Seival,
You've been a real puzzle to me for a while now; at times you say very foolish and frankly extremely alarming things – but I think I've finally figured you out.
You're not a troll. You're not an idiot.
You have a broken heart.
You've spoken in the past about how much the original ending of
Mass Effect 3 upset you (as it did many fans; myself very much included). It was a shock, and a betrayal of all that the character you were playing stood for - and then your Shepard died for nothing.
And I think something in you felt that pain so acutely that when you realised the ending we were presented with in the
EC was never going to change, you devoted yourself wholly to a nonsensical task of trying to
convince yourself – against all logic, against all morality and reason – that,
no, you
did enjoy it.
Even if it made you feel dead inside – it made you
think.
I mean, even the way that you talk about your experience, months later: it often sounds like someone brainwashed, or still in shock. Your comments all seem to be variations on a theme:
I was foolish and acted like a child, until others explained how wrong I was, how like a baby I had behaved...It's like a narrative Stockholm syndrome. 'I was being stupid. Bioware were just trying to help me all along...' But believe me: you didn't
deserve to be punished. They
weren't doing it for your own good.
And just to be clear (for anyone else reading this): I am not saying that anyone who likes the ending is reading it nonsensically. I am just saying that the reasons that
you posit, Seival (synthesis camps; Joker's relay jump test flight; thrashing about trying to hate on other franchises like
Star Wars; desperately attempting to draw equivalencies between
ME and other works of science fiction that you like; writing crazy love-notes to racist, eugenic ideologies) are often so fantastical and unsubstantial that it seems like you are
really reaching, grasping to try and delude yourself – against every fundamental belief in your heart – that you
like something that hurt you profoundly.
No fiction should ever require you to embrace the mindset of genetic hate crimes in order for your to 'enjoy' it; and in time I truly hope that you will shake out of whatever weird malaise this is that has you in its grasp so that you can rethink the horror of what you have been saying over these past few pages.
You embarrass yourself; you make others who support the Synthesis ending for less disturbing reasons look bad; and I will say this again:
Harry Harrison would be ashamed of you for everything that you are saying right now. If you have to drag his, and other greater sci-fi stories, down to becoming messages of hatred and fearful intolerance just to make your feelings toward
Mass Effect less confusing, then you are in a profoundly sad state of mind indeed.
Modifié par drayfish, 07 novembre 2012 - 10:36 .