Sabriana wrote...
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From that first play-through on, Zevran was it. He always will be.
And that, in a nutshell, is the appeal of Zevran. His loyalty, his depths, his never faltering love/friendship.
hideous wall of text incoming but this was so interesting for me...forgive my lack of brevity

Agree with everything you said 100%. My first character started off with Alistair -- and then for the exact same reasons fell for Zev.
In one way, they are alike: the use humour to deflect. the main difference is Zev uses his humour to deflect from exposing his pain to everyone, as a protection almost - where Alistair seems to always use his to HIDE the truth, or deflect from a lie. i didnt see that until half way through.... then, i had already been forced by Zevran to choose between them, and the silly human behind the character had decided she wanted to be Queen the first playthrough, and as there were only inklings at this point of Alistairs true nature i chose Alistair *smacks self*. this was less than 25% into the game probably... My character was heart-broken once I was even 50% through... knowing at this point who was the *better* man for her... but there are no second chances in Ferelden it seems.
*sheds a tear*
My husband asks me what it is about Zev -- Why, says he, when the man is clearly at best a flirt and at worst complete sleaze can you like Zevran best (and not without a pinch of jealousy might i add lol) ? The answer to me is simple. When it came down to *knowing* both of them... Alistairs relationship with you was based on holding on to the last thing he had, his pain about what he had lost and he dwelled on those things. Revenge, too is living in the past, albeit angrily. Zevran, he like myself has had a bad childhood, a life kept distant from normalcy, every reason to be bitter, especially with his forced life role. And yet he does not dwell in the past, though he may visit it in conversation. He lives each day with passion and joy. Yes, his humour deflects from his inner workings and feelings, truly that is all he really truly owns I think -- when your life has been deemed forfeit, when you are owned and contracted out, why, why would you be so eager to sell off your feelings, the last thing you truly own?
But even when sad, his life is not all about how he has been wronged, or even what HE has done wrong. He seems to wake up each day, and make the best of it. You could say "how immoral or wrong to be proud of his assassin tasks!" -- but that is also proof to the difference between him and Alistair -- he even looks to his work as a way to make the best of things -- he refuses to see that anyone is more or less worthy of life than anyone else and looks to at least be skilled, do his best at it. He is intelligent, he sees in his work I think a power struggle between players in a losing political game. A power struggle with those that lead more as tacticians of opportunity, cunning or betrayal than true idealistic leaders of men.
In the end I was appalled at how easily it was for Alistair to make a decision (!) solely on revenge ... was it in the best interest of the world in wake of a blight? That was a difficult call. In fact, had Alistairs easy hatred not been so pronounced I might have ended up with a difference of mind... his hatred made me question whether i shouldnt have been MORE lenient instead of siding with him further.....
I found myself going to my assassin friend looking for advice at times when none was written for me lol. That to me was very telling about the Zevran character because in RL i tend to end up leading a lot. Something about Zevran made me come to think of him as a good guide, judge of character, advisor -- he was my second in command if such a thing is possible.
I guess the easiest way to describe it, is that my ultimate opinion of the two of them, Alistair and Zevran, came not from where they CAME or what they were or did...but instead who their pasts made them
*aspire* to be, or what it had made them become. I do hope that made sense
I laugh to myself as a grown woman with a Zevran infatuation - but I think that is testament to the absolute sheer brilliance of the character.
*giggles at how that sounds when re-reading what i wrote* Whether the characters have been ingeniously fleshed out for us, or whether they have left the characters empty in precisely the spots that our unconscious fills them to fulfill our own needs...aye, now that be the rub...
Modifié par shantisands, 10 janvier 2010 - 12:38 .