Is it weird that I actually have much more sympathy to Cullen than Alistair? I love Alistair but I can easily picture him endure the sorrow of losing his lover. I just can't picture Cullen going through all this. He'll be broken
No, I feel exactly the same way. I can't put my finger on what exactly it is about both of them, but Cullen feels more... vulnerable? than Alistair, in a way. I don't know if their lives can or even should compare (no one deserves having their worth measured by suffering olympics, after all), but even though both of them have been through hell and back, Cullen comes across as so tired of it all by the time of Inquisition that I feel like finding a reason to live for and then losing even that would finally break him beyond mending. Meanwhile, Alistair (both Warden and king) still feels like the same old tough cookie, who can take every punch from life and still grin and bear it. So I keep dishing punches to Alistair because I feel like he can take them, but with Cullen I'm all overprotective, trying as best as I can to let all the sadness wash away and give him only reasons to smile.
Ungh, these two make my heart ache. For completely different reasons and in completely different ways, but still. Ouch.