Chapter 1
2 Days After the Crucible Event “Go back to Rannoch, Tali. Build a home” said Shepard. “But I have a home,” Tali replied, her tears unseen behind her visor but her anguish plain as day in her voice.
She struggled against Garrus’ hold on her, trying desperately not to leave the
fight, not to leave him
. “Get her out of here!” Shepard yelled over the radio, and the Normandy’s engines kicked back into
gear, quickly moving to withdraw before Harbinger could line up another shot.
Just before the landing ramp closed all the way, the last Tali saw of Shepard
was him staring up at her for just an instant more before turning back to the
run on the transporter beam. Then the ramp closed and Shepard was gone. Tali
began to sink to the ground, her injuries starting to catch up with her, while
Garrus yelled for a medic and then turned to make sure Tali stayed alive until
help arrived. As she began to black out, the last thing Tali heard was Garrus
calling her name. “Tali!”
Hearing her name again jerked Tali out of her reverie. As she started taking notice of what
was around her again, she realized that she had been sitting in front of a
disassembled electrical panel in the Normandy’s engineering bay, though she
couldn’t quite remember what exactly she had been doing. She also noticed a
hand on her shoulder, and turned to see Garrus standing behind her. Turian
anatomy didn’t allow for quite the range of expression that human and asari
anatomy granted, but Tali had known Garrus long enough to read him, and from
his bearing she could tell that he had been trying to get a response from her
for some time.
“Hey Garrus, did you need something?” she asked, trying to act as if nothing had happened,
as if that would make a difference.
“EDI mentioned that you’d been sitting here for the last half hour and thought I
should check up on you,” Garrus replied with a tone of voice that made it
perfectly clear that he wasn’t fooled but he didn’t want to push. “We were
worried that you might still be having some issues from all the suit ruptures
back on Earth.”
Garrus knew full well what was giving Tali such a hard time, but he was clearly
waiting for Tali to bring it up when she was ready to talk about it. Even so,
he was right to be concerned for Tali’s health. Even with her upgrades to her
suits’ field medical capabilities, the action Tali had seen on Earth had damaged
portions of her suit so badly that they’d needed to be replaced, and her store
of antibiotics had been completely drained. Dr. Chakwas had said that it was
nothing short of a miracle that Tali’s exposure hadn’t developed into something
more serious, but was still having her check in every 4 hours for blood testing
and supplemental antibiotics.
“The patches to my suit are holding up fine, and the fever I had earlier is gone.
I’m fine, Garrus, just spaced out a little bit,” said Tali. She turned back to
the panel, remembering that she was swapping out some burned out components for
fresh ones from storage. The Normandy’s part in the battle combined with their
escape from the Crucible blast had played hell with the ships’ systems. As far
as anyone could tell, all the major components, including EDI’s core, had been
sufficiently insulated against the energy of the blast to prevent damage. The
damage had still forced them to land on a small verdant planet in the Alpha
Centauri system, since the number of damaged subsystems were wreaking havoc on
the Normandy’s navigation and control mechanisms. Tali got back to work on the
swap, hoping Garrus was going to let her momentary lapse drop.
He wasn’t. In her peripheral vision, Tali saw Garrus sit down next to her, apparently to
see what she was doing, but she could clearly see him looking at her out of the
corner of his eye every so often. Wearing an opaque visor had its advantages.
“Did you need something else, Garrus?” Tali asked, still elbow deep in the
damaged panel.
“I was just thinking that maybe you shouldn’t be working right now,” Garrus replied,
“Donnelly, Adams, and Daniels are more than capable of fixing everything up if
you’re still not feeling a hundred percent.”
“Garrus, I’m fine,” said Tali, her tone getting somewhat sharp. She knew Garrus was
fully aware what was really going on in her head, knew he was just trying to
help her deal with what happened on Earth, but she really didn’t want to deal
with it just then. All she wanted to do now was lose herself in her work for a
while. It was either than or go to the Normandy lounge and drink herself stupid.
But even that wouldn’t be a real escape, just another reminder.
“
Turian brandy, triple filtered, and introduced using an emergency induction port,” Tali slurred.“That’s a straw, Tali,” replied Shepard, just the hint of laughter coloring his
response. Tali glanced at him, and even though he couldn’t see her face he knew
she was probably play glaring at him.“Emergency induction port,” Tali repeated, just a shade more forcefully this time. She gave him another glance, enjoying even through the haze of the alcohol the smile that her antics were bringing to
his face…Tali snapped out of the flashback again, and realized that she had stopped moving again. She glanced to the side
and noticed that Garrus was now giving her a look bordering on alarm.
“Keelah,” she chided herself, “
keep it together, Tali. What would Shepard say if he saw you struggling this much?” She broke off that thought almost
immediately, before she triggered a breakdown. The last thing she needed was to
get emotional where everyone could see her.
“Tali,” said Garrus, shocking Tali back to where she was, “come on, one of the others will come by and finish this
up for you. You shouldn’t be working with live circuits when you’re like this.”
Tali opened her mouth to snap at him that she didn’t need to be babied, but then she closed it as she realized
he had a point. If she zoned out again at the wrong time she was likely to electrocute herself. “Fine,” she said, rising, “I’ll just go check the core readings, make sure there wasn’t any damage there.”
Garrus sighed heavily. “Tali, we’ve all checked over the core readings at least a dozen times. Even Vega came up to look at it. The core is fine; it’s you we’re all worried about.” Tali just stood with her back to Garrus, both wanting to talk and wanting to continue avoiding the conversation as long as possible. She felt Garrus’ hand on her shoulder again. “Look,” he said, “I need to get back to fire control and check the cannons again; all that firing really did a number on them. I’ll be there if you want to talk.” His hand came off Tali’s shoulder, and she heard him
leave the room.
She stood there for a while longer, wondering what she should do. She still didn’t want to talk about it. In a way,
it felt too much like giving up on Shepard. On the other hand, Garrus was as close to her as anyone else still aboard, and he was as close to Shepard as she had been. If anyone would understand what she was going through, it would be him.
With that, she turned on heel and started to make her way to the fire control room. It was time to let it all out, and figure out just what could be done to make it right.
Modifié par TheSorrow1175, 19 janvier 2013 - 05:53 .