As everyone began the short journey back to the warden's house, Rael caught sight of Bartha, walking towards the middle of the group, looking pensive indeed. It suddenly occurred to her that the entire battle on the hill--and the near death of Beldin for the second time that night--had been caused by Bartha somehow. Beldin himself seemed to hold no ill will towards the dwarf, but that did nothing to assuage Rael's curiosity on how a quiet evening in the library morphed into a ferocious combat on a windy hilltop.
She slowed her pace until Bartha was near her side then said to her, testing the waters, "Bartha, you seemed in peril back there. Are you alright?"
Bartha looked up when she heard someone addressing her, getting disturbed from her thoughts. She noticed that Rael had joined her side. "Me in peril? Na, those idiots were just looking for a key..." Bartha stopped trying when she noticed that her usual sense of humor failed miserably. She looked at the ground before her. "Perhaps I was... guess I'm alright, as my screwing up didn't cost anyone of the group their lives... but I have no idea why you came after me. Or found me in the first place."
"You were kind enough to leave a note detailing your whereabouts, so you weren't too hard to locate." Rael replied with a good-natured smile. "And why wouldn't we come after you?" Rael clapped her hand on Bartha's shoulder affectionately. "Just because you were fool enough to run off alone, doesn't mean we were fool enough to let you."
Bartha sent Rael a shy smile. "It's a good thing not everyone is such a fool as I am, ey? Better be careful though, it might rub off."
Rael chuckled at Bartha's words, but then her expression went somber. "I have to ask," she said in a low, conspiratorial voice, "what would make you do such a thing--depart without saying a word to us?"
Her smiled faded quickly, replaced by an ashamed, sad expression. "Summarized: I panicked..." She looked up at Rael. "I was confused... Beldin had mentioned that I should speak to Tarl, and when I did, he did all of a sudden call for a trial..." She turned her head and looked at the ground again. "I realized I'd just dragged the lamb to the slaughter, and well, I couldn't bear the thought of watching Beldin call for his own death." She blinked rapidly. "I thought you'd all hate me, but instead you run after me and risk your own lives." She frowned, recalling how two crossbow bolts barely missed her, and felt her face go pale. Her voice was unsteady and soft. "Or maybe you did come to get revenge... please know that I do not plan to fight you, if you do."
"Revenge?" Rael asked, startled. "Had we wanted your harm, we'd not have fought to the death to defend you." She paused for a moment, hearing the harshness in her words that she hadn't intended. "No," she said in a gentler tone. "I only wish to understand what happened. Why you felt the need to go to Tarl instead of coming to us. I thought..." she pressed her lips together, her expression stormy. "I thought us friends, Bartha."
Bartha shrugged. "Perhaps I was just lucky to dodge your crosbow bolts." She sighed and shook her head when she realized that Raels words were true: if they had intended to confront her, they had already done so, and not let her return with them. Her voice softened: "I know it's not an excuse Rael, but... I wasn't thinking clearly. There was alcohol involved, and lots of emotions. As Tarl and Beldin seem to know each other for a longer time, I thought that he would be able to ease my mind... to confirm to me that it was all a misunderstanding and Beldin was indeed innocent. You know, it's confusing if someone one moment confesses a crime to you, and the next moment says he hasn't done it? I was scared... alone in some basement and with a bottle of wine in my stomach. If I had foreseen the consequences I would not have done this, even though it apparently turned out well." She couldn't bring up the courage to look at Rael, so she kept looking at the ground. "I understand if you can no longer trust me... Perhaps I tried to escape myself."
"I can imagine how alcohol might have...complicated things," Rael allowed. She'd been in enough taverns to know that reasonable people could lose their faculties in a hurry with the right concoctions in their bellies. Still, she could see the dwarf was tearing herself up and that didn't sit right with her. All Bartha had done when she'd heard of Beldin's supposed crime was ask for verification. Rael, on the other hand...
"Let me tell you something, Bartha. It may help assuage your guilt, or it may make you look at me even more sideways than you already are." She took a breath and considered how to begin. "You just learned of Beldin's conviction tonight." She looked over at Bartha with a chagrined expression. "Would you be surprised to learn I had known about it since the night we were at the Fuldor place?"
Bartha quickly turned her head towards Rael. "You did?" She stared at the elf incredulously. Her surprised look slowly turned into a frown, as her mind filled with heaps of questions and thoughts again. "But how...?" She shook her head and sighed. "Alright, maybe I don't want to know..." She pinched the bridge of her nose as images of an undressing Beldin haunted her mind. "On the other hand... it might finally cure me. I guess that the whole situation made being about exactly Beldin made it even harder... I'm an idiot Rael, and I should know better. If I hadn't let my hormones do the thinking, I wouldn't have upset him that much and therefore never had this whole escalation." She let out a groan. "And to think that I exactly wanted a drink to drown my self-pity after all the flirting and such at Fuldors..." Sideways glancing at Rael, she became aware that he was busy interrupting the elf in her story. "Sorry, what did you want to tell me?"
Rael tried to keep her eyes from growing too wide as Bartha unfurled a series of words and ideas, one more confusing than the next. Clearly she was lacking some context here. "I... I cannot speak to what transpired between you and Beldin," she said quickly. "What I can tell you is that I had a... misunderstanding with Beldin that night first night away from the Inn. Or, rather, we misunderstood each other."
She sighed and pushed back the blood-stained memories that crowded her thoughts. "He showed me his brand in a fit of anger, and I was afraid and cornered. He'd assumed I already knew about it, but of course I didn't, so I thought he meant to attack me. I drew my sword to defend myself and he ended up with it in his side." She brought her fist to her lips and managed to swallow down the nausea that the thought brought back to her. "It was an accident--he fell onto my sword. But the damage was done and if Etienne hadn't happened by, I think Beldin would have..." Rael trailed off, unable to finish the thought aloud.
Bartha reached out and put a hand on Rael’s shoulder. "I guess we both know how it feels, than? I didn't have my weapons with me, although at some point Beldin offered me his sword... I just wanted to flee, but I can totally understand your response." She gently squeezed. "I guess the man has an army of fade spirits looking after him, after all."
She leaned in towards Rael, and whispered: "And I'm glad to see things working out between you and Etienne... You have more luck with that than I have."
Rael smiled at Bartha's reassurances and said, "I merely wanted you to know that your action was perfectly understandable. Truly, he suffered more by me than he did by you." She looked over her shoulder to where Beldin walked, a free man. "Because of you, the stain of guilt no longer follows him. Whether it was your intention or not, you saved his life."
When Bartha made the comment about Etienne, Rael felt a blush spread across her face. "I...hm, yes, thank you--lucky, indeed," she managed, obviously flustered. "The future is always uncertain, but for now, I, er..." As the blush overtook her, she gave up on speaking and merely smiled to herself.
Bartha took a deep breath. She knew that the end result of her actions had been well, but it would probably take some time to shrug of the feeling of guilt anyway. But Rael was right: Beldin had finally managed to come to terms with the happenings at Amarantine, or at least appeared to be. A small smile formed on her lips, as she looked back and forth between Beldin, Tessa and Tempest. After what had happened at the cellar, it would indeed be best for everyone if she'd backed away. There was something in the air anyway, and only time would tell how things would turn out... But there was the pairing between Rael and Etienne, and Laurelin and Mercuriel... surely another one would flourish soon enough.
She looked at Rael, who was still all flustered. "Just do me a favor, and enjoy your time, alright?"
Rael's smile widened. "I shall do just that," she replied pleasantly. "And you must do *me* a favor and don't run off like that again!"
Bartha laughed: "Sounds like a fair favor... I'll do that. I assume that running of *with* someone is not included?"
Erupting into lighthearted laughter, Rael responded, "So long as you don't do it in the middle of the night!"
Bartha feinted a pout: "But that is exactly the most fun part..."
Rael threw her arm around Bartha's shoulder and said, "Oh, Bartha, you'll never be dull at least!"