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And the honeymoon is over....

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The Shadows
 
Aedan came awake to a darkened room and blinked his eyes a moment. He wasn’t sure what had caused him to wake, but didn’t think it had been a dream. Thank the Maker he had not dreamed of Morrigan since his confession. With a twist of guilt he wondered if a confession four months ago may have prevented many sleepless nights. A sound interrupted his thoughts and he realized that was what must have awoken him. Turning his head toward the sound he just caught himself before he gasped. The window was ajar and shadowed figure had just slipped through, landing almost soundlessly on the stone floor. Aedan tensed his muscles beneath the covers, ready to spring, hoping the intruder still believed their cover of stealth had not been broken. He ached to turn his head and check on Leliana, but he did not dare.

As he squinted in vain at the window the figure slipped into shadow once more and Aedan inwardly cursed the moonless night. He gave into temptation and rolled over, trying to imitate the torpor of sleep, throwing his arm across Leliana and swallowing drily when he found she was still there. There was a tension to her and he realized she was awake also, lying still as well, and probably as aware as he of the intruder.  His eyes were adjusting to the dimness of the room now and he could see her move her head slightly, a barely perceptible nod. He laid still again, ears straining, and could hear nothing but the sound of his own blood pounding in his ears.

The bed suddenly dipped behind him and he snapped backward, flinging his arm in an arc behind himself, hoping to catch the trespasser by surprise. He connected with something solid and then his arm was caught and pinned back. Aedan felt the sting of a very sharp blade slice across the inside of his forearm as he continued rolling over, bringing his other arm up. That arm was caught also and both his arms were now pinned together.  He tried to roar in frustration but was cut off by a dizzying blow to his temple. He saw stars and shook his head. 
 
The mattress dipped and rose behind him and he heard a grunt, a muffled thud and silence. Aedan was now in an awkward position. He had tried to pull his legs out from under the covers as he’d rolled, but had been unsuccessful and now his back was twisted slightly and without the use of his arms he had no leverage. He kicked his legs again and started growling, his volume rising as his frustration built. Suddenly there was a blade at his throat and a whisper just beside his ear. “Struggling just makes the poison work faster.”

Aedan froze. What had happened to Leliana? He opened his mouth and said, his voice sounding somewhat strangled, “Leli.” His legs were beginning to tingle.

Aedan tried to turn his head and was allowed to do so. He gazed desperately in Leliana’s direction and was utterly stunned to find she was being restrained by yet another shadowed figure, a dagger held carefully at her throat. There were two of them? Aedan sagged gently and felt the bite of the blade at his neck. He asked, “What do you want?” His tongue felt thick.

The figure replied, “Your secrets, Commander.”

Aedan felt a chill at ‘commander’, he knew that voice. Why would they call him commander? He then realized the chill wasn’t entirely from the sound of the voice, he was starting to feel cold all over, and numb. He tried to speak again but found his mouth no longer obeyed him and all that came out was an odd gagging noise. 

There were two reactions to his sound. Leliana whimpered and he could hear her struggling against her assailant. The man holding him said, “That’s better,” then eased him back toward the mattress. 

Aedan immediately tried to move and discovered he couldn’t…even breathing was becoming difficult now and a panicked fluttering was rising within his chest. He tried to make more noise and only produced a rasping this time. 

The shadowed figure sheathed his dagger and grabbed Aedan by the shoulders. With a slight grunt he then proceeded to drag Aedan from the bed and onto the floor, and then maneuver him underneath the bed. Aedan tried to order his mind, but his thoughts seemed as sluggish as his breath and he could only come up with one thought: Why are they putting me under the bed?

His question was answered however when the figure knelt down and whispered nearly soundlessly next to his ear. “If you stay calm the poison may spare you. I am sorry, Commander, I waited as long as I could. I will do my best to see she is not harmed.”

He heard the other intruder, the one holding Leliana say softly but clearly, “Quickly, now, you take her feet.” The shadow beside him rose and he could see the soft leather boots move out of side around the bed.

Leliana, they were taking Leliana! Aedan screamed inside himself and tried desperately to make his body move but it was becoming increasingly hard to concentrate and his breath was labored. A part of his mind knew he needed to calm down before the poison interacted too heavily with his increased adrenaline but he found it impossible in the face of losing Leliana. He started to choke and wheeze and the only sound he could hear was his own pulse pounding in his ears – and it was slowing down. Each pulse seemed to reverberate inside his skull and his consciousness was starting to ebb away. With a final rasp of breath he slipped under.

                                                                                       --=0=--

Alistair was not surprised to find Fergus in the dining room ahead of him. Fergus would be saying good bye to his brother today and Alistair had sympathy for the man. The castle would be a lonely place once all the guests departed, as lonely as Denerim had seemed without the constant company of his companions. He bid the Teyrn good morning and asked, “No sign of Aedan yet?”

Fergus shook his head and replied, “No and I am loathe to disturb them knowing this is their last morning together for some time.”

Alistair could only nod in agreement. Aedan knew his duty and he would not tarry too long, of that he was sure. He helped himself to some breakfast and was just sitting down when Philippe appeared in the doorway. 

“I understand a messenger arrived late last night,” the senior warden said, “What news?”

Alistair answered, “Darkspawn south of Redcliffe. Aedan and his wardens will be leaving today instead of tomorrow.”

Philippe looked alarmed. He spun on his heel and said, “I’ll pass along the word then, have the wardens prepare their packs before they come to eat.” He disappeared back down the hallway.

Alistair turned to Fergus and said, “I would be concerned that Aedan hadn’t already talked to the wardens himself if I didn’t understand his reticence to leave his room this morning. We can not indulge him much longer, however.”

Fergus nodded in agreement and asked, “After we see Aedan off, will you accompany me to Highever to confirm that your ship is ready to sail tomorrow, or shall I take Oghren?”

Alistair scratched his chin thoughtfully and replied, “Why don’t we see if Leliana would like to come? I’m sure she’d welcome the distraction today. I will come along also. I think Oghren would prefer one last day as far from the sea as possible.”

They shared a grin and Fergus excused himself, leaving for his study. Alistair sat alone for while, simply letting his mind wander. He was glad the amulets had worked so well. He felt a certain amount of guilt regarding taking Leliana to Orlais but was immensely grateful she would be accompanying him. She had all but taken on Aedan’s role of chancellor these past months and Alistair valued her advice as well as her skill in gathering and sifting information. Her first hand knowledge of Val Royeaux would be like a gift from the Maker himself as neither he, nor Oghren had ventured beyond Ferelden before.

It hadn’t actually been as hard as might have imagined convincing Aedan to let her come along. Aedan had known he would be traveling hard over the next month or so and naturally he was concerned with Leliana’s ‘delicate condition’. Alistair couldn’t help a grin of anticipation; he was nearly as excited to meet Aedan’s child as they were. His musings were interrupted as Zevran and the other wardens filtered into the room, hungrily eyeing the breakfast spread. It was time to rouse Aedan.

The maid he sent returned saying there was no answer at her knock. Alistair frowned and excusing himself from the assembled wardens, went to check up on Aedan himself. He knocked on the door and when there was no answer, he cracked it open and peeked cautiously inside. The room was empty. The bed was made and the room was tidy. This in itself bothered Alistair. Aedan was meticulous with three things – his armour, his weapons and his boots. Any personal space he occupied was usually littered with discarded clothing and books. Perhaps Leliana was cleaning up after him?

He stepped back into the hall and returned to the dining room. He asked the assembled wardens if any of them had seen Aedan this morning. None of them had. Alistair was now seriously disturbed. Though part of his mind wanted to suggest Aedan had taken Leliana away somewhere early this morning, he seriously doubted the possibility. The warden commander was dedicated to his duty and despite his love for his wife, would not heedlessly endanger the lives of others while frittering away the morning hours. Something was wrong. Zevran was regarding him from across the room and Alistair beckoned him over.

“Zevran, would you mind heading outside and scouting the castle grounds for Aedan or Leliana or both, they are probably together, but…” he spread his hands, unable to articulate his fears. Zevran understood and immediately set off. It wasn’t until he had handed out assignments to the rest of the wardens that Alistair noticed yet another absence.   Jean was missing. He grabbed at Philippe’s sleeve as the older man was about to pass through the door and asked, “Have you seen Jean this morning?”

Philippe raised his brows and said, “Actually, no, I have not. I will look in the chapel, it is where he is usually to be found before setting off to battle.”

After an hour it became clear that Aedan, Leliana and Jean were missing. Seriously disturbed did not even begin to describe Alistair’s state of mind as he and Fergus organized teams of soldiers to head into the forest and down to Highever. Alistair intended to join the search but Fergus reminded him that he was king and that if something foul was afoot, he needed to stay here at the castle with his guard. Though he felt like yelling in frustration, he could only agree.

As the search parties left Alistair decided to check Aedan’s room again. He stepped inside this time and stood before the bed. He looked at the closet and thought to check inside. Leliana’s clothes were all neatly arranged, confirming his earlier suspicions that someone else had been cleaning up after Aedan. Alistair had no idea how many dresses she owned, so he looked for something of Aedan’s. The warrior’s meager collection of threadbare shirts and one of the two pairs of pants Alistair could remember seeing him in were not to be found. Upon withdrawing his head from the closet, Alistair spied Aedan’s pack on the floor. He unbuckled the straps and peeked inside – scrunched up shirts and pants.  No wonder the warrior always looked as though he slept in his clothes!  Alistair tried the armory next. Both Aedan and Leliana’s weapons were there, along with Aedan’s Warden Commander plate.

Cold fear began to seep into Alistair’s thoughts. The fact that Aedan’s pack was ready meant Aedan fully intended to leave for Redcliffe this morning.  But the fact that his armour and weapons were still here disturbed him even more so. Was it really possible that Aedan might have taken Leliana and simply left? Alistair shook his head, no. It was not possible. Aedan would never abandon his duty, and where was Jean?

Alistair paced back and forth through the castle, unable to sit down. He started when Zevran appeared behind him and tapped his shoulder. 

“We have searched the woods for an hour to the west of the castle and have found no clues, and no trail,” the elf informed him. Zevran’s eyes reflected his own worry. 

Alistair quickly filled him in on his findings and Zevran stated firmly, “No, Aedan has not left of his volition; there is something more sinister afoot.” Despite the increased panic this induced, Alistair was relieved Zevran agreed with him.

Zevran continued, “I would like to see Aedan’s room, if you don’t mind.” 

Alistair followed Zevran back to Aedan’s room desperately hoping the former assassin would find clues he’d missed, yet also apprehensive as to what he would find.

Zevran stopped in the doorway and scanned the room before entering. He looked over every piece of furniture before stepping silently into the room. As Alistair had done, he went to the closet first. He opened it and examined the contents.

Then stepping around the bed, he moved over to the window and pushing it open, leaned out to look at the ground below. Alistair leaned over his shoulder and looked out. It was about an eight foot drop onto hard, packed earth. Not beyond the realm of possibility as an alternative exit.

Alistair leaned back and he and Zevran turned to face the bed. That’s when they saw it. There was a slender dark stain on the floor, a thin smear really. It looked like blood.

Modifié par Sisimka, 10 février 2010 - 10:51 .


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Oh no!

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Nice tension! Look under the bed! Look under the bed!!

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Freckles04 wrote...

Nice tension! Look under the bed! Look under the bed!!


Yes!  I was saying to myself, if just one person is yelling to themselves 'look under the bed, look under the bed' my job is done!  Hey, I was yelling it out as I was typing, much to my family's amusement.

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Holy c!@#, this is maing me biting my chair! the suspense is killing me!

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Hehe. Should I conveniently 'forget' to post tomorrow?

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tomorrow?!?!?! we have to wait till tomorrow? I guess that means I should use the rest of the day working instead of seeing if you posted something new....

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It's a snow day and I'm making cookies and playing Wii with the kids this afternoon... so it will be tomorrow! *little voice* sorry...

:)

Modifié par Sisimka, 10 février 2010 - 07:39 .


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Fortunately, I can wait till tomorrow, but this is gripping, and fear-inducing! All that tension was actually making my blood rush, excellent! :)

Fear not, Leliana, Aedan will come, and kick your captors' arses!

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Maximus741000 wrote...

Fortunately, I can wait till tomorrow, but this is gripping, and fear-inducing! All that tension was actually making my blood rush, excellent! :)
Fear not, Leliana, Aedan will come, and kick your captors' arses!

what he said!

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aww i wish we could have more than one update per day, but its alright i mean you right them, you decided when to post them. either way i just really like them.

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I've uploaded a second chapter in a day two times before and I've always regretted it. I really like to think about what I've written overnight and then I often tear out entire paragraphs and re-arrange points of view in the next morning before I post. :)



Tomorrow's chapter is almost done, just needs some percolating!

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NOOOEEEEESSSSS, and yeeess finally some action :D Also nice to see that aedan is not one of those super hero wardens that wouldve just kicked their asses ^^ We forgive the brief time you allow yourself to spend time with your children...if you post 3 chapters in the 24hrs after XD MOAR... and well written!

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Wow, I've just spent yesterday reading this and its so good I decided to get my profile and everything sorted so I could comment!



First off I'm so glad to see a male cousland/leliana fanfic as pretty much everything else I've seen other places has mostly involved the relationships of female cousland/other char etc so this is brilliantly refreshing and has allowed me to become so much more absorbed in the story as Aeden seems to have made all the same decisions that Freywyn (My male cousland) had made for the most part.



Secondly, I CANNOT wait for the next chapter... You may have also given me the push at writing my own (obviously not half as good!) fanfiction. Something I haven't done in about 5/6 years since I was 15/16.



Keep up the good work !!!

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As always, thanks Bloodshot! And welcome Fumbles. :) I'm very happy that you are enjoying my story. Another chapter coming up today!

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Duty
 
Aedan had nearly drowned when he was nine. The rain had been heavy that spring and the river was high. Ignoring Fergus’s warning to stay in the shallow water until he joined him, Aedan had struck out toward the centre, determined to swim across the swollen river. Fergus was eight years older and Aedan was tired of being the baby. He wanted to show his big brother he could do it on his own. 

With Fergus yelling on the bank behind him to “Wait, wait for me!” he surged ahead. He had made it halfway before the current caught him and swept him downstream. He could hear Fergus yelling and as he spun about in the rushing water, he caught a glimpse of his brother running down the bank and diving into the river behind him.

He could hear Fergus yelling now above the roar of the water and he was trying to breathe, but it wasn’t working and he felt like he was spinning around and around. He was trying to reach for something, anything to stop himself moving and spinning but his arms would not cooperate. Why was it so dark? Were his eyes closed?

Aedan tried to open his eyes and the sudden sting of light pained him. He was choking. The water must be in his lungs now. Why couldn’t he feel it or see it? Why was it so bright now? He felt himself being rolled over and assumed the water was still carrying him, spinning him over and over until his cheek came to rest on cold stone. He was at the bottom of the river then. He didn’t even try to breathe, certain the air would not come, and he closed his eyes against the light to wait for the end.

The end did not come. Instead he felt a pounding on his back and involuntarily he opened his mouth to draw a breath and found air. Aedan gasped it in greedily and choked again. He coughed and then tried again, more slowly. Fergus was still calling his name. He opened his eyes and saw the stone floor beneath his face and blinked in confusion. Where was the river? He looked up and Fergus was there, leaning over him, but he looked odd. He looked like older, more like their father. He closed his eyes again.

Fergus said, “No you don’t little brother, open your eyes.” There was a soft, repeated pat on his cheek and he complied, opening his eyes once again. Fergus was still there and he said, “There you are, stay with me now.”

As he wasn’t sure he could do anything other than lay there and breathe, Aedan did as he was told. He continued to draw in air and found it was getting easier and easier, the tightness in his chest was loosening and the roar of the water was receding from his ears. He tried to speak, “Fergus?”

Someone was kneeling next to Fergus now, a face he knew but couldn’t place. The man gently placed a finger to his neck, feeling his pulse, and then nodded. He stood up and moved away. Aedan could hear more voices now, a noisy murmur in the background that he had mistaken for the sound of water. 

He tried to move his arms. The floor was cold and he wanted to sit up, get warm and dry. No, wait, he wasn’t wet. He said, “I’m not wet.”

Fergus’s face creased into a frown and he replied, “No, you are not wet.” 

One of Aedan’s arms was behind him and the other rested on the floor in front of him. He flexed the fingers he could see and pushed against the floor, trying to sit up. All the voices in the room rose and there was a chorus of ‘No’ ‘Watch it’ and ‘Steady’. Fergus helped him into a sitting position with the assistance of someone else behind Aedan’s back. His head started to spin and his stomach lurched. He groaned and leaned forward, vomiting onto the floor. This left him very lightheaded and he decided it would be best if he lay down again. So he did.

Several pairs of hands then helped lift him from the floor and onto the bed. Fergus wiped his mouth and another man came forward with a cup of water. Again, it was a familiar face. He stared at the man, wondering who he was. The man sat on the edge of the bed and slipped a hand behind his head, helping him tip his face forward enough to drink. He said softly, “Slowly, just take a sip.”

It was Alistair. Aedan knew him and he now remembered who had felt for his pulse. That was Taren. He groaned and closed his eyes, letting his head drop back and immediately the voices rose again. He opened his eyes and said, “Where am I?”

Fergus answered, “At home, Aedan, in Highever. Tell us what you remember.”

He shuffled himself back against the headboard and eased himself into a sitting position. His head didn’t swim as much this time and he breathed a sigh of relief. He looked around the room and was surprised to find it crammed with men. He blinked at them all and then looked down at himself. He was shirtless and in the pants he wore for sleeping and there was a livid cut on his forearm. He stared at the cut and he remembered.

“Leli,” he whispered, and then louder, torturing his burning throat, “Where is Leliana?”

He glanced around the room and saw the alarmed and startled expressions. They didn’t know! He pushed at Alistair and said, “Get up, we have to find her, they took her!”

Alistair hopped off the bed and reached back to help steady him. Aedan got to his feet and his legs buckled beneath him and he fell to his knees. He dropped his hands to the floor and crawled to the window. Grasping the sill he pulled himself to a standing position again, Fergus on one side and Alistair on the other. He looked out the window and called, “Leliana!”

Alistair was talking to him but he couldn’t hear what the man was saying. Aedan turned to face him and said, “What?”

Alistair repeated himself, “Who took her Aedan, and when?”

Aedan gripped the window sill and pushed back, standing all the way up, swaying. His throat was so sore and every word grated. He turned and said, “They came in through the window and they poisoned me and they took her…two men. One of them…he called me commander, his voice…I knew his voice…but they were dressed in shadow, I could not see their faces.”

Alistair’s face was so sad when he replied that Aedan heaved in a quick breath which caught in his throat, causing him to wheeze and choke. He managed to growl out, “What?”

Alistair said, “We’ve been searching the estate and the town all morning for all three of you. There has been no sign. We found you under the bed an hour ago and have been trying to rouse you ever since.” His expression was anguished and he nearly whispered, “We feared you were dead, you were so still and it did not seem you drew breath. Aedan, it looked like you’d killed an arch demon all over again.”

Three? Aedan blinked in confusion and replied, “Three of us?”

The king nodded, “You, Leliana and Jean.”

By the Maker, that voice! It was Jean! Aedan cried out, “Jean took her!”

Philippe gasped and Aedan turned to find the man standing across the room. He willed his legs to walk and shakily made it over to the Orlesian and grabbed him by the shirt. He yelled into his face, “What have you done with Leliana!”

Aedan’s arms and legs were beginning to tremble and his chest was tightening. He adjusted the grip of his numbing fingers on the senior warden’s shirt, now trying to keep himself upright and cried out more hoarsely, “Where have you taken her?”

His legs gave way and he dropped towards his knees nearly bringing Philippe down with him. The older man grabbed at his elbows just as Zevran caught his back and they eased his fall. He heard Zevran say, “This is a Crow poison. It passes quickly from the system, but until it is gone, he must remain calm or risk stopping his heart.”

As the men absorbed this news in stunned silence, Alistair and Philippe once again helped Aedan to the bed as his body refused to cooperate. Zevran continued, “Whoever did this was very careful. It takes a precise measurement not to kill a man outright.”

Aedan tried to talk and gagged again. He was slumped into a sort of sitting position on the bed, his back against the headboard. He let his head flop back and his eyes close as he fought for control, the very fighting for it eroding his calm.

Alistair had moved to Philippe’s side and when Aedan opened his eyes, the king was talking to the warden in a low tone. “Philippe, you don’t…you didn’t…” Alistair trailed off, his eyes pleading the warden to deny any knowledge of this travesty.

Philippe shook his head vehemently and replied, “No!” He turned to face Aedan and putting his hands out before him, palms upward, said, “Commander, I had nothing to do with this. You must believe me!”

Aedan studied Philippe’s face, looking for the treachery, but could not find it. All he found was the truth in the Orlesian’s eyes. Philippe was as stunned by this revelation as he was. Aedan grunted, trying to articulate his understanding, but was still unable to talk properly.

Alistair was talking to Philippe again, “Philippe do have any idea where Jean may have taken Leliana?”

Philippe was nodding his head sadly, “He is so young, impressionable. I can think of only one destination. He will have taken her to Damien in Orlais.”

Fergus quickly turned to the door and summoned a guard, “Go to Highever. Find out if any ships bound for Orlais departed on the morning tide!” The guard hastily bowed and ran.

Philippe continued, “What I do not understand, Alistair, is why he would take Leliana and not Aedan himself.”

Terror rose in Aedan’s chest and his limbs twitched and jerked as he began to shake. He looked at Alistair and the king returned his gaze, his eyes full of fear…and sorrow. Through stiff lips, his throat so hoarse he did not recognise his own voice, Aedan provided the answer, “Because she knows my secret.”

Silence befell the room as the gathered men exchanged shocked glances. Only Alistair remained looking at Aedan, his expression fixed and his head still as if he were unable to tear his eyes away. Aedan had lost his focus and control again and he could feel his consciousness slipping away. He tried desperately to hold on. Alistair snapped from his trance and stepped forward to help ease his shaking shoulders back down against the pillows.

Zevran spoke up then, his voice thoughtful and considering, “Alistair is King. They could not capture him without provoking an international incident. Aedan as Chancellor and Warden Commander is equally important. Yet it is well known that Leliana is privy to sensitive information regarding both men.” The former assassin then turned his gaze to Aedan and added, “Jean was supposed to kill you, Warden, yet I believe he deliberately spared your life, taking a great risk in doing so. His heart is not in this, I think.”

There was a rumble of agreement and a lot of hissed breath and whispers following this pronouncement. It was Taren who finally spoke, somewhat timidly, “If I may suggest, gentleman, that we allow the commander to rest before he risks a heart attack?”

Aedan did not hear them leave, he succumbed to the darkness.


                                                                                        --=0=--

Alistair and Philippe were sitting with in Fergus’s study with the Teyrn. Word had just arrived back from Highever. A ship had indeed departed for Orlais with the morning tide and there was no possibility of pursuit until their own ship left the following morning.

Aedan had been sleeping most of the afternoon and despite the shallowness of his breath, both Zevran and Taren had assured him that the warrior would be fine, that sleep was the best thing for him right now.

Philippe broke the uneasy silence that had befallen the small room, saying, “Alistair, I will depart for Redcliffe with the Wardens tomorrow. I will send the recruits back to Amaranthine by themselves for now. Aedan’s soldiers are still there, keeping vigil, I am sure they can deal with any more recruits we might get in the next month.”

Alistair looked up from contemplating his hands, “You need to take Aedan to Redcliffe with you tomorrow. Zevran assures me he will have recovered by the morning...physically.” He studied the older warden’s face carefully before adding, “He will need more than your help in fighting darkspawn, Philippe.”

Fergus sat forward in his chair with his hands braced against the desk and asked, “Surely Aedan will travel to Orlais with you, Alistair?”

Philippe was shaking his head sadly as Alistair answered, “He is a Grey Warden, Fergus.” Alistair closed his eyes and shook his head. He would never share Aedan’s pain, but the anguish he felt was nearly unbearable as he looked again at Aedan’s brother and continued, “It is his duty to fight the darkspawn. I will follow Leliana.” Alistair gritted his teeth as he said this, balling his hands into tight fists and pounding them on his thighs. How he wished their roles were reversed, Aedan to be the one to follow Leliana to Orlais and he to fight the darkspawn.

Philippe said softly, but clearly, “This is why we wardens traditionally do not marry.” He shook his head sadly.

Alistair turned to Philippe and said, “Tell me, Philippe, have you given any more thought as to why Jean might have done this?”

Philippe blew out a sigh and replied, “I am saddened and disturbed by this turn of events. I wonder if I should not have spoken so forthrightly about my suspicions regarding Damien in front of him. He is young and has been a warden for barely a year.”

Alistair thought a moment before replying, “Who recruited him?”

“Well, it was Damien himself, but the Commander takes such matters seriously, this is not amiss.” Philippe looked up and waved a hand, “But this speculation will not help us at the moment, it is Aedan we must discuss.”

As if summoned by the mention of his name Aedan chose that moment to appear in the doorway. He leaned against the frame and said carefully, “And just what is it about me you wish to discuss?”

Alistair looked up sharply. Aedan looked a lot stronger than he had earlier in the day, but there was a slight tremor to his hands and he occasionally shivered as though he were chilled and could not warm himself. Zevran had assured them these symptoms would not linger and he hoped the rogue was right. The warrior’s face was another matter, however, it was set like stone and an icy fury burned in his eyes. 

Fergus got up and ushered Aedan to a chair, which he accepted grudgingly. He merely perched upon the edge of the seat, however, and leaned forward to look directly at him and said, “When do we leave for Orlais?”

Alistair glanced away from Aedan, first meeting Philippe’s, and then Fergus’s eyes before returning his gaze to warrior’s face. He said, “Aedan, you cannot come to Orlais, you must…” He got no further.

Aedan leapt to his feet. “What…No!” he cried. He surged across the room and Alistair rose to meet him, grasping Aedan’s arms and holding him in place. Aedan’s face was inches from his. Alistair held his breath as Aedan closed his eyes and tried to compose himself and then said in an more quiet voice, “You are telling me I cannot go after my wife?”

Alistair took a deep breath and said as firmly as possible, trying to keep his voice emotionless, “Aedan, you are a Grey Warden, your duty…” Again, he got no further. 

Aedan spun on his heel and strode across the room, stopping to pound his fists against the top of a bookcase. “Andraste’s flaming sword!” he yelled. “How can you talk of duty right now?”

Something in Aedan’s tone struck a chord and Alistair rounded on the warrior, “You think I don’t know about duty?” he shot back. 

By the Maker, he was King! It was a duty he’d never wanted, a duty that at times he still didn’t want, if truth be told. He would have much preferred to remain a Grey Warden. Despite the continued darkspawn attacks, he envied Aedan his freedom, his autonomy, the love he shared with Leliana. No one judged this man’s every move, no one carefully disguised their intentions toward him and no one shoved their daughters into his face every time he turned around. Alistair threw up his hands and made a flinging gesture, as if to throw it all away. These thoughts had no place here, Leliana must be found and the darkspawn halted!

“I am King, Aedan, and my people are dying! Darkspawn are in the south again and people are dying. Should we tell them to just hole up and wait until you’re done throwing tantrums?” Alistair tried not to yell, but his voice had risen uncontrollably again. He paused to take a breath and then added more calmly, “Ferelden needs its Warden Commander.”

He could see Aedan working furiously to control his emotions, but there was a grim acceptance in his posture when finally looked up. When Aedan spoke again, his tone was bleak.

Aedan looked him in the eyes and said, “I should have died on top of that tower. All of this is my doing. What I did has destroyed the natural order of things for all time.” His head dropped forward and his shoulders slumped. He continued, “I thought I was doing it to save you, Alistair, but I was wrong. How could I have been so blind?” 

Fergus looked confused, but Philippe’s expression was one of intense curiosity. Alistair remembered that the older warden did not yet know about the ritual, but it was obvious he was aware of what Aedan spoke.

He put out a hand and said warningly, “Aedan…”

Aedan looked up and appeared to notice then that they were not alone. He met his eyes and Alistair felt the last of his anger drain away as Aedan continued sadly, “What? You don’t want them to know that the ‘Hero of Ferelden’ is just a sham? I saved my own wretched life and forever damned those I love.” Oh Maker, this had to stop.

Alistair took a tentative step toward him.  Aedan looked so forlorn. Alistair sighed softly, there were so many things he could say here, but somehow, none of it seemed appropriate. He finally settled upon, “I will find her Aedan, you have my word.”

Aedan’s shoulders were shaking and it wasn’t all due to the poison. Alistair put a hand gently on one shoulder and squeezed. Aedan did not respond. Swallowing drily, Alistair inwardly debated his next decision. He knew it would hurt the man, but it could help him gain an advantage in Orlais. He said, “Aedan…the amulet, I could use it to find her.”

Aedan looked down at the amulet and took it possessively in his hand. He pressed the silver heart to his lips and closed his eyes. The warrior stood there silently for a few short moments before looking up again. The utter sorrow in his expression made Alistair want to back down and he nodded, prepared to let it go. He would find Leliana without the amulet. He would simply go straight to Damien and demand her return. If that didn’t work he’d appeal to the Empress herself. He was a King. Surely he had that right? He started to tell Aedan this, he opened his mouth to speak, but Aedan suddenly uttered a strangled half cry and jerked the chain from his neck and dropped it into Alistair’s waiting hand.
 

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Freckles04

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Poor Aedan. Those damn darkspawn have the worst timing, don't they? :(

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Stupid darkspawn.

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I think its safe to say that Aedan's specialization is now going to be berserker lol. Not going to envy those darkspawn either once Aedan gets there.

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Jaredor wrote...

I think its safe to say that Aedan's specialization is now going to be berserker lol. Not going to envy those darkspawn either once Aedan gets there.


You got it, mate, I am SO looking forward to writing his first encounter with the darkspawn.  Expect many bloody chunks.

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NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! Why must you make me go for the napkin box! why!!

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Fantastic chapter again, well worth the wait! Poor Aeden :(

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Sisi, you'll be happy to know that I had Disarm on a continuous loop while I read this chapter. I have a feeling Alistair's wrath is going to match Aedan's when he gets to Orlais.

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Yes! Thank you, MsSP! I have to say though, I listened to soooo much Smashing Pumpkins writing this that I nearly had an anxiety induced heart attack. Time to switch artists, I think.

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What if.... Bio-ware is using this as the tale for the human noble origin for awakenings ?! Evil, i say, evil !