ever think of joining Saren or TIM? That is what your doing if you pick control or synthesis.
And for the millionth time, this is completely and totally false. Saren wanted to submit to the Reapers and convert organics into cybernetic slaves to maintain them. Synthesis strengthens organic DNA, with no implications that any amount of freedom, control, or individuality is sacrificed. They are two completely different things, end of story. The Illusive Man was right about control being possible, wrong in the way he tried to do it. His idea of control and the reality of it are two completely different things.
the idea is that you changed your plans from a kid that is the one controling the reapers in the first place. The reapers are useing your weakness against you by making you pick against killing them and saving everyone or...kill them and kill your friends as well.........Survival no matter what, that is the reapers(or kid) tugging at your limbic system.
Except literally none of this is true, and is all contradicted by what is observable at the end of the game. For one thing, the Catalyst isn't giving you the options, your device that your side built is doing that. My Shepard specifically didn't care what the Catalyst had to say, he simply chose control as a way to stop the Reapers without sacrificing any of his allies. That is a correct choice, along with the other two. Then we see everything play out like the Catalyst said it would, relays break, Reapers die or leave, then credits. Then even IF you picked destroy and had your Shepard "wake up" it plays the exact same stargazer grandpa scene followed by the message in which the game literally spells out for you that you ended the Reaper threat. That is solid, irrefutable evidence that the ending is not an illusion, and that your opinion on the validity of control and synthesis is invalid.