Part 55
Zevran woke slowly. He’d collapsed after Moira had healed him, and truthfully, so had she. The assassin had been only vaguely aware of them both removing his armor and Moira curling up next to him to sleep off her own exhaustion. Alistair had left them alone. A passing regret that he was too tired to take advantage of the situation roused him only enough to turn over and put his arm over her before he fell into a deep sleep. Now, he woke in pieces instead of his usual immediate alertness. Drowsily, he opened his eyes to find himself alone in bed buried in the thin blankets. The room was dimmed in the blue light of dusk and a single candle illuminated his elf mage sitting on the only chair in the room, sewing a hole in a sock, which from the size, could only be Alistair’s. Perrin was laying on his side at her feet snoring loudly, his large paws twitching in a dream.
He propped himself on his elbow, “Please don’t tell me that’s Alistair’s?”
He loved her laugh, it was raspy, but still light, “All right, I won’t.”
Zevran raised an eyebrow at her, “Why are you darning his sock?”
She put her project down and crossed the room to him. Zevran slid over to accommodate her, holding his arms out for her to lean against him. She sat, one of his arms resting in her lap the other around her waist, and looked down at him, “While watching you sleep is a great pleasure in and of itself, Zev, it is a tad boring.”
Mockingly, he put a hand to his chest, “You wound me,
mi amora.” She laughed at him again. “Darning a sock is the only thing you could think to do?”
“I made healing potions until my fingers turned numb; I made healing poultices until we have enough to wrap both Alistair and Cullen from head to foot. The socks were the last thing I could think of.”
Zevran blinked at her, astonished, “For how long was I sleeping?”
“All day. Alistair told me what happened when I woke up four hours ago. The Crows found us, have they?”
He nodded and flopped back onto the bed and covered his eyes with his arm, “I’m afraid Antiva is closed to us.”
Moira stood abruptly and began to pace, her movement startling the mabari who lunged to his feet, “Perrin, go get everyone,” she told the large dog after a minute and then let him out of the room. Zevran watched her think, her slender fingers pushing a curl behind her pointed ear as usual. She chewed thoughtfully on her thumbnail, but not hard enough to tear it. “You should probably get dressed, Zev,” she told him absently.
He stared at her for a moment before realizing she was too distracted and wouldn’t welcome any interruptions of her thoughts. He climbed out of bed and found his clothes folded neatly on the floor next to it.
You can take the boy out of the Chantry, he thought to himself, warmth suffusing him for a moment as he quickly got dressed. He watched her pace and think, her bright blue eyes focused on their many possible paths from this point forward. Why had she told him she loved him? How could she love him? The urge to flee welled up and then his stomach dropped down into his boots as the thought surfaced that he should run away. Run away before he got her killed, run away before he hurt her, or worse, she hurt him. Rinna. He stamped his feet into his boots at that thought. Self-pity would get him nowhere. He also wasn’t about to abandon her when she was in trouble. Even if his instincts were crying out to run.
As he was shrugging into his tunic, Alistair entered, closing the door behind him. The tall, fair haired man paused and looked at Moira who was still pacing and who’d only spared a short half-wave for him. The king looked at the assassin with tilt of his head and a quirk of his eyebrow in their lover’s direction. Zevran shrugged as he tucked in his shirt tail and reached for his belt. Alistair sat down at the foot of the bed and watched the mage. “The others will be up here, shortly. I asked them to give me a minute.”
Moira stopped to look at him, “Why?”
“Because I’ve had most of the day to think about this, and I’ve probably come to the same conclusion you have.” Zevran winced as they both locked eyes and told each other, “We can’t go through Antiva.”
Even if he’d said the same thing earlier, it still rankled that they were so much in tune to each other they could do that. “Then we go to a different port city, my Wardens,” he offered.
“Do you have a suggestion?” Moira asked as Wynne and Jowan entered.
“Cumberland would be easiest. Though Vyrantium and Neromenian might be busier ports, Cumberland has the benefit of not being in Tevinter,” Zevran told them.
Alistair grunted and stood up. He turned to look from Zevran to Moira, “Much as I enjoy you two pretending to serve me,” he grinned and ducked as Moira threw his half-darned sock at him. “I don’t think we can keep up the illusion on a Tevinter ship. Moira will get angry eventually and turn me into a toad.”
They all laughed, even Zevran, despite not feeling like laughing much at all. Cullen and Shale followed by Perrin finally joined them. “What’s going on?” the dwarf asked.
Moira met Zevran’s eyes, “I believe we’re going to Cumberland and hope we can get a ship to Denerim from there. I have no desire to walk, or ride, through Orlais.”
“Good,” Cullen said, closing the door. “When do we leave?”
“Tonight. We don’t give the Crows a chance to hit us here,” Alistair replied. “Get packed, we leave in an hour.”
It took less than an hour. Zevran sat on his horse as Moira mounted hers, her mage robes adjusted to cover her legs as much as possible. He knew she was internally cursing her lack of armor and having to wear the only mage robes she had which had been the ones she’d given to Morrigan a long time ago. They’d also been the ones her duplicates had been running around the pseudo-Fade in. Zevran had to admit he liked them better on Moira than on Morrigan. He allowed himself the brief pleasure of fantasizing about unfastening all the straps holding the robes together then reached into his pack and handed her his cloak, “You look cold.” It was anything but cold, it was the beginning of summer.
She laughed and wrapped the cloak around herself. “Thank you. I was beginning to feel like one of the cheaper ladies in The Pearl.”
“Never cheap,
mi amora,” Zevran told her, smiling. “We should have kept your dresses.”
She stopped laughing and glared at him, “No,
you should have kept my pants.”
It was his turn to laugh as she continued to glare at him. She kicked her horse to the front of the group, tossing an irritated glare back at him. He grinned at her departing back. Alistair walked his horse up beside him as the small group began to follow Moira through the darkness of the night out of Perivantium. “What’s so funny?”
“Did she tell you about her dresses?”
“Just that you bought her some.”
Zevran’s grin widened. “In order to get her to wear them, I stole all her other clothes.”
Alistair twisted to stare at the elf, “And you’re still alive?”
“By the skin of my teeth. But in my defense, they were very pretty dresses.”
Alistair laughed, “How long did they last?”
“We made it to Antiva City before she left them with Isabella and bought new clothes.”
Alistair smiled at that and then a thought seemed to occur to him and he frowned, “She must be expecting trouble or she’d be wearing them, instead of that robe she hates.” Alistair cleared his throat and looked at Zevran, pointedly. “You never told her how you feel in return. Is she wasting her time?”
Zevran felt an unaccustomed heat fill his face at the unusually blunt question from Alistair. Hazel eyes locked on the elf mage’s back that was barely visible in the faint starlight, Zevran sighed. “I have no explanation that will not sound like a weak excuse, my friend.”
Pleading grey eyes staring up, cold steel against her graceful throat, “I love you!” Alistair scowled, “I don’t particularly relish the idea of her being in love with you, too. But I am still not jealous of her with you, knowing that I’ll have to leave her.” The bigger man cleared his throat. “That doesn’t mean that I will stand by and let you hurt her.”
“There was a woman once. Before I introduced myself to you two.”
“I don’t need to hear about your sordid past, Zevran. The only conquest of yours I’m worried about is Moira.”
Alistair is really very good at glowering, Zevran thought.
“I don’t share this story lightly, Alistair. I’ve only ever told Moira about it. But if you do not wish to hear my tragic tale, then I will not bore you.” Zevran waved his hand flippantly, mostly to remind himself it shouldn’t matter what the human man thought of him, and to ignore the fact that his own feelings where Alistair were concerned were a murky ocean he did not wish to swim in.
The Grey Warden flushed and gestured for him to continue, “I’m sorry, Zev. Please tell me your tragic tale.”
“How gracious,” the elf told him mockingly. “I killed her.” It was short and blunt and meant to be as shocking as it sounded. Zevran was slowly coming to the conclusion that the two of them should have kept him at arm’s length.
How long before I betray them, too?Alistair stared at him, “And?”
The elf huffed out a breath, “Fine. I was led to believe she’d betrayed us. I chose her for our team for an assassination, and Taliesin claimed to have found out she was a traitor. I stood watching, laughing, as he slit her throat and she begged for her life, claiming she loved me.” Zevran was amazed the pain at reciting this sequence of events hadn’t resurfaced as strongly as it usually did. The first time he’d told Moira about it, he’d had to leave the camp to calm down until his turn at watch came up.
Both men were silent for a moment, their horses slowing so that they fell further behind the group. “Did you love her?” Alistair asked.
Zevran’s laugh sounded more like a choked off sob to his ears, “I do not know. I was falling for her, of that much I’m certain. I was too quick to judge her traitor. I took Taliesin’s word for it, not because I trusted him over her, but because how she made me feel terrified me.”
“You’re not reassuring me, Zevran.”
“I’m not reassuring
myself. I am a coward, Alistair. But what’s worse is that what I feel for our Moira is. .., “ he trailed off, at a loss for words.
The king cleared his throat, “You’re in love with her and its scaring the hell out of you.”
In answer, Zevran merely said, “Rinna never betrayed our mission. It was all a trick by a Crow master to humiliate me and cause my own death. I suspected Taliesin was in on the plot to get me away from Rinna, but now that you and Moira took care of him so effectively, I will never know.”
Alistair stared ahead, “So, one lover betrayed you because you left him for another?”
Zevran blinked, feeling a stabbing pain in his chest at Alistair’s perception, “That’s one way to look at it.”
“Do you honestly think either of us would do that?”
“No, Alistair. I am afraid I would to both or either of you.”
Modifié par Sialater, 03 août 2010 - 03:49 .