

"god, you think about blackwall, though.
what it’s like to live his good years, the best years, his strongest years full of heart and pain and laughter, in unwavering service on hell’s molten edge.
unlike some, he’s CHOSEN this life. like it wasn’t a choice at all, but a sort of inborn nobility, as real as blood.
and to do it, to choose it, knowing death will be his bride and closest companion. she’s there outside the window, on the faces of his comrades at meals, in the sulfur breath of the cracks in the earth.
so here’s a man with more weight on his shoulders than a hundred kings in a hundred lifetimes could ever bear, but he does it without complaint because…well, it’s always that anonymous someone who HAS to, isn’t it? it’s a song everyone sings as children, yet no one remembers who wrote it. it’s the shape of No-One filling the ranks. it’s his calling. and perhaps, from beginning to end, that’s why they name it so.
but.
what if here, at the final hour, when his body’s flagging and all the smiles are hard ones and his will is iron even if his back is not, his calling is answered by someone else? and not the Calling, the descent into the Deep Roads. not the impolite subject of an endless darkness. no, what happens when his life’s work is denied is something sweeter, soaked in melancholy, and infinitely more unfathomable.
to die so the world may live. to preserve all the good things spinning ‘round, and all the ****, too. that’s been his bread for as long as he’s had teeth. but, what if death never consummates their marriage? what if he’s left behind to do the hardest thing, more painful, more unfair than never taking another breath? what if, in the last ashfall of battle, when the wailing stops, he has to go on living?
because death is wayward, favors none, yet loves all in turn. she turns her placid face to another No One, instead. to a bright, unbroken light, simple as a candleglow. to the one person he’d dared to hope would remain, and honor him in memory. the one person who might think of him as more. and for no reason he will ever know, death takes her hand instead."
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The drabble is bossuary's as usual, I only merely attempt to illustrate the heart-punchings of her words T_T