*Returns from lurking and Inquisition playing.*
*Finds a spot in the blanket fort. Plops down.*
*Hyperventilating sobbing.*
Well...I'm not quite that much of a mess. Although legitimate tears are still a likely possibility. I like to pretend to be a drama queen sometimes. But...but... The feelings are real! I'm still a mess, just a less angsty mess, I like to think. My heart, why. It hurts. T~T It hurts so much. I need a DLC to make it go away. I have so many headcanons now.
In happier news, I managed to not ****** off my companions for extended periods. I wasn't even catering to them. I said what I wanted and would say, and made decisions based on how I would make or would likely make in the situations. And everyone loved me, or at the very least was fond of me. Which made me happy, I won't lie. Even Viv and Sera. I couldn't even begin to place a number on how many disapproval, minimum or otherwise, I took with those two. I never got the cookies scene with Sera, though. I'm not sure if that's solely in her romance or not, but it's not a big deal. Viv gave me the "ring". (Quotation marks used because the ring never shows up in inventory, I assumed because it's supposed to be a special sentimental gift and such.) I believe it helped that I evaded the Greatly Disapproves from Viv with my allying with the mages, because I entirely forgot to speak with her afterwards. *Was too enamored with finding out what happened next in the main questline and exploring Skyhold.* I even made Solas...less than pleased more times than I cant count on a single hand. Mostly because I conscripted the Wardens, and made Cole more human, and drank from the Well of Sorrows, and sometimes my opinions didn't always please him, but that's life. I'm happy it went the way it did. The thing was, I wasn't going into the game to cater to him. I wasn't going to have my choices rely solely on approval or disapproval. I wanted to give the Wardens an opportunity to clean up their mess. What they did goes beyond the bounds of wrong, and I was a thread away from exiling them, but frankly, I was scared they'd turn around and eff things up again, just somewhere else. If they're going to attempt something as stupid as going and killing the Old Gods before they awaken, I want them right under my nose so I can drag them and tie them on a leash (metaphorically speaking) before they can. Exiling them would have relieved me of that luxury. Funnily enough, I went into the game convinced I would make Cole full spirit, and let Morrigan drink from the Well. But... As much as I feel as if I'm now damaging a rare spirit of Compassion to a catastrophic extent, I was selfish and wanted to keep my Cole. I didn't want to hear any monotonous voice. That would break my heart. Cole's my baby. Making him human does hurt him, but I'll be there to help him. I trusted Solas on the matter, but... I wanted a human Cole, and I was selfish for it, but that's that. As for the Well... I didn't fully want to drink from it, honestly. I hate the fact that I upset Solas, after he "begged me" (happening or not, he says he did, and I took that and headcannoned he did anyway), but Morrigan had a son, and I was the Inquisitor. Paying the price for things like that really should be my job, head of a huge, powerful organization or not. I have an ominous fear that the decision will make a U-turn and bite me in the butt, but we'll just see how the dice roll, I suppose. If it's bad, I'll replay and make a different decision. Maybe. But I didn't want Morrigan to go through that while having a son, whatever Flemythal says or not. No one knows what the future holds yet, and...and I may secretly have hungered for the knowledge, desired the angst and drama and all things in between of having such a thing done to myself, and wanted that special conversation with Solas. And anyway, practically everyone's approval if not maxed, was high. Solas' was maxed, Cole's was, Varric and Cassandra and Dorian's and Blackwall's too. My Quizzy was closest to Solas and Cole, but Dorian's a BFF for life, and Cass is her girlfriend-best friend. Varric's one of her closest friends as well. She wasn't as close to the others, but they were still her friends. *Whispers.* Cole is my baby. Anyone who tries to harm him will face my wrath. Bad things will happen. Cole is even more precious to me and my Quizzy after the Solas agony.
This is actually the first Bioware game playthrough that I haven't started over partway through the game. I did it with all the others I've played for a number of reasons. Also, besides some missing mosaics, bottles of Thedas, three or so Wartable missions I have left, and the Spoils of Desecration I absolutely refuse to finish because I'd feel awful, I did everything. I did it in under 120 hours of game play. Considering I expected my playthrough to be much, much longer, I'm proud of myself.
Abelas was sexy, I won't deny. I'm in the boat of wanting him as a companion in the next game. I would roll an Inquisitor or a player character just for him. But my canon Lavellen is Solas' still. It's his own fault for giving her a shred of hope to cling to.
I wish my artistic skills were better. I need to practice, because I have some ideas I'd love to see in artwork form, but alas, we shall see.
I've rambled way, way more than I intended. x3 Sorry. I just enjoyed myself immensely, and will undoubtedly roll a replay of my canon at some point, alongside other characters. If you need me, I'll be in my spot of the blanket fort, catching up on replies I undoubtedly have now.
P.S. I removed the vallaslin, for reasons, which I'll refrain from going on about since it will make this reply even closer to an essay. They're parallel to some reasons already stated on this thread, anyhow.
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