Part 26
Zevran knew Moira was watching the children and his heart ached for her. He knew how much she wanted a child. But the children didn’t distract him from the glares of the adults. They had dropped everything to watch the travelers approach, but made no other welcoming gesture. It was a good sign, though, that they didn’t order their children away from them. He caught Cullen’s eye and the recruit nodded, he’d caught the semi-unfriendly stares, also. Silently the two men walked the horses to what looked like the town’s only inn, The Shepherd. Zevran dismounted then helped Moira down, too. He knew he would eventually have to teach her to ride, but he was enjoying having her sit in front of him and hold on to her all day. She stood looking up at the inn’s sign, her small hands on her hips. “What are the chances of us getting a bath, here, I wonder?” She looked at the two of them pointedly, “You could both use a bath.” The Mabari barked in laughter and she looked down at him, “You, too.” He ducked his stub of a tail and whined.
Zevran weighed several lewd responses, but contented himself with merely shaking his head at her, well aware of the larger man beside him. The assassin was getting tired of guarding his tongue, but he had to admit if the ex-Templar hadn’t been there, he wasn’t sure he wouldn’t have betrayed Alistair with Moira already. His imagination very helpfully supplied him with a near-physical memory of their one night together again. He busied himself untying their packs and armor from the horses as Moira went in to inquire about rooms.
By the time she came back out, he and Cullen had everything ready to bring inside. “They have two rooms. I’ve asked for baths, they’ll be ready in an hour. The town’s name is Ember.” Her tone was clipped and angry.
“What’s wrong, my dear Moira?” Zevran aked.
She glared, “I had to say my master needed the rooms for the night for himself, his servant, his bodyguard and his dog, and room in the stable for his four horses.” She said the word master as if it were the foulest thing she’d ever spoken. Moira may never have been a slave, but mages knew no more freedom than a slave did. And to have to pretend to be Cullen’s possession, an ex-Templar at that and one who used to be her watcher, was galling. But it was the only thing that others would believe. It probably didn’t help that the wool tunic and trousers she wore dwarfed her and made her look like a little girl, either. The tailor in Antiva City apparently made sure the pants would stay on and the hem of the trousers not drag on the ground, but either he didn’t have time, or Moira hadn’t made time, to make the rest of the clothes fit better. The ill-fitting clothes didn’t detract from her beauty, in Zevran’s opinion, they added to her air of fragility.
“Then we’re going to have to discuss the sleeping arrangements,” Zevran said, picking up his pack. “Let us go to our rooms, where it’s private.” Reluctantly, Moira nodded and picked up her own belongings and Cullen’s pack, too. Both elves stood looking at the Templar until he got the hint and preceded them into the inn with Perrin at his heels as Moira silently directed the dog.
The innkeeper was an emaciated and wizened man. Cullen adopted an air of arrogance and looked down his nose at the old man, nodding at the innkeeper’s reassurances that everything would be to the obviously important and wealthy man’s liking. Zevran took note of how many tables in the common room (five) and how many barmaids there were cleaning them (two) and how many exits he could see (three not counting the stairs). The old man led them upstairs and unlocked both rooms for them, handing the key to Cullen. His arrogant act still in place, he just walked into the room, ignoring the subtly outstretched hand of the innkeeper. Zevran, bringing up the rear, dropped five coppers in it and closed the door on the innkeeper. He listened for the old man to go back downstairs, holding his hand up to his friends for silence. When he heard no more noises to indicate the old man was listening in, he peeked out to be certain then closed the door. He turned to find Moira and Cullen glaring at each other.
“You son of a ****, you’re enjoying this!” She accused, her voice low.
“Now, wait a minute! I’ve said no such thing!” He hissed back.
Zevran leaned against the door, his arms crossed. It was probably best to let the two of them settle this right now, rather than later.
She stepped closer to Cullen, jabbing her finger at his armored chest, “You take ONE inch of advantage, Cullen and you’ll find out how I killed the archdemon first hand.”
Cullen grabbed her hand, “Whatever you think of me, Moira, know this. You as my servant is not something I have ever wanted.” Strangely, he sounded sincere. Zevran looked at the younger man closely. He was upset, but why?
She yanked her hand out of his grasp, “Oh, really?”
Cullen tugged on the neckline of his armor; they both seemed to have forgotten Zevran was there. “I admit I blamed you for everything I was feeling. And I still do, a little. You are still a walking temptation for me.” Zevran had to admit the truth to those words, she was every bit one. But the difference between the assassin and the Templar was that the assassin had never seen it as her fault. She opened her mouth to say something, but Cullen held up his hand for her to let him speak. “I know it’s not your fault that the Maker made me weak enough to fall in love with someone I was supposed to protect and someone I wasn’t supposed to consider a person. But you are and I have. Isabella pointed this out to me quite often in the time I was with her.” He stepped closer to her until she was forced to look up at him. Silently, Zevran set down his pack, ready to attack the man. “I have never wanted to own you. Keep you safe locked up in the Tower, yes, so I could watch you. But the Cleansing pointed out to me that not even the Tower is safe.”
She took a step back and glanced at Zevran. The assassin saw the calculation in her eyes, the threat assessment she always made and was relieved she hadn’t reverted to that ingrained submissive mage behavior when confronted by an angry Templar.
She held up one slender finger, “First: Back up.” He complied as a second finger stood alongside its fellow, “Second: You can’t possibly love me, you don’t know me.” A third finger, “Third: I’m glad you had that time with Isabella, and I’m glad that against your training, you consider me a person.” Her tone was wry and she held up her fourth finger, “Fourth: I will never be anyone’s prisoner again.” Her thumb stood out, “Fifth: Love is never a weakness.” She spun on her heel and barged past Zevran to leave the room, the Mabari following her at the snap of her fingers. Zevran heard her voice asking where she could bathe the dog on her “master’s” orders. He glanced back at Cullen and found himself disturbed by the look on the man’s face.
He glared at Cullen, “Just stay away from her.” He turned to follow after Moira, leaving Cullen to sit on the single bed in the room with his head on his hands.
It didn’t take long to find Moira, the innkeeper directed him to the rear of the building where permanent baths had been built. Zevran was moderately impressed, unless, of course they were for the use of the whole town, in which case he hoped they were cleaned often. He paused in the doorway and watched his friend. Because, no matter how else he felt about her, her friendship was far more precious.
She had put the dog in the bathtub and was lathering the soap into its fur. She had been careful to arrange herself so she could see the door, but was concentrating on the dog at the moment. He cleared his throat, “I do not think I have ever been so jealous of that dog in my life.”
Moira looked up and laughed, “You’re jealous you’re not going to smell like all of Ferelden the rest of the day?”
He put his hand to his heart, “You wound me, cara mia.”