"Of course," she said. "No need for 'messere.' My name is Tempest. What can I do for you?"
"Tempest," he repeated. "I like that name, messe- Tempest." Manners were a hard habit to break. His hands moved to clasp behind his back. "I hope you do not mind. I saw what you did on the field and it was breathtaking. I am sorry - I did not know that I traveled with other mages." He offered her a wider smile.
Tempest flushed a deep crimson. She was deeply flattered to have her magic praised in such generous terms - she had never been called "breathtaking" in any context before, and knew she likely never would again - but also a little embarrassed and worried. She had drawn too much attention. That wasn't a good idea.
Etienne was the sort to give praise where praise was due. People rarely heard enough of it. "Ah, thank you," he replied genuinely. "Though I feel your compliments are misplaced... I nearly dropped my staff in fright twice!" He shivered and pulled a face.
The fight had frightened him and very closely paid attention would have revealed at least a few signs of his nerves. He was, first and foremost, a healer. The transition to something else left him more than a little shaky.
"I was frightened, too," Tempest admitted. "It's a natural emotion in a fight. You did well, though. The important part is getting through."
"Thank you," she said. "You are most kind. Your own magic was very impressive. And I'm glad you like the name; I chose it myself. May I ask your name in return, messere?"
Offering his hand, he dipped his head cordially. "I am Etienne Durand, from the Circle of Magi at Kinloch Hold."
She shook the offered hand. Her sleeve flopped back slightly, but the linen wrappings ensured no skin was visible on her wrists.
It was a risk, allowing the conversation to proceed, but it was nice to have a friendly face. If they were going to be traveling together for a time, surely there was no harm in pleasantries.
"Please to meet you, Etienne. It's a nice name. I'm afraid I don't have a surname of my own reciprocate. Kinloch Hold, hm? I've never been there, but a friend has told me all about how lovely Lake Calenhad is."
"Really?" he replied gratefully, expelling a quick breath and running a gloved hand through his hair. "Maker, I'm glad to hear you say that. I've got plans to go cry quietly in a corner once we're back at the inn. I'm afraid I'm overwhelmed! Overwhelmed but... somewhat normal, yes?" He stood a little more proudly after that. Battle was a rush and this one, his first. Sparring was something else entirely. There was comfort and relief in knowing that your fight would never end with anyone in danger. Battle was completely different.
As his hand slipped away from her's, the flash of material wrapped around her wrist caught his attention. Outside fashion was so foreign to him. It must have been a comfortable alternative to heavy gold bands or ornate jewelry. His gaze lifted back up to meet hers the moment she mentioned the lake.
"I trust your friend advised you of the various sea monsters that fill the lake, yes?”
"Entirely normal," Tempest agreed. "Perhaps if you fight enough battles, you get used to it. I wouldn't know. My life doesn't involve much fighting."
Well, not fighting of the physical variety, anyway. She did wrestle with the nightmares, and with keeping the darker thoughts and memories at bay.
A faint, amused smile curved her lips when he spoke of Lake Calenhad. "No, my friend said nothing of this - a serious oversight, perhaps? But surely they would be lake monsters. Calenhad is not the sea, after all. Freshwater versus saltwater, no? Different creatures entirely."
The expression on her face suggested she understood that he was pulling her leg, and she was playing along in her own peculiar way.
"...we had them imported," he replied indignantly. "From Orlais. It is a serious oversight, indeed. And you should have words with your friend for denying you the knowledge"
He never went into a conversation thinking that it was a game, or some sort of sport, but there was an undeniable sense of relief the moment they just went with whatever he had to say. It was how he built rapport with his fellow mages. He'd rather speak of sea monsters than terrifying battles any day.
"In fact," he continued, "many people have asked me, 'Etienne? How did you get from Val Royeaux to Lake Calenhad?' I am always fearful to tell them, as it is my greatest secret. But I will tell you now, Tempest." His gaze moved from her to their companions, lingering on Rael a few beats longer than anyone else. "I triumphantly rode in on a water chariot pulled by fifteen sea monsters. All at the age of fifteen."
She didn't fail to notice Etienne's glance lingering on Rael. So that was how things were. Tempest had to hide a smile. That was nice for them. She hoped it would work out for them. Surely love was a bright spot in a world full of darkness. Tempest chuckled, then pulled her face into an expression of mock seriousness and awe. It felt good, joking around with someone like she did at home.
"That is amazing, Etienne Durand of Kinloch Hold! Truly, you are a mage to be feared! Even these mighty creatures bend to your iron will."
Etienne pulled his shoulders back proudly and gave her a firm nod. "And then I set them free to live their lives out in the lake, safe from Orlesian nobility. They'd have been trussed up with beads and rubies, plated in gold. They are very popular pets, you see."
Prior to his Harrowing, Etienne spent almost all the time he had (outside of his studies) building incredulous stories about the outside world with the other children. It gave them hope, and in some ways solace, to think of the outside as a place filled with odd things they'd not want to meet face-to-face. It was one thing to say 'you should be locked away in here for safety reasons' and another entirely to add 'because one-hundred foot giants and flying waterfowl will attack you.'
Shaking his head, he shrugged and clasped his hands behind his back again. "I miss then, you know. They're named. Each one. My own family back at the Circle, those sea monsters."
Tempest smiled at that. "Ser, you are truly a humanitarian as well as a formidable mage. It was a great gift to those sea monsters, saving them from fashion and politics. Two things I myself have very little patience for. Will you return to the circle someday? You and your sea monster family could be together again."
Etienne missed his Circle with it's rounded walls and steadfastness. His expectations were clear and firm at all times. Life rarely changed and while there was excitement every few days, and typically not the type he wanted to get involved in, turbulence just wasn't something he was used to. The part of him that cherished solace guaranteed he thought about going home almost constantly.
"Always here to serve," he replied, head bowed. "I shall, yes. I have just a fortnight till I will either need to request an extension or return to the Circle. We'll have much to talk about. They're unfamiliar with fine wine and dusty roads. And you? Which do you hail from?"
Tempest nodded her understanding. She should have seen the reciprocal question coming, but it still managed to take her up short. She wasn't sure how to answer. Any misstep could be danger, but Tempest was neither skilled at dissembling nor had much patience for it.
"I... erm... it's complicated. I'm originally from Kirkwall. I was trained there, but I had to leave."
"Oh," he replied, brows raised. "Did you know Enchanter Saleiri? She was elven, from Denerim. I was her apprentice."
It was as if he assumed that she had simply been moved to another Circle. Surely she wasn't an apostate. Those were mean, nasty, wicked souls who tormented the innocent and performed blood magic on every street corner. Or at least that's the impression he was given by the lay sisters. Tempest was clearly no maleficar.
"I'm sure she was there around the same time as you. I bet she's about your age."
Tempest nodded. "I knew her," she said. "We weren't close. I... kept my distance from people, back in Kirkwall."
If she had gotten too close to anyone, her secret might have gotten out. Had that happened, she probably would have been killed. Although introverted, Tempest was a social creature. Isolating herself had been difficult and against her nature. Even so, survival instinct had proven even stronger. She'd been friendly with many, but had no close friends to speak of.
"She's a good woman and a talented mage. I thought well of her."
"I'm sure she would be pleased to know that you are well," he replied, "should you like for me to inform her."
He thought Saleiri to be the most talented mage he had encountered and for many years, her opinion dictated his. By approving of his former instructor, a million possibly false conclusions could be immediately drawn. She didn't say 'That Saleiri was a Chantry watch-dog and her compliance was a danger to all mages.' He had heard that opinion many times and knew that once it came out, it was best for him to stop listening.
"She is in Amaranthine now, should that be part of your travels."
"I would appreciate it if you would be so kind as to pass my well-wishes on to Enchanter Saleiri," Tempest said cautiously. "I'm not so sure she would think highly of me, though. I've made some decisions that she would not understand. There were things in Kirkwall she was not aware of. Still, I am happy to hear she is well."
Frowning, Etienne took a moment to straighten out his doublet. His former teacher had been the pinnacle of grace and kindness. It was hard for him to believe that she'd look down on anyone. "I will," he replied, pausing to knock a bit of Maker-knows-what that had dried to one of his buttons. "Though I am sorry to hear that. She is a very accepting woman. I can't imagine what you would have done that she'd not understand." Shaking his head, his eyes lifted back up to her and his lips raised with a smile. "I am sure you are fine, messere. I have done some stupid things and she never judged me, not once."
Tempest wondered if she should just drop the subject. But no, he'd find out as soon as he mentioned her to his teacher. Asking him not to speak of her would just have made it worse. If she just told him the truth as straightforwardly as she could, maybe she could explain, make him understand.
"I left Kirkwall," she said. "It wasn't safe there, so I left. I didn't have much of a choice. I have a new circle now. But it is not... one that the powers that be would sanction."
"I can't imagine how Kirkwall would have been unsafe," he replied quietly, brow furrowed as he watched her. Young, idealistic, and naive - he embraced all of those qualities in that moment as he clearly pondered the wrong part of that sentence. "There is no place safer than under the Chantry watch and in the arms of your Circle."
But he was a smart boy. Clearly the gears in his head did turn and his expression shifted from confusion to curiosity, surprise to overwhelming worry. When his eyes widened he instinctively moved closer to fill the gap between them and allow his tone to become no more than a hiss. "What? An unsanctioned circle? Are you mad?"
Tempest flinched when Etienne told her that no place was safer than the Circle. Of course he didn't believe her. Why would he? This was exactly what she had been threatened about. They would call her a liar. Then another accusation would come: blood mage. She wasn't safe here. Not outside her own circle. She never should have come.
"It's not mad," she said softly. "Mages need circles. I tried to do this on my own and I hated it. I need their support. I need their... their love. We're like a family. It's better for me than I've ever been. I'm happier, but it's not just that. The temptation we all face as mages - it's so much less for me now."
Tempest took a step back. She never should have confided anything in Etienne. Or in anybody, for that matter. Had a few days of isolation really made her so stupid?
"I should go," she said.
He was conflicted more than anything, both intrigued by the idea of an unsanctioned Circle and horrified on her behalf. The shock faded as he listened to her, though. He paused to glance around again, checking on their comrades, and let out a sigh. "Messere Tempest," he replied quickly, motioning for her to stop. "I will not... I'm not to say a word, I promise." Inasmuch as his own Circle was an odd place of comfort and solace for him, the idea of a 'family' just wasn't there. The mages formed their own clusters and felt adoration for one another, of course, but there wasn't 'family.'
Confidence. She needed confidence that she had not just said something so important to someone who would fetch the next Templar in sight. He was earnest as he motioned for her to come back. "Please do not be offended by my surprise."
Somewhat reassured, Tempest took a deep breath and turned back to Etienne.
"Thank you," she said. "I'm not. Offended, that is. I was just... frightened. I have so much to lose now. And I suppose I got used to being afraid. It's a difficult habit to break, although I'm trying."
She offered him another faint smile. "I'm sorry I took you by surprise. I'm sure it's an odd thing to digest."
Wincing, he shook his head. "And please do not be frightened by me. Or my reactions. I promise you, messere, I mean you no harm." Maker, was it difficult for him to grasp. It had been drilled into his head that all those who sit outside of Chantry control were apostates or, worse, maleficar. They'd make it sound as if you couldn't so much as look at them without an attack. Same was said of the Dalish, actually, and he hadn't been killed by their elf friend either.
Drawing himself up proudly, he stuck his hand out between them. "Let's start over. My name is Etienne Durand, Circle Mage, hopeful Enchanter, sometimes daft, often silly, never a danger. Pleasure to meet you."
Tempest grinned more broadly now, and shook his hand. "Pleased to meet you, Messere Etienne Durand. I am Tempest, no last name, of the nameless circle. It is a pleasure to re-make your acquaintance."
Now that they had reached an understanding again, she didn't want to create conflict by bringing up any details about Kirkwall that would seem far fetched to him, so she needed to tread carefully.
"I apologize for my reaction. I have had... difficult times... in the past, but those were not of your making. I should not have been so distrustful. You've given me no reason to be."
His smile broadened in return. "The pleasure is mine, messere," he replied warmly as his other hand covered her's as well.
"No need to apologize. My impression of the Circle is not always the most popular, yes? Though I cannot imagine why my experience would be so different from other's, I cannot discount it either. I believe my faith in the Maker and his Bride to be my saving grace." He nodded and clasped his hands behind his back once more. "I understand trust is earned. And as long as we journey together, I will see that I am worthy of any I am afforded by you."
"I'm glad that you're happy in your Circle," Tempest said sincerely. "Truly I am. I've heard good things about Kinloch Hold. Had I been taken to that Circle instead, things might have been different. But my life took another path."
She had brightened when Etienne spoke of the Maker and Andraste.
"Then we share our beliefs," she told him. "Without my faith in the Maker - in a better future someday - I would not have survived this long. I will do my best to earn your trust, too, and to do right by this group and anyone who needs our help."
"I am happy in my Circle, yes," he replied, albeit unconvincingly. His voice failed him, betraying him, but he cleared his throat and moved on. "I believe Kinloch to be among the best of them. I had first been placed at the White Spire, but I was moved. Too... dangerous, that place. Too revolutionary."
He frowned in distaste, but quickly brushed it off.
Tempest caught the hint of hesitation, and it concerned her. Surely he wouldn't...? But of course he would. She had insisted for years that all was well for her in Kirkwall, hadn't she? It could not have been further from the truth, but it was the only way to keep herself alive and spare herself even worse pain.
"Etienne, they aren't... they aren't hurting you, are they? If they are, you can tell me. I'll believe you. I promise. Even if no one else does."
His eyes opened wide and mouth fell open. "Oh no, I do not mean to say-" Cutting himself off, he looked away quickly. He was often accused of viewing the tower far too optimistically. And it was hard for him to imagine that things were as bad as some would say, as he just didn't see much of it. Yes, mages would be imprisoned when they had done wrong, but when the Templars said it had been for their own good (and the lay sisters agreed), Etienne believed them. He had no reason to not trust them. He was a good, studious believer and any punishment he had ever gotten was minor, at worst.
But Tempest came across as trustworthy as could be. And if she so easily asked if he had been hurt, it could only mean that she had reason to believe it plausible.
"...does that happen, Tempest?"
Tempest looked down, suddenly self-conscious. Would he believe her? Did she want to destroy the illusion of safety he had if he did? She tried to remember what it had been like when she thought it was impossible, too. It was so long ago. She couldn't quite recapture how it felt.
She simply rubbed her wrist out of habit, and nodded.
"Maker," he hissed as he watched her. There was something so powerful in that moment and he blinked hard a couple of times, tearing his line of sight away from Tempest and back to their companions. It took a couple of forceful swallows and the clearing of his throat before he could continue. "Messere Tempest, I must ask that we discuss this further. Not now. But.. very soon."
Tempest nodded again. She looked up, and when she did her smile was back.
"Of course, Etienne. I hope I haven't made you uncomfortable by saying too much. I'm happy to talk to you again, though. Perhaps we can discuss matters of faith, too. There are few I can share such conversation with, and I would welcome the chance."
"Not uncomfortable," he replied without skipping a beat. "Not in the least bit. I know I am not the most observant man and I wonder how much I have truly missed." A loaded statement for him, at least.
Tempest was relieved to hear that Etienne wasn't uncomfortable. She was used to living with her own problems. The last thing she wanted was to be a burden to anyone else.
He brought his hand up to rest against the back of his neck and offered her a kind smile. "I would like that as well, Messere Tempest. It would be interesting to know how our teachings apply to life outside the tower."
"No need for Messere. Just Tempest among friends," she said gently. "We will speak again soon then, Etienne."