As Kolme retreated, Jess and Anika sized each other up as if both were itching for a fight.
It was Anika who made the first move.
"Captain, I want to go be with Naleena".
"Why"?
"Because.... I think I'm in love with her".
"That's not a good enough reason luv. There's plenty of people and places I'd rather be with and at. Instead I'm here, doing a job that's turning into mess".
"Jess.....".
"We're a hauler luv. We're traders. We make credits to keep this tub moving so we can make more credits to line our pockets and this Council Spectre colony business has stalled us badly. We've been in port for days not getting a lot of business done. We don't have the connections in this part of space to get contracts. I need the whole crew pulling together to get over this slump. That after the crew know what happened to the last crew. That after the biggest overhaul this ships seen that cut into our savings. Back when colonies went dark I had a reason to help. Those colonies were our opportunities. Now they are safe from Collectors and the Aspirant's have gone quiet we can get back to our regular work routine but somehow we're still here and your off enjoying time away with your toy friend instead of pulling your weight as part of this crew".
Anika sighed. "I wanted to talk to you about that. Captain, I want you to release me from our contract".
"Request denied".
"Captain....".
"What do you think a contract is? It's a promise luv. You break a contract you break your word and you promised me service".
"That was years ago! I had nowhere else to go! You took care of me...."!
"And now you've found someone else you want to jump ship and go? I thought this was your home"!
"It is..... But I found.... someone who isn't here and I want to be with her".
"So your putting your desires over your commitment's. That's selfish luv. You'll be dropping people who count on you".
"I'm not indispensable".
"Yes, you are. Because I can surely find someone to fill your post..... But replace you? No one can do that luv. You were always unique".
"So your saying you only want me for my gene enhancements? Thanks Jess, that puts our relationship into perspective".
"Don't....". Jess went to stab a finger at Anika, only to find that the arm she generally used to do so was gone. Gritting her teeth in frustration Jess took her other hand to make the gesture. "....Don't make out I only kept you around for one thing. You know damn well how much I needed you. Hell luv, when I came to kidnap one of you in that complex I knew I'd found a good one when you practically upped and kidnapped yourself! I seem to remember you throwing a case at me, knocking me off the balcony, picking me up off the ground then carrying both me and that case out through my escape window".
Anika sighed. "Yes... well, it was a good window. I couldn't have gotten past the boundary if you hadn't gotten through without setting any warning flags up".
"And from then on it was me and you. All the way. I caught flack and a lot of merc interest from the buyer after grabbing you and pulling out of the deal but I never regretted it. You were worth it. And I protected you.... and you in turn protected me".
"I remember those days.... We had each other's backs".
"And now you want to go? Look at me luv". Jess used her good arm to pull the cloak away and where her other had once been, now lay an empty socket, as if someone had pulled out and excavated her shoulder. "Tell me right now I don't need you because I can tell you.... I've never felt more vulnerable".
Anika's eye's looked over Jess's ruined shoulder and she took several steps till she was up close enough to reach out and run her hand over where flesh met machine. "You always did hate our check-ups.... The way the machine part shut down to diagnose".
Jess turned her head away, unwilling to look at where Anika's finger's graced. "Bad enough it's part of me. I can't change that. I don't want to be reminded of it".
"That shoot out....".
"Where I met Rasgul....".
"He saved you.....".
"He died......".
"And ever since you've been trying to save everyone". Anika dropped her hand. "The captain who nearly nearly lost everything. Trying to do the right thing while thinking she's a bad person doing bad things for the right reasons.... You were always a puzzle to me Jess. But I always felt safe with you. But life isn't about being safe. You know, and you pushed me to imagine life outside the Medusa. I did. I saw aliens who weren't the threat I thought they were. I saw Molly dedicate her life to an ideal that she sacrificed her body for. I met someone who made me want to move on beyond the Medusa, because that's where she is. And I want to be by her side. Jess..... You turned my tidy, organised life into a mess of conflicting needs, wants and desires.... And I have to choose.... And I have. But I can't just take my freedom if it means it'll put bad blood between us. I want us to still be friends....".
"You'll always be more than that to me luv. I just never imagined that you and I would ever really separate....".
"Everyone leaves eventually. That's what you keep saying about crew".
"You were more than 'just crew' too"
"Jessica....". Anika said, using Jess's full name known only to a few. ".... I need to do this. And I want your blessing to do it. I want to see who I am beyond what I am. Here I'm..... comfortable. I know my place. The Medusa is my now. My present. But we both know that eventually the Medusa will be mothballed. It's crew will come and go until there's no place left for them here. And when that happens, you'll be a captain without a ship whose place in the galaxy she doesn't know..... And as much as I want to stay by your side, that's not the future I want. I want something else. And I can't find that living the life of a nefarious trader who pirate's on the side. I got what I needed and for that I will always be grateful to you. But It's time to take the next step in my life".
As Anika spoke Jess's body trembled. Imperceptible perhaps, but Anika who had known her the longest out of anyone saw. Saw the inner turmoil her words caused her and so desperately wanted to pull them back to spare her friend. At last though Jess took a deep breath and reached for Anika's hand.
"Anika..... You've been the back bone of my life for a long time. If you leave, you'll be tearing it out. I never imagined you leaving you leaving because I never wanted you to leave. Jess and Anika, roaming the galaxy. Getting into scrapes and pulling each other's butt's out the fire. You always questioned me and while you think I ignored you, you always made me think. That's a rare gift for anyone to do regarding yours truely.... Luv, you want my blessing? It's always been yours. No matter what else I can't and won't stand in the way of what makes you happy. I just always hoped happy would be by my side as XO of the ship. But things changed. I know. New faces. New people. New challenges. Even new relationships. If you found something outside the Medusa that you need to pursue then follow the code of the pirate and take it. And don't let anything stop you from getting it. But know this luv..... It's rare that anything in the galaxy lasts forever. I thought you and I would go on.... now we've got this.... But I don't blame anyone if it's what you want".
Anika felt hope welling inside of her. "Then.... You mean I can go? You'll release my contract"?
Jess guffawed as her eye's took on a merry if sadistic twinkle. "Oh hell no luv. You signed that fair and square. Fact is luv, till it runs it's course..... You work for me".





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