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[Pups_of_war_76]

welp she sounds like a real ****

[Masha Potato]

you'd think a psychiatrist would be a person who would try to help you and not make things worse

[Masha Potato]

though i guess that's true of any doctor and a lot of them still manage to be complete turdburgers

[Moussey]

Geez that is pretty severe...

I've always wondered why some doctors get pill pushy...

[hanar05]

Lyss, find a new psychiatrist.
I cannot stress this enough.
This woman is not competent.
My first therapist was a nightmare and my new psychologist is 99% sure the stress she caused me is what triggered Chronic Fatigue Syndrome.

Is this psychiatrist taking your trauma into account at all? Because it is likely the source of your anxiety and depression. With counselling and all that, it often gets worse before it gets better but this is just plain negligence. She needs to focus on coping mechanisms foremost and it sounds like she's not listening to you at all.

[iqueefkief]

i'm moving to st louis in late august.  i'll only visit with this one once more before i move.  i just can't get over how dismissive she's been over my case just because i really want to stay away from medications that build up in your system.  antidepressants have done nothing for me.  that does not mean try more!

 

also, i've been worried about how much sleep i require to feel like happy and functional and stuff.  it's usually 9-12 hours and if i don't get it my days are all fucked up.  i'm always tired.  i'm on adderall now for i guess...it's been a week now?  i worked 10 hours, took my 2nd dose for the day, read for a half hour, and...fell to sleep.  i fell asleep on an amphetamine.

 

i've been working a lot more than i'm used to and PTSD causes a lot of problems that i'm not very aware of.  my therapist never really discussed the nature of PTSD with me and mine obviously differs from survivors of one incident versus my case, which is continued exposure to the same high stress, traumatizing situations for 18 years of my life. not uh...really sure what that did to me.  she probably isn't either, which is why she's focusing on thought reframing as opposed to really addressing my complaints about fatigue symptoms and not wanting to do anything ever.  i kind of suspect i'm slightly agoraphobic?  egh, i'm just gonna turn a new leaf when i move to stl.  the quality of care there should be significantly better anyway considering how many more options there will be.

 

anyway, i'm hoping all of this tiredness is just me needing to build up endurance to suddenly working 40 hrs per week with no build up versus the 10-15 i'd been on before.  maybe i just need an adjustment period.  i was still always tired, but i'd still find time to hang out with friends.  probably just because i had more of it.

[Pups_of_war_76]

it might be you not liking your job much, as well as the jump in hours.

 

Might be some better employment options in st louis

[hanar05]

Continued exposure over long periods, especially ones from childhood, really mess with your head. Single incidents are easier to recover from in some ways because you and those you love can help you revert back to your old self. With childhood trauma... there is no old self. It's a major difficulty for that person just understanding who they are.

Your fatiguing symptoms are worrying. I used to sleep a lot when my depression was untreated and now I am the opposite. I would be very wary working a full time job until your health gets sorted. I learned the hard way that health problems and full time work are the worst mix, especially when you try showing up to work everyday despite how crappy you feel.

STAY SAFE AND HEALTHY, BB
Feel free to contact me for support if you need it.

[Radahldo]

very depressed all the thetime

[Pups_of_war_76]

is your family still impeding your access to therapy

[Radahldo]

actually, yeah

[Radahldo]

i guess money is bigger factor

[hanar05]

I'm so sorry, Rad That's a really tough situation.
I suppose the best thing you can do is spend some time outside in the sun and exercise. Unless you can find free treatment, talking to friends may be the best therapy available. Try to spend time with people who make you happy. It's what you deserve.

We're here for you.

[Moussey]

Yeah. We're all a community here.

[Radahldo]

thamks guys, feeling really down today

[hanar05]

BIG INTERNET HUGS
Maybe read a book or play some games, escapism is big part of my coping strategy...

[iqueefkief]

life is bad

[Radahldo]

When I play competitive games, I don't do as well as I did in the pas, or whatever my (or otthers) expectations of me are, and it leads to me getting really frustrated, snowballing into depressive episode

 

With non-competiive games like fallout, I somtimes can get really engrossed and it is an escape for a bit, but somehting causes a break eventually..

 

reading things is really hard... I used to read things all to time.. until I lost my capacity to do that, I did not realize how vital  all of that was to my sense of fulfillment.  The spontaneity of it,  melding things from different sources, etc..  

[Moussey]

Have you tried getting into mmorpgs? I used to play them a lot when I was younger. I found that they were a great way to really immerse yourself in the game world leveling by yourself or with others, or if you wanted to get competitive there are guilds that do PVP events quite frequently. 

 

They're really great in that you can section out your time to do whatever you feel like doing at any given time, whether you want to be left alone or hanging out with others in a group, or actively participating in a PVP battle or a raid. 

 

I've only stopped playing them now cause I'm completely burnt out on them, but i noticed that the newer ones are getting a lot better than past games in terms of mechanics and including more original content. they also have a greater emphasis on lore and world building than past games, so they've gotten more engaging as well

 

the last two i've played were swtor and the secret world. swtor is much better when it comes to group activities and interactions while the secret world has an extremely heavy  emphasis on story and single player content 

[Radahldo]

i've looked at some, ubt I don't think its my thing for the most part/

I would primarily play pvp,  and it would probably be the same experience I have with competitive shooters .

They also seem to require more sustained  effort and attention than I have been able to give anything lately

There is also the monthly fee parts

[Pups_of_war_76]

Most MMOs are extremely easy, at least as PVE goes. The few I've dabbled with, I've been able to play very absent-mindedly. Granted, that would seem to detract from their value as distraction/escapism.

 

How about making things? Maybe if you could pick up some sort of hands-on hobby or craft that doesn't require as much intellectual commitment as reading, but can keep you busy in a more mechanical sense

[Masha Potato]

mmos are great at the beginning until you get to see how much of a jerkbutt the community is

playing with other people is just hella stressful and i wouldn't really recommend it 

also when it sucks you in enough you kinda switch one depressed state for another because you're sort of addicted to some stupid **** now

i mean

that's just my horrifying experience with mmos

they do ease off anxiety with grinding maybe but that's about it

[Masha Potato]

on the other hand if there was a game we could play together that wouldn't be as stressful but i can't think of a game rn

like SR coop or some ****

bit i don't think it's cross platform

[Moussey]

You could also try games like League of Legends, DOTA or Starcraft. They're not as involved as mmos and rounds are usually quick enough that you don't have to deal with jerks for as long.

LOL is really trendy at the moment so they're constantly releasing new content too.

[Radahldo]

what kind of crafts?