ejoslin wrote...
Hmmm, different subject. When Zevran makes you choose between him and someone else. I STILL don't think he does so out of jealousy. But he does acknowledge that there is something more there than just casual sex. And I think he acknowledges that it's quite strong. He says, at least about Alistair, stringing him along would only hurt him (Alistair) deeply. I think he has no expectation at all that the Warden would stay with him (Zevran), but saying things like, "Let whatever it is between you and I either be honest or not at all," does imply deep feelings, I think.
So when did it stop becoming a pleasant diversion for him, I wonder. As soon as they started going to the tent? As soon as he started to care? My guess, as soon as he hit Adore and was willing to talk about Rinna (which he won't tell someone at friendzone until MUCH later) and also when he forces the warden to choose.
*sigh* I actually have grown to like the poetry reading. I hate the poem, funny as it is, but I really like that he wanted to cheer the warden up. Who else does that for her (or him)?
I agree. My male DE was in a relationship with Morrigan, and though he started with Morrigan WELL before Zev joined us, the relationships got serious at about the same time. I would have been better off if I'd gone to Morrigan myself and told her I had to end it... much less disapproval... but then there would have been no acknowledgement of this on Zevran's part. It was so worth it to be able to tell him when put on the spot that I choose him, and to hear him say he's glad... even though this way Morrigan rained holy hell of disapproval on my ass. She was still NICE about it when I spoke to her, which Zevran insisted was the right thing to do. I knew it was, but hearing him urge me to do it, meant a lot. Zevran, for all his teasing, really cares more about all our companions than most of them seem to care for eachother. When I realized that, I was rather touched. I knew I'd made, without a doubt, the right decision. When you talk to Morrigan first and let her force you... she just gets very defensive and says she won't share... 'tis not proper. Of course she could care less about Zevran's feelings. e__e And when the hell did she become concerned with propriety? Aaargh. XD Zevran is awkward and fearful of his emotions, but at least he's willing to show them in indirect ways. Morrigan will flat out deceive you and... bully you... XD
I honestly think the sex meant a little more and a little more each time. Think about it... he actually cares about our companions more than many of them do... yet it wasn't long ago that the Crows were the only family he knew. I doubt this is just some sudden change. I suspect even though they try to deny their feelings, some of the Crows must care about eachother... the way he speaks of the crows longingly at times despite the horrors the organization put him through... the passionate gushing about the nostalgia he felt from the smell of the Antivian Leather... the fact that Talisen, though even colder than Zevran ever was, still cared enough to be willing to lie to their superiors to bring Zevran home... I really think, there must have been these emotions under the surface all along, though he had to be stoic and lie about it. I suspect many of the assassins are like that. They may be killers, but they are still people. I really do think, that my theory fits; that when he can't express his feelings because they're dangerous, he uses sex to disguise them. I really think the sex always meant a little bit, and that little bit adds up to a lot, especially as he finds he can open up to you, and that he doesn't have to hide from you. Eventually everything no longer has to be expressed through sex, once the Crows are out of his life, at least as long as he has you. Though I doubt the sex will ever stop being a part of him, same as the pleasure of killing. But he has options now.
Ah, the poem... XD I'd heard that he'll read you a poem, and I was all 'oh, how romantic'! You can imagine my shock when I finally got the poem scene!!! XD I should have saw it coming!!! But his sentiments once we got past the 'So you had sex with her though you were going to kill her anyways? D:' dialogue, his sentiments were so sweet.
You know, I like how, even as he softens and shows more and more of his kind heart, they still always remind you that he's not changed... he's still a killer... he's not going to regret it for you. I love that you aren't allowed delusion, you have to choose to accept his past or not accept him at all. It's a heady combination. One that sometimes shakes my sweet Dalish Dristen to the core... largely because he's felt pleasure in killing, too, and he feels like some thing’s coiling inside his stomach when he thinks of someone wielding that delicious, intoxicating power without remorse. It's an intense relationship. But he does see the strange sense of 'mercy' in Zevran's pleasuring of his victims... he wants to believe it's true with all his heart, that a part of Zevran held compassion for his victims, even if not remorse. It's this little factor of unknown that still sets him on edge. But he loves his killer all the same. Being a child of nature, he figures you can't blame a cat for being a cat, so you can't blame Zevran, ether. I swear, I need to fanfic this. But I need to finish more of the game, first.
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Ah, if only she could learn to not hold grudges... And with the boots, she gave whateverthe "it's not that special" line is, so the approval was sliced down for that. 
(Someone needs a happy Zevran romance story since it obviously ain't me. >.<)
